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My father died in 2006 from a heroine overdose. I hadn't spoken to him for two years before he died. Two weeks before he died I was driving doen the road and he was crossing the street I speed up so that he would not notice me. That was the last time I would have ever been able to see him. I know the pain of your lose only a little bit my father although only 46 had a onger life than your daughter. My prayers and thoughts go out to you.
Shelly
Fitchburg, Ma USA - Thursday, July 29, 2010I attended the meeting eariler tonight and was so moved by your presentation.... I commend you for what you do for the children and parents through your own personal loss of your beautiful daughter... God Bless you and your family always and many thanks... I wish I would have brought my daughter and grandchildren but I will make sure they will be at the next one....
candace m. calloway <candywhirl@aol.com>
middletown, de 19709 - Monday, July 26, 2010I to Erin was a very gifted talent young lady. I feel your pain and I understand you so much we are one. I too got hooked on pain pills with withdrawls so powerful you couldn't stop because you felt you would die. I put my family through so much pain and heartache because of my addiction. They never gave up on me just like your family never gave up on you and please remember you are truly a blessing you are so blessed. God loves the ones he have to forgive the most, the most. Today I am a recovering addict of 2 years and one month I regularly attend AA meetings have a relationship with my family and A God of my understanding. I don't know you but I do know you. You are my sister and friend and I love you. Remember in AA when they said some of us must die for others to live you died for me to live so I know you are in heaven cause you were God's chosen and trusted angel and for that I'm thankful for and I honor you in your death as well as so many more young women you have saved and will continue to save. Rest in Peace my Sister and Child of God our God.
Aisha Crump <aisha.crump67511@go.hindscc.edu>
jackson, ms USA - Saturday, July 24, 2010I to Erin was a very gifted talent young lady. I feel your pain and I understand you so much we are one. I too got hooked on pain pills with withdrawls so powerful you couldn't stop because you felt you would die. I put my family through so much pain and heartache because of my addiction. They never gave up on me just like your family never gave up on you and please remember you are truly a blessing you are so blessed. God loves the ones he have to forgive the most, the most. Today I am a recovering addict of 2 years and one month I regularly attend AA meetings have a relationship with my family and A God of my understanding. I don't know you but I do know you. You are my sister and friend and I love you. Remember in AA when they said some of us must die for others to live you died for me to live so I know you are in heaven cause you were God's chosen and trusted angel and for that I'm thankful for and I honor you in your death as well as so many more young women you have saved and will continue to save. Rest in Peace my Sister and Child of God our God.
Aisha Crump <aisha.crump67511@go.hindscc.edu>
jackson, ms USA - Saturday, July 24, 2010Dear Mrs.Allen,
I remember when you came to Talley Midlle School in Wilmington Delaware. Everybody was non stop talkong about your presentation. I have left the school and one of the big things that happened there was reading your extravegant book and your wonderful presentation. I have heard many stories about drugs, but your story was the most powerful. You can't just tell a kid to not do drugs and expect to not do. You actually have to give them a reason why to be scared. You have done so. I want to thank you again. I know i already sent you a message but you just popped in my head and went straight to your site. So again, thank you.
Miranda Carter <ButterfingerCutie5@yahoo.com>
Middletown, DE USA - Tuesday, July 13, 2010There are no mistakes, no coincidences. All events are blessings given to us to learn from. ~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
a friend
USA - Sunday, July 11, 2010RIP Erin. I miss you. I hope others learn from your life.
MARIE ALLEN
USA - Wednesday, June 23, 2010There are no mistakes, no coincidences. All events are blessings given to us to learn from. ~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
a friend
USA - Tuesday, June 15, 2010wel excus short but sweet abreviations.life is shit an its not as helpful over here!im an alcoholic thats been st8 4 3 mths on meth but was on subutex 4 2yrs an st8 den my pa died of cancer :( my only relativ but my ma has new siblings since i was 14 im now 33.hav gr8 step pa but they live 1hr away an dnt wana hurt dem they no but im stuk wid 12yr partner who injects which i never hav an iv had a blast but im so scared 2 b on my own.which i feel most wood find typical?!he dont drink but i find it takes da blues away??? 4 yrs.i lov my family but i dont wana burden them.im honest an never stole but hav dealt on an off 4 5 yrs!my god dat seems so long on paper.im desperate 4 real help but its always da same.i pride myself 4 bein a good dealer,never stitched or lied always on time god no's how i got away wid it?had good job not much affection in family so if i can giv any advise just tel them u lov them everyday an hug lots cos thats what i found i luved wid my man.he has never hurt me nor my own family but i hav this need of his protection!pathetic i no but there!no sex 4 3yrs it doesnt mater u c just safety eh? i wish we had sponsers over here but its sip an go im afraid. x
gemma milner <gemmad4it@googlemail.com>
reading, england - Sunday, June 06, 2010My name is Matt I'm 30 years old and have been clean for almost 6 years now.I am on a methadone clinic which is the reason I am clean today.Erin's story is identical to mine except for the horrible tragedy that happened.It's been a while since I have been on this page but I like to read what other people say, so thank you for this.To everybody who is still suffering from this deadly disease there is help out there don't be afraid to ask.It took me a long time but I just had enough.This disease will bring you to your knees, don't let it get you to that point.Thank you Marie for this page.God Bless.
Matt J <mattyj427@yahoo.com>
Bath, Pa USA - Sunday, June 06, 2010Please do not stop your work. My own child survived an OD as a 17 year old. More help is so needed. the world needs you people like me need you Cj <CharleLovele@aol.com>
Perkasie, PA USA - Monday, May 31, 2010your daughters life sounded identical to mine i began my herion addiction at 13yrs old.i am now 24 this july and have been clean for 9months on my methadone.i know myself how hard it is to beat an addiction and i also know what your daughter went through it's just a shame that the people that are supposed to help you dont actually recognise the amount of help that you are needing on those bad day's.i just hope that you know that erin is now at peace
laura weddell
edinburgh, scotland - Sunday, May 30, 2010There are no mistakes, no coincidences. All events are blessings given to us to learn from. ~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
anon
USA - Thursday, May 27, 2010hi marie you came to my school today my mom died of a heart attack nicole spiker <sagreen7@yahoo.com>
elkton, md USA - Thursday, May 20, 2010Dear Mrs.Allen,
I really apperciate your coming to our local school and giving a speech about heorin and your daughter Erin I belived her story changed all of my friends and classmates and helped them belive about the reality in front of us thank you so much for holding back your tears and sharing your story,
I appreciated your visit
A Pittsville Middle Student
Darien Fouts <ocgirl96@yahoo.com>
Pittsville, MD USA - Tuesday, May 18, 2010HI YOU CAME TO MY SCHOOL TODAY TO SHARE ERINS STORY ON 5/18/10 THANK YOU FOR OPENING MY EYES UP I WONT EVER DO DRUGS IM SORRY YOU LOST YOUR DAUGHTER!!!!!!
osama baig <obfromny@hotmail.com>
salisbury, md USA - Tuesday, May 18, 2010hello. my name is kira. you came to my school on 5/18/10 and shared your story. when you showed the last picture of Erin, i couldnt help but think what a horriable image it must have been for you to see your daughter like that. i couldnt help myself from crying. it had to have been your worst nightmare.! i am truly sorry for your loss. and i just wanted to say thank you for opening up my eyes to all of the other people in the world and not just focusing on all of my problems that i think are the end of the world. i just wanted to say thank you very much for having an great impact on my life.
Kira <peacebaby216@yahoo.com>
salisbury, md USA - Tuesday, May 18, 2010Hi.:) I am also a reader of "Dope Help" ! I am so sorry for your lost! Erin truly seemed like a very bright and exstroidinary girl. I never really paid attention to drug addicts or the affects of people on drugs until I read your book. I' ve learned a lot from this book ! & I know the book is an inspiration to many people... You sharing Erins experience with people an inspiration to others . God Bless you and all of you family and friends ! K. <none>
U.S.A - Monday, May 03, 2010im lucila and im in the 8th grade, im in the school bayard middle school. we just started reading the story DOPE HELP in my health class.i aks to take the book home to finish reading it. i really dont like to read books but i read the first chapter an i was into the book last night i was in my room reading it .as i was reading it tears came out .i im sooo sorry about what happen to Erin.i know a couple people who are doing drugs i fell so sorry for them because all there doing is causing trouble to them selfs. again i am so sorry for what happen to her. and am proud of you for being a strong mom and helping your on child. if i was a mom i wont have the courage to share the sad story.i feel so sorry. this story change alot of teenager and adults life and i hope it changes more lives.thank you for sharing your story
lucila <sandovall80@yahoo.com>
wilmington, de USA - Friday, April 30, 2010im lucila and im in the 8th grade, im in the school bayard middle school. we just started reading the story DOPE HELP in my health class.i aks to take the book home to finish reading it. i really dont like to read books but i read the first chapter an i wanted to finish reading last night i was in my room reading it .as i was reading it tears came out .i im sooo sorry about what happen to Erin.i now a couple people who are doing drugs i fell so sorry for them because all there doing is causing trouble to them selfs. again i am so sorry for what happen to her. and in proud of you for being a strong mom and helping your on child. if i was a mom i wont have the courage to share the sad story.i feel so sorry. this story change alot of teenager and adults life and i hope it changes more lives.thank you for sharing your story
lucila <sandovall80@yahoo.com>
wilmington, de USA - Friday, April 30, 2010Im a 8th grader at Talley Middle school ; we recently just finished reading "Dope Help" . im so very sorry for your loss. I was soo sad at the end when she got clean & then those old memories brought her backk to thiinking about the drug again. God Bless you & your family ; your iin my prayers <3
Jessie Grimes <grmsyfootball@yahoo.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, April 27, 2010God Bless you for sharing this story about your daughter! I pray that this tragedy saves a life!
Linda <lmcdougal35@yahoo.com>
Alliance, Oh USA - Tuesday, April 27, 2010Hi my name is sam you came to delaware Tech today in Dover to speack to my criminal justice class. You left before i got to say. May God bless you Erin - your story was truly an inspiration to not only me but my class also. Thanks for all you did. you have taught me something that i wont forget and will be able to pass on.
Sam
SamSmith <trackstarsam@gmail.com>
middletown, de USA - Monday, April 26, 2010Pray fo me. My beloved Scott died 1 weeek ago of a heroin OD. He had been clen 6 months and ran into an old drug fried. He had over 300 people atend his funeral. He was so loved. My heart aches for him. The person who sold has sold before. I cannot imagine beung his mother either. Noone raises a junkie. I am lost. Pray for me... Robin
Robin Roth <rroth1313@yahoo.com>
roanoke, va USA - Thursday, April 15, 2010Wow! What an honor to hear from you, Marie Allen Mother, What a wonderful Person your are, very special,Thank you so Much. it was Erin's story that help me recover, being, that were both born on the same month April, makes feel more honered to share with you my small story, I've been clean 10 years now, I have help others recover also, I feel anyone who "Wills Them SELF over Reson" that they can walk amongs the land of the Liveing, and Life on earth is Wonederful with Beauty for all it's Worth,it was your desire to share something so personal that awaken me, and it was Erin's story that help face "Cold Turkey" and recover and after 28 years of struggel with herion I made it. Thank YOU , Erin's Mother. for sharing part of your Heart. Blessing...Nakaii
Nakaii <koyoda2000@yahoo.com>
ak USA - Monday, April 12, 2010Happy Birthday my sweet angel. I miss you so much. love Mom
Marie Allen (Erin's Mom) <allensos@verizon.net>
Wilmington, de USA - Saturday, April 03, 2010i havent been on this site in an age but mrs Allen you are still going out there and spreading Erins story what a courageous woman you are ,my one wish for today is that you find some inner happiness and that something really special happens for you and your family ,you are doing a great job just look at all the people who contact you always, remember you have made a difference to thousands of lives,thats a reqal special feeling in itself blessings from eire x
mj <maryjmul@yahoo,co,uk>
ireland west , ireland - Friday, April 02, 2010dear marie,GOD BLESS YOU & ERIN. ERIN'S STORY WAS VERY TOUCHING. I ALSO LOST A YOUNG PERSON TO HEROIN.MY HOMETOWN HAS NOT WANTED TO ACCEPT WE HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THIS DRUG.I HAD HOPED MY SONS DEATH WOULD OF HAD AN IMPACT ON OTHERS,BUT 5 MONTHS LATER WE HAD ANOTHER DEATH.MY SON AARON WAS 20 YRS. OLD & HAD A 1 YR. OLD DAUGHTER HE LEFT BEHIND.MY HEART GOES GOES OUT TO YOU & ALL THE OTHER 'ERIN'S & AARON'S IN THE WORLD.I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH A BEAUTIFUL GRANDDAUGHTER 'AMIAH' WHO WILL NEVER KNOW HER DADDY.R.I.P.EACH & EVERY ONE OF YOU!!!
terri <terrilauck@aim'com>
arlington, ohio USA - Tuesday, March 30, 2010Erin, your story is saving lives, that is for sure. We all love you.
no name
DE USA - Saturday, March 27, 2010Hello Marie! Thank you so much for coming to The Independence School on 3/4/10. Please continue your wonderful talks about "Heroin"! My daughter and I learned a lot that evening. What a great way to inform parents and their children about a nasty addition! You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers for your loss. Erin was a beautiful young women and deserved to live her life to it's fullest! Thank you for taking your time to save a life of someone's son or daughter from the heroin addition. God Bless you...sincerely, Christine (a mother of an 8th grader at The Independence School)
Christine <christinecko@comcast.net>
Wilmington, DE USA - Monday, March 08, 2010Marie...I wrote on this register a few years ago about how much i was struggling as an addict. Good news - i now have over 2 years clean!! I never thought i'd be able to live without heroin, but i proved myself wrong. It took many relapses and many months of sheer misery, but I made it! I only wish Erin would have been as lucky as I have been. I think of you and her often...this website has definitely helped me stay clean by simply not feeling alone. Keep doing what you're doing. How can I get a copy of Dope Help?
To all the addicts and families of addicts out there still suffering...please e-mail me if you want to talk, need some advice on staying clean, or just want to vent. I would love to share my sobriety.
Lindsay <lindsaysaxon@gmail.com>
Florence, KY USA - Friday, March 05, 2010Dear Marie,
I have not posted on here for probably a year or so although I visit from time to time.In the last month I have lost two friends to heroin overdose.It is so sad.My son is still using and he is going to be a dad in July I pray every day he will get clean so this baby has a fair chance of having a healthy daddy.I wish there was something we could do as mothers but all we can do is guide our children and wait for them to want the help.I think the proudest day a mom can have is when a child ask to get help...when they are a heroin addict.Thank you for always being a friend and helping others God bless you and your family.
Bobbi Jo Stone <bobbijo.stone@yahoo.com>
Newbloomfield, Pa USA - Thursday, March 04, 2010Dear Mrs. Allen, I can't imagine how you felt when you discovered that Erin was addicted to heroin. You must have been extremely worried. I know I would have been. Your presentation really made me realize the consequences of heroin. I really appreciate you coming to Talley to talk to us. Your book made me feel really sad when Erin died right when she was starting to get better. The pictures of the little boy who was killed in a car crash because his mom was driving the wrong way shocked me. The picture of the boy who blew his head off with his father’s shotgun was really scary. And the pictures of the heroin addicted baby were probably the saddest of all. I can’t understand why a mother would use heroin and knowingly harm her baby, and not care. I will definitely not let Heroin ruin my life. Chris P. <http://www.prodentalarts.net>
Atlanta, GA USA - Thursday, March 04, 2010dear Marie, I have written you before, when my son Seth, died of a heroin od on 3-6-09. Next week he would be 23 and it is a whole year since he died. I wonder where the time has gone and worry most now, about his sister, Michele. Just wanted to stop by, because you understand this pain. Addiction is hard and people sometimes act like, as parents, we could have done more. Well, almost made it through all the first and am hoping one person has learned from Seth's death. Talk to you later and have a great day! Seth's Mom Deb
Deb Warhurst <tugger7daw@live.com>
Slatington, Pa USA - Friday, February 26, 2010Hello Mrs. Allen. I have just read your daughter's story and a feeling of guilt is creeping into my soul for I am also a recovering addict. I have been clean for almost five years now and have no desire to go back to that life but it is still a struggle for me daily. Although it has gotten a bit better over the years. I feel guilty because I am alive and your daughter like so many others are not. I thank the God of my understanding for this but I still can't help but feel some guilt as well. I am back in school and dedicating my entire English portfolio to the subject of addiction. I am in the hopes that someone in the class who may have a problem but isn't sure yet will read some of my stories and hopefully get it before it is too late. My heart goes out to you and your family but remember Erin's story may be the one that saves someone elses life as well. Take some solis in that please. These were the stories that would eventually help to save mine. Please keep doing what you are doing and never give up on any addict. Sometimes all it takes is a little love and we are saved. Blessed be to you and your family. Jamie F. <jamie@alaasentertain.com>
Gaineville, VA USA - Sunday, February 21, 2010Hello Mrs.Allen.Thankyou for coming to Glasgow High School and sharing your Daughter's story. I know That's a sad story. I'm so sory for loss.May God bless you as you continue to share your daughters story especially with youth because they are the ones using the drug alot nowadays.Thankyou.
Gladys ngugi <glado94ngugi@yahoo.com>
Bear, DE USA - Saturday, February 20, 2010Dear Ms Allen, It has been awhile since I first wrote here to share my condolences with you and share my Erin's story with you. Thank you for the book. I hoped it would help. She spent nearly a yr in prison,then to bootcamp, then on tether. I hoped all that time would give her time to reflect and see the other side. She is using again, currently locked up for parole violation. I keep trying to stop the drug from taking her life. I just do not know how to stop the people who want to keep her using. I keep you and your family in my prayers. From one mom to another. Kathy
Kathryn <KYaxc08@hotmail.com>
Swartz Creek, MI USA - Tuesday, February 16, 2010Happy Valentine's Day Sweet Erin.
a friend
de USA - Sunday, February 14, 2010also marie if it would be possible I think it would be very affective if maybe you could bring your book and story to the treatment center I just got out of the heroin addiction here is crazy and like I said before Erins story touched so many if they could hear you speak and see the pictures E-mail me if you have time I dont know if you remember me from 2004 or not Iam trying to find a way to help others here and I would love to set something up for you to come speak to the place I was at thanks
Kristen Shearer <mattswife2010@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, Ohio USA - Saturday, January 30, 2010I left a message on here back in 2004 I had just been detoxed from heroin and was so touched by Erins story This past April I was arrested on a probation violation and sent to a lock down program in dayton called MonDay it was a 6 month program and intense one of the girls I was there with was sent in Erins story from her family and it was copied for everyone I told the girls how in 2004 I had seen her story online and how I never forgot it Iam home now and I still struggle but I just wanted to let your family know that Erins story touched everyone in the program there wasnt anyone that seen it who could keep a dry eye even staff Erins story as sad as it is has been a story that many can relate to and that has touched so many thank you for making sure her voice is heard its more powerful than alot of people relize who havent been where we as addicts take ourselves always in my heart and prayers thank you
Kristen Shearer <mattswife2010@yahoo.com>
Hamilton, Ohio USA - Saturday, January 30, 2010I was so touched by your courage in writing your daughter's story I had to visit this site. I feel a connection to Erin because we are the same age & could have very well been friends! What a beautiful girl & horrible tragidy! May God continue to Bless you everyday..we are all on your side Mrs. Allen
Denise <trans1105@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, January 27, 2010That was my story. I stole my partents car and robbed thier house for heroin. i told them to not get me out of jail and they didn't. i went to court ordered treatment. i now have 7 years clean and am going to school to be a forensic science. I am sorry for your loss. I get it.
Lauren Kilmer <hips-like-cinderella@hotmail.com>
helena, mt USA - Thursday, January 21, 2010Marie, Hi it's Susie. Just wanted to let you know that Heidi did 8 months in jail, she got out on Dec 21st and didn't make it 3 weeks and she is back in jail for using...Yes I still have Jesse he is 5 now and may very well be 10 before she comes home. I don't know yet...Thanks for alway's being there for me....... Susie Fleck <susienmike@comcast.net>
Hbg, Pa USA - Wednesday, January 20, 2010Wow! That could have been me. I battled heroin and thank GOD that I now have 4yr 4mo clean. My story would be identical to your daughters if not for the outcome. Addiction is a powerful thing, not only did I struggle myself I lost my husband to his addiction. Thank you for sharing Erin's story and reaching out to help others. Sometimes that is all we can do. GOD Bless.
Kim <kimwarrenmiburn@yahoo.com>
Elkton, MD USA - Sunday, January 17, 2010I heard a good saying the other day...If you want to know what lies on the road ahead, just ask someone that's heading back.
My sincerest condolences to the family and friends of Erin. You have truly suffered a great loss.
Oda Mae B.
va USA - Friday, January 15, 2010(P.S.} Remenber that today 01-02-10 is still the same in reverse, 11 m0re times this year, YOU can do it TOO. Blessing..
koyoda
USA - Saturday, January 02, 2010For those of you who have made it, Kicked the Habit, Happy New Year, and enjoy Life, in fact Doing Life on Life terms is better than Liveing on tears of Self precribe Misery, and for those of you looking for A-way OUT. LOOK WITHIN.Good Luck this YEAR! Blessing...
koyoda
USA - Saturday, January 02, 2010I would just like to say im sorry and theres nothing u could have done.I myself have been fighting heroin addiction.I had a great job,company truck,paid insurance,phone and i was only 20 at the time.Like your daughter i started sniffing it and then eventually the needle which i told myself i would never do.Friends were overdoseing and dying all around me and i continued.I lost my license and continued driving and got charged habitual offender and got a year in jail,the whole time my poor mother going threw this too.So i went to jail for 5 months and then they let me out on house arrest(ankle bracelet) I just finished 5 months of that and you think i wouldnt want to get high but i did even when i was on house arrest,knowing that i would be drug tested.Its crazy.Now i have a couple of years of probation with drug test.You would think that ive learned and i have im very aware of my addiction but i still risk it.they say you can only stop when u are ready.its sucks cause i am ready,i want a wife,kids and a house.Im glad i stumble upon your page it made me think about things.Again.THANKS Mike 27
Mike McNeill <mmatlarge@rocketmail.com>
Hudson, NH USA - Friday, December 25, 2009Hi Marie
Once again broken hearted mommy my son who is 6 and his daddy has been in jail since July of this year because of his herion addiction. I am asking you if you know any counselors for my little boy who is blaming me for not seeing his daddy and I am just trying to protect him from the truth by telling him daddy is working in Flordia,I know I am not telling him the truth about his daddy but I do not want my little boy to think his daddy is bad he has a problem and that drug is so powerful when he is using I know he loves his son but always picks herion first.My son just started Kindergarten this year daddy not there for thr first day really never there for him only to play with him and have fun I am the one parent who does everything for my little boy and I am trying to find help for him now. Once again Broken Hearted Mommy
Wendy <amadeus522002@aol.com>
Newark, De USA - Tuesday, December 22, 2009Dear,Mrs Allen
Im a student from Talley Middle School,i once again wanted to come back to your wonderful websit.To me this is a verry good website for people expecally for teenagers like me.Im 13 and in the future i dont see myself doin drugs.But i dont wanna see my bestfriend die of weed she is my aunt and shes verry close to me and she is a surviver of cancer and she was in jail for most of her life, she was in there for 23 years for doing cocain and herion and really she did all kinds of drugs it got so bad that she used the veins from the bottom of her toung!She survived 3 heeartattacks! She was in jail while it happended ! I know that god does not want her to die i knows that gods know that she can be a verry good person its so sad to me that i prey for her every night .When i go to sleep i have nightmares that she is going to die with a picture of our whole family.I know its verry heartbroken for me to go throw this about my aunt.Im only 13 and going throw a whole bunch.The bad thing about it is that her youngest son is doing drugs and he to is addicted to it.But my aunt started doing drugs a the age of 11.Imagine seeing your daughter puting neddles in her arms at the age of 11 she still a BABY! but its all good now she has her own appartment and she livin life to the greastes.Mrs Allen i hope you leave me a great long message on my email address GOD BLESS YOU AND ERIN!I WISHED I MEET HER!I KNOW SHE WOULD OF BEEN A GREAT PERSON OR EVEN MOTHER god bless you !~STEPHANIE SARMIENTO~
stephanie sarmiento <stephanie_sarmiento672869yahoo.com>
claymont, de USA - Saturday, December 19, 2009well just want to be able to have my good work up so ppl can read it as well
cheryl <cherylmesser58@yahoo.com>
durham, nc USA - Saturday, December 19, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I really liked the book it was really sad and heartbreaking .I am so sorry about your loss. I will keep you in my prayers every day and night. I had loss somebody before it was my Dad I was only a little baby . And I did not know him. I will try to email you every single day. It is really hard to loose somebody .Because I know how you feel. I will also be thinking about your daughter.
Best to you and your family,
Anisha Rogers
Anisha Rogers <tania.milionis@bsd.k12.de.us>
Wilmington, De USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I appreciate you taking your own time to present your slide show to the girls here at Talley Middle School.
Sitting in my chair in the auditorium was such a struggle. Throughout the whole thing I was shaking and praying to God that what happened to Erin will not ever happen to my family or friends. All of my Step sisters have gotten exposed and involved in drinking, smoking, and drugs at maybe about 15. Fortunately, none of them have tried heroin and none have gotten to addicted or went crazy like you described Erin in the book. When I talked to my sister, she was telling me how when she was younger she used to tell people that she would never try to or do anything that may endanger her life, but she didn’t keep that promise. But fortunately, she and my two other step sisters have recovered from there scary situation and I have a better relationship with them!
After watching and listening to the presentation, reading the book, and taking in the advice that my sisters have given me, I have learned how drugs, smoking, and drinking can change your life forever. Even if you try it once, your life will change whether you are hooked on it our not. Other then hearing all of the important information I have now plugged into my brain, the pictures I saw were absolutely horrifying. I had no idea how badly drugs can take over your life. But Erin was a beautiful young woman who deserved to live her life to her fullest potential. She probably would have made a great writer. I`m very sorry for your loss and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, and of course Erin.
Your Supporter,
Emily Goodman- Joines
Emily Goodman- Joines <dadyslilgirl131@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear, Mrs. Allen
Thank you for coming to Talley Middle School. When you showed us those pictures of your daughter I started to cry it was very sad that she died. Also, when you showed the pictures of people dying as soon as they put the needle in their skin I thought awwwwww that is so sad. Also, if I was Erin I would be crying everyday trying to stop using heroin. The book really warned me and made me realize I should never use heroin and anyway I never would use it. But I thank you for writing a book on it and for warning young kids like me about heroin I appreciate it. The whole story about her life was so powerful I cried. I understand how hard it was for you to come to my school and tell us about your own daughter. Your story can change a lot of young people’s lives too because after I heard and read the story about your daughter I know now not to do any drugs. Mrs. Allen I am very sorry for the loss of your daughter I hope you are okay. Thank you very much.
Sincerely,
Jasmin Evans
Jasmin Evans <jazmin.monae@yahoo.com>
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming to Talley Middle School and sharing your story about Erin. I am really sorry for your lost. I really enjoy your presentation and Erin baby picture of her. And I am sorry you had to last see her as a number instead of her real name Erin Allen. I know it is probably hard for you sometimes to talk about your daughter and her addiction. And may god bless you and your family.
Sincerely,
a Seventh Grader @ Talley Middle School.
seventh grader at Talley Middle School <francesspence@vzwblachberry.net>
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming to Talley Middle School and sharing your story about Erin. I am really sorry for your lost. I really enjoy your presentation and Erin baby picture of her. And I am sorry you had to last see her as a number instead of her real name Erin Allen. I know it is probably hard for you sometimes to talk about your daughter and her addiction. And may god bless you and your family.
Sincerely,
a Seventh Grader @ Talley Middle School.
seventh grader at Talley Middle School <francesspence@vzwblachberry.net>
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I would like to thank you for coming to Talley and sharing your story about Erin. I am very sorry to hear how she died and it’s very nice and brave to go around and tell Erin’s story. This presentation was such an experience and it made me feel very sad. In the program I was listening and I saw you getting kind of sad. I understand how you do these presentations I appreciate how you can go around and warn people about this drug and what it can do to you and what happened to a real person who has done it and died of it. Now that I have heard the presentation I know what this drug can do to you and I will never use them. I also appreciate your kindness and joy just to come out for a whole day. Again Erin was a great girl and I know that before heroin she wanted to be somebody that was successful and loving to her family. I really like how you showed the people who died already and recently from drugs. Showing those people who did them can show us that this drug is no joke and we need to watch what we do sometimes. Once again thank you for the presentation and I really learned a lot. I wish the best and sorry for your lost.
Sincerely,
Danielle (7the grader at Talley)
Danielle Epting <Eptingdani9@aol.com>
Wilimington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I want to thank you for coming to my school and sharing your loss to us. I would also like to thank you for informing us about heroin and what it can do to you and your family. I can’t even imagine what it would feel like to speak about your daughter that dies from heroin at such a young age. I now understand why it’s very important to tell teens about drugs so they won’t hurt their family members and themselves. I have seen a neighbor of mine who died of a drug overdose, I saw her get being put into a body bag, and put into the back of an ambulance. What made me really feel amazed was when the boy shot his own head off, the heroin addicted baby, and when the little boy got ejected out the car on the highway. This experience made me feel very lucky, sad, and it made me wake up. I feel lucky because I am not the child of a drug addict. Thanks again for coming in.
Ji@nni Dinkins <jiannidinkins97@gmail.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear miss Allen,
You came to our school, Talley middle school and I am happy she came in and talked to are health class about heroin because it made everyone realize that it is not safe and not cool. It made me realize that a lot of people die because they take a lot of drugs for a long period of time. The hardest part to watch was when the little boy shot himself in the head because he wanted to be like his idle in heaven. I don¡¦t think I could have talked and shared about my daughter who died because she was addicted to drugs, well with out crying. I never knew that so many people are dyeing because of heroin overdose, as well as I never new kids start drugs at the age of 13. I am 13 and I can not even start to think about taking drugs because I know it¡¦s bad. I couldn¡¦t help but cry because I know if I was a mother and had a son or daughter and my son or daughter died of heroin overdose I know I would not want to go to different schools and tell them the story of he or she that died. I love the book and now my mom wants to read it because I told her about it. I will try my best to tell people I know about the book and then I will tell them to pass it on ƒº.Thank you!
Brittany
brittany <brittanymclean44@yahoo.com>
wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming to T alley Middle School. I am sorry about your loss , all of Erin¡¦s pictures were very pretty. When I read your book about your daughter I did not know what to expect at the end. Then I could not think about how possible it was for you to go around and tell the story about your daughter. If I were you I would not be as strong as you. When you were talking I thought how can she take all the pain of explaining your story about Erin. Most people could not even take listening to your story with out crying or feeling sad how could you not. When I listened to you talk you said some very important things that I found interestingƒº I think that you the belief that you have in others with heroin addictions is very wonderful. I read your story a lot. [ƒºƒºƒº!_!]
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Zoe Urdang
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming to Talley Middle School and helping us make our future decisions. Your story about Erin touched me a lot and I cried, and it really hurt me when you told me about the little boy who shot himself because his role model did it. It made me think what it is that this world is coming to. Thank you for coming and I wish you luck.
sandra <tinkerbellhateonit@yahoo.com>
clatmont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you so much for coming to Talley Middle School. Learning about Erin’s story taught me to stay away from drugs because not only can it kill me, but it will affect my whole life style. My favorite part in the show and book was when Erin got clean. Seeing Erin try and change her lifestyle inspired me to never stop trying. She kept trying to reach out for help and get off of heroin. When she went to rehab she really made a big change. She was clean for a year and I was really surprised and proud that she maintained not using heroin. I felt as if I was in Erin’s place. I imagined myself in everything she was going through. I imagined my own mother as you. Thank you very much for opening our eyes and showing us what heroin can do to our body’s and what it can put us with in the law. I am 14 years old and I really need to see what drugs can do, especially since we are in the years of peer pressure. Once again thank you for coming to Talley, and I hope you’ll be back again.
dasia bruce -butler
wilmington , de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I am very sorry for your loss. I know you are broken hearted because you just lost the love of your life and now she is gone. We all know that we loose someone in our life. We pray for them every day and we are sad for when we do don’t see them anymore. We cry because we don’t have our love one no more. When I read the book it brought something to my mind and it told me that I have to stop smoking or its going to control me but now I see how Erin was feeling that she just cant get away from it you see I am only 15 and I am smoking this is really hard for me to get of f of it and it is so hard for me now you see I just ruin my life and I do go to school but its just hard living another life and acting like someone you are not.
8th grade at talley middle school <tatarobin@yahoo.com>
USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I don’t know if you remember me but I was the one in the second row in Talley. I was with my friend. I was the one who was talking about my friend who is doing heroin. I’m so sorry for your loss. My name is Anna. The assembly changed me. I heard that heroin was bad I didn’t know it was that serious. I knew it was a drug that you usually use a needle and you can die from it. But I didn’t know it had all those effects on you. I know I’m never going to do it but I want to stop my friend before she looks like those people. My friend is close to me. She has been lying a lot though. So I don’t know if I can believe her if she did stop. The assembly changed my life. Me and my friend both cried so much I couldn’t stop so we just held each other’s hands and watched. There was one part that was actually so horrible that we both looked away and looked at each other. We both saw each others tears and I knew we were thinking of the same person. I know I don’t want to put on the news and see her picture on saying that she had a drug overdose and was gone I wouldn’t know what to do. I hope the assembly had the same impact as it had on me. Your daughter was a wonderful person she would always be in my heart now and forever. As my grandmother would say she is a beautiful angel in the heaven above I’d like to think she is up there looking down on everyone. Thank you for letting me talk me to you it helped I had the secret with me for a long time and didn’t know who to talk to you. You made me feel like I can help her. Thank you so much for coming if you need anything you know where to find me.
alwaysinmyheart 19703
DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I am thankful that you decided to come to my school and tell us the story about your daughter Erin. I am also very appreciative because before I read the book I thought that drugs were just drugs, it wouldn’t do much to you if you just tried them once. Now I see what drugs like heroin can actually do to you. This must have been extremely hard for you. I know I would be so heartbroken if one of my family members or friends decided to do this to themselves. I want to say thank you so much. I know that most of the people that you have spoken with and the people who were at the presentations will probably never even want to touch heroin in their lives, I know I won’t. Please continue to do you’re presentations because they really do help people to learn all the dangers of drugs, especially heroin. Sometimes I think about Erin’s story and know how upset my family and friends would be if I were in Erin’s position. Thanks again and I am sorry for your loss.
- Rachel
rachel <r>
Delaware USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming to Talley Middle School on December 8th, 2009. Your program was very interesting, but also very sad. When I heard that Delaware topped the list of heroin users, I was so upset! I would love to help people change that. Especially the amount of celebrities that use it. The boy that blew his head off made me have nightmares. Why would people do this to themselves? It’s just so horrible! I think that if somebody needs to get better because they are depressed , they should go to a therapist or something. I’m very sorry that you and your family had to go through with the fact that Erin did drugs. It really sucks. All of you must have been very sad when you found out. I’m glad that I don’t know anybody that does drugs. Well, I did, but I don’t really know him anymore. He moved. I’m so sorry that this happened to you. Thank you for coming to our school.
-Gracie McKenna
Gracie McKenna <starsandsoccerballs2gmail.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thanks I really liked the book.-Tykera
tykera roncaw
DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I would like to thank you for coming to my school and telling me about your book and Erin. My father past 2/27/08 from drugs so I some what know how you feel. Your presentation was very heart braking to me because the thing that you talked about in the book reminded me of bad time in my life. Your presentation reminded of why I never want to touch a drug in my life. I have seen for myself what drugs do to a close family and you were not lying it will destroy your family in so many ways. Your book touched me in ways I didn’t think it would I mean I cried for hours and hours my mother got me out of school early that day and we went home and had a long talk, you have made me and my mom closer then I ever thought we would be. I tell her every thing now! I am so sorry for your lost I would have loved to met Erin, thank you again for coming to my school you have touched a lot of our hearts in Tally Middle School!!!!!!
~Amber English~
Amber English <amberenglish15@yahoo.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
It must be very hard to get over the loss of your daughter, you are a very strong woman to come in and talk about your daughter’s life to strangers. I could not imagine losing my family members to drugs and be as strong as you are. I was about to cry to see all those people who had died from heroin, but the two pictures that struck me the most was seeing that little boy whose idol had died from an overdose of heroin, and shot his head off, and seeing the very last picture you have of Erin. Thank you very much for the books and coming to our school and talking to us about Erin.
-Kimberly R.
Talley Middle 8 grade student <KIMKAT5@yahoo.com>
wilmington , DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
My fellow classmates and I thank you so much for coming to our school to talk to us about the terrible affects of heroin. I realize that it must be so hard for you to come and tell all of us about your deceased daughter. I was so touched by this presentation, especially when it came to the slideshow of your daughter. It reminded me of my little sister and I can’t imagine having her being a heroin addict. I now know for a fact that I will NEVER end up being an addict. I was so astonished to find out that Erin was in and out of so many rehabilitation centers. This book was one of my favorites; it really informed me. Your daughter’s story made me realize that no matter whom you are heroin can come into your life and tear it apart. thank you so much.
~ Riley Slate
Riley Slate <ryrys214@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I want to thank you for coming to my school. You may have heard a lot of thank yous from people but I actually mean it. Some of the pictures were so emotional to me. Also those articles were convincing to me not to do drugs. I’m sure it was extremely hard for you to come to our school and talk about the loss of your daughter. I want to know, did you think that your other daughter was going to be like Erin? I’m sure it was a scare. I wonder why so many celebrities did drugs. In the presentation, you mentioned that the age 13 was a starting point for people to do drugs. I’m almost 13 and you won’t see me with a needle in my arm. As I said before, thank you for convincing us all not to do drugs.
Miranda C <ButterfingerCutie5@yahoo.com>
claymont, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I am so sorry for your loss.:( :( I can’t imagine being a mother and having to lose my child to heroin. :( :( If I was addicted to heroin I would try to stop like Erin. :( :(But instead of running away from help I’d try to go straight to it.:( :( Also your presentation touched a lot of us here at Talley. :) :) :) The pictures and stories about the people in the pictures touched my heart a lot… and somewhat grossed me out, but mostly touched my heart. :( :) :( :) Thank you for coming to Talley and talking to us about your oldest daughter who died because of a heroin overdose.:( Thank you again
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Sincerely,
Gabriela, A 7th grader from Talley Middle School
Gabriela H.-D.
Bear, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you so much for presenting at Talley Middle School. During the presentation I was so sad the whole time. I was realizing in that amount of time how addictive, horrid and sad heroin is and can be. My worst fear overcame me when you showed the picture of the boy with his head blown off. In movies I can’t stand for people’s heads getting cut off and for someone’s head getting blown off is scary. It can show us that all rock stars aren’t role models. I can appreciate that no one in my family does drugs. I was surprised that Delaware has the highest heroin rate. I know it’s hard to talk about Erin in your presentation but, you did a really good job. Anyway THANK YOU again and I’m so sorry.
From, Ashley Hennessy 7th grade
Ashley H
DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Hey Mrs. Allen,
I would like to thank you for coming to Talley Middle School. I didn’t know what I was going to say to you at first, because I didn’t want it to be impersonal. I feel as though what you showed us was scary. I don’t want that to happened to me and I can’t imagine what my mom would do if I was a Junkie. I am really sorry about your daughter. I would have told you I know how it feels but I truly don’t. I haven’t felt like crying in years but when I saw those pictures of Erin as a child, I just felt so bad. Everyone always says don’t do drugs but you came and showed us what would happen if we did so I think more people will stay clean. Those pictures are a way of discouraging drugs. If I had a baby and he/she did drugs and died I probably wouldn’t be able to live with myself. The pictures of people doing heroin were sad. It hurts to see what is happening to the world now with kids and adults. What is going on with the world these days? If people want better things in their lives, they should just work for it and not do drugs. The picture that scared me the most was the one where the kid shot himself in the head. I couldn’t bear to look. Erin was lucky to have such a strong woman as a mother.
7th Grade Student at TMS <maneeshamovva336@gmail.com>
Wilmington , DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I like the book.
Nina
Nina
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I can't imagine how you felt when you discovered that Erin was addicted to heroin. You must have been extremely worried. I know I would have been. Your presentation really made me realize the consequences of heroin. I really appreciate you coming to Talley to talk to us. Your book made me feel really sad when Erin died right when she was starting to get better. The pictures of the little boy who was killed in a car crash because his mom was driving the wrong way shocked me. The picture of the boy who blew his head off with his father’s shotgun was really scary. And the pictures of the heroin addicted baby were probably the saddest of all. I can’t understand why a mother would use heroin and knowingly harm her baby, and not care. I will definitely not let Heroin ruin my life.
A 7th grader
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I would like to thank you for taking the time to come to Talley Middle School and show us the presentation about heroin. The presentation had really opened up to how deep drugs can affect people. Not only does drugs affects the users, it also affects friends and family. It had really hurt to see all of the pictures that showed us what the results could be like if drugs got to people around us, especially heroin. So many people had lost their lives at such a young age to heroin and it had really broken my heart. If I had lost a friend or a family member to heroin, I don’t know what I’ll do in life. It would have been really hard for me to walk through life knowing that someone I was really closed to or love so much is now gone because of drugs. I don’t have any experience of doing drugs myself, but I know that some of my older brother’s friends do drugs and it worries me because I’m afraid of drugs getting to him and losing him. I really care about my older brother because he is like a best friend that makes me laugh and who I can go and talk to. During the past year, I have told and showed my brother almost everything I learned from school about drugs. Now that I read and have my own copy of “Dope Help”, I can show it to my brother to help discourage him from using drugs like heroin. Again, thank you so much for writing the book and bringing up all of your strength emotionally to show us the presentation. I’m really sorry for your daughter’s loss, especially when she tried so hard to get clean. I know for sure that if Erin could see you today, she would be really proud of you for teaching people about what heroin could do to you because it discourages people from thinking about using heroin and that will be saving their lives.
Thank you.
Student from Talley Middle School <glitteringsky37@aol.com>
USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
I am writing to thank you for the time you spent explaining the terrors of heroine. I feel especially grateful for the time you spent at my school because you came so close to the holidays, which must be a difficult time for your family. I know that it would be difficult for me to go through the horrors of knowing that your eldest daughter will never be able to visit you over a time that’s suppose to be so joyous. I can relate to this in a way. My sister’s son died earlier this year so the approach of the holidays is bringing a lot of depression and sadness to my family.
But I think that your presentation and book have brought a blessing to your family. I believe this for two reasons; the first being that it is your daughter’s final wish being expressed through your life. She had wanted to become a writer and the book is her diary. Erin had always wanted to share her experiences which is exactly what your doing, sharing her life with us. I know this isn’t equal to your daughter’s life but I think that knowing your fulfilling her dreams is all she could have asked for.
The experience I had with the presentation and book will probably be one of the most unforgettable experiences that I will have during my life. The book itself showed me how much pain she was in and how a friend can help you (Manny) or harm you (the ones who showed her drugs). I think that this is the lesson I drew most from the book. A lot of the things in the presentation brought enlightenment so I will share two with you. The first is the story of the baby who died because their mother had passed drugs on to them. One of my best friends was a “crack baby” so the idea that the dead baby in the slide show could have been her scares the crap out of me. The pictures of the people who had died from heroine had shaken me as well. The tags they were given were so impersonal. I would hate to be demoted from a name to a number. No one deserves that. They were then stored in a metal container and ripped apart. I know these people mean well and that this is there job but it freaks me out. The picture of your daughter lying there dead separated from you was probably the worst and best part of the presentation. You couldn’t have touched her or made you parting good-byes. You couldn’t even see her during her final hours. I think that this was the most moving and best part of the presentation. However the reason for it being the best is sinister.
Thank you.
Celine Robinson <hpfanhwmnbn@gmail.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
When you came to my school last week and when I saw your presentation it really opened my eyes to the dangers of heroin. I had never known before how deadly and harmful it was. Your presentation made me think of how lucky my family is. Both of my parents were on heroin at one time, and during that time they had me. I am very proud to say that I was a baby born on heroin and I’m still alive today. So, during the part in your presentation about the heroin addicted baby it really got to me, because I thought that it could have been me. Also all the pictures of the people who died could have been my parents.
While reading the book and also throughout your presentation you could tell that Erin was a nice girl that was caught up in something terrible. You could also tell that she wanted to get out of her addiction more then anything. I am so truly sorry that you lost your daughter to heroin.
After your presentation I went home with my dad. While talking with him I found out that he knew people that knew Erin. Even though this sounds crazy, it made me feel even closer to you and Erin. I really appreciate you showing us the cold truth about what heroin can do to a person. Even though heroin scared me before, with the little facts I had learned from my parents after learning these things from you I am now completely terrified about even going near a person who uses heroin. Thank you for sharing Erin’s story with us. –A Talley Middle School Student
A Talley Middle School Student <L.Derrickson@hotmail.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
Thanks for coming to our school, it gave me a lot to think about when you were done talking and the book too. I told my friend about Erin’s story and she goes right back to heroin. Seems like I won’t get her back anytime soon I would love to see her get clean but that will never happen. I see her do it every day I go up Pennsylvania (A one hour drive to see her) and it kills me to see her like this. When I was reading the book I had to stop for like a minute and think WOW my friend has told me about things that were in Erin’s story. Weird maybe people that use heroin have the same thoughts and feelings. I think that a lot of times. When I read the book and saw the presentation it made me feel like I knew Erin in ways that I see my friend every day. When I saw the pictures of Erin I had tears down my face I thought to myself I don’t want my friend to end her life so early. The pictures of people doing heroin were sad. It hurts to see what is happening to the world now with kids and adults.
So thanks for coming in to Talley middle school
8th grade tally middle school student <candy11195@aol.com>
wilmington, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear, Mrs. Allen
At the time previous to the presentation I didn’t realized how bad drugs were. When I read the book I had some understanding of who Erin was and what she was going through. You have taught me how wrong drugs are and how no good can come from it. I understand what Theresa must have gone though when her she had a sudden change of heart. It’s like the time when my sister left the house at 14 to live with her dad. I didn’t like it. I was left with my brothers. I never really connected with my mom. So I felt alone. Thank you for the presentation it taught me a meaningful fact of life. In the presentation I always wonder why the cup of water was there at the crime scene but now I know. The part about the parents’ son who was doing drugs in his room, if they had searched around in the room they could have saved his life, makes me thankful for nosy parents. Once I was doing something I should have-know-better-not-to-do stuff on the phone. If it weren’t for my mom being a Mommy I would have never know how serious and how bad it was for me to do that. In fact I am truly sorry for what you been through and appreciative for your act to warn us
Sincerely,
Deborah Altine
Deborah Altine <debthebest1@yahoo.com>
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I really appreciate you coming to my school last week. People think it’s funny to experiment with drugs and I’m happy you made it clear that it could and will take your life away. When I read your book it made me think how our lives are so precious, and that we only get one chance to live it. I know how it feels how to lose a loved one, drugs is the devil wanting everything for him. When he sees something beautiful he wants it and wouldn’t give up until he gets it. When he’s done with it he just throws the person to the side as if it’s a worthless possession. I really hope you continue spreading the word about heroin. When you do this, you’re saving that person’s life from the devil. Great job. I hope you enjoy the winter break.
Sincerely, Diamondlyn Daniels
Diamondlyn Daniels <Diamondd466@Gmail.com>
Wilmington, De USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dear Mrs. Allen
I¡¯m extremely sorry about Erin. She was I very pretty girl. I loved learning and hearing about Erin¡¯s story. When I had heard she had died from heroin I was stunned. If her dumb friend had got her hooked she would have been a perfectly healthy teen. It also made me appreciate my relationship with my family and my friends. I also hope your other daughter Teresa is lovely. Me and my mother love your book and we appreciate you and the state cop. It made me think bout losing someone to something like that.
BEST WISHS,MERRY CHRISTMAS,AND THANK YOU FOR COMING☻¢¾☺☻¢¾☺☻¢¾☺☻¢¾☺☻¢¾☺¢¾☺☻¢¾☺☻¢¾☺
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alana case <top97@comcast.net>
claymont, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009r, Mrs. Allen
I am really sorry about your daughter¡¦s loss. It must have been really hard for you and your husband. Hearing you talk to us about Erin and how she was addicted to heroin made it sadder then to just read it because it comes from the person that went through that type of pressure. When you read it in the book it makes it like you went through the same thing. From reading and hearing how Erin got addicted to heroin made it look as if I myself knew her. Also hearing how people overdosed from any type of drug can really put your life at risk. If I were you Mrs. Allen I really don¡¦t know how I could live with my daughter dying. You know it is not her fault that a guy gave her the pot she decided to do that because she felt gloomy. Also it is not your fault because things happen that no one else knows except god. I think you know this already but always have faith never let yourself down but be grateful that you still have your daughter Theresa. So THANK YOU for coming to Talley Middle School and sharing the life of your daughter.
We will never forget the story that you shared with us. Now I know that I should never do drugs which I already knew that but I never knew that it could cause all those problems.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS¡¦!!!!!!!!! ƒº
Love,
Jessica Morales ļļļ
Jessica Morales <cutegirl100119@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I know you here this a lot but I am really sorry for your daughter. Your story has touched my heart, I mean I can’t relate really I mean non of my friends do heroin or my family members did it but I do have friends that do stupid and illegal drugs and pills, some of them are from my school and I don’t like it at all I mean I don’t think I will ever try drugs ever your story has changed my perspective on the WHOLE situation. At first I was just like “yeah all the teacher tell us not to do drugs and it kind of makes kids want to have drugs maybe even me” but now I know when they tell us not to do drugs DON’T AT ALL I am now really scared to do any kind of drug now it is just stupid to even think about using them now. I think it is very brave to come in here and talk to us about your daughter and your ups and downs with her it takes a lot to do that and it shows that your are a strong person and so was Erin I just think she lost hope for that one time and it ended up blowing up in the end .But I really so appreciate you coming in here and thank you.
Sincerely Colleen Hoy
Colleen Hoy <chickadee171@hotmail.com>
claymont, dealware USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
What I first want to say is thank you for coming to Talley and telling us about your daughter, heroin, and other things about heroin. I really do appreciate it. When you spoke to my class it really was a big part in my life even though it was just for a little bit of time out the day. This was a big part in my life because before you came to Talley about heroin I never knew what would happen if I tried heroin. But now I know definitely never to do any type of drug. There is one question that I wanted to ask you and I would really appreciate it if you e-mail me back if you know the answer or if you find out. Why do fire fighters and police men or women tell kids not to smoke or do drugs because we might burn down the house or apartment or hurt but some of then smoke themselves? Thanks so much again for everything that you do and for coming to Talley to talk to us.
Sincerely,
Shanice Whitfield
shanice whitfield <shanicekeaira@comcast.net>
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear, Mrs. Allen
You coming in to speak to us really changed my perspective of life. First, I know it was hard for you to come in and speak to us. It made me think about if my brother was in this predicament, and how I would react to it. It would really hurt me because of how close we are. When you came in to give your presentation it made me want to curl up in a ball and never think about it again. It was all just too real. I came to realize that you should never give in to peer pressure, even if you think someone is your friend, because in the outcome you will be the one hurting. From this presentation I have learned that if you put drugs in your body you are only hurting yourself, and the people around you that really care about you. As soon as I went home I let my mom read the book, because it changed my view of the way I see things so I know it probably changed hers to. I will remember to live everyday to the fullest because tomorrow isn’t always promised.
I’m sure you would have loved for your daughter to still be here with you but at least she’s in a better place now. She doesn’t have to harm her body or suffer anymore. I’m very sorry for your loss!
Love always:
Lyn’Dejah Everett
P.s I want to thank you and ms.milionis for all your hard work! Especially you for being so brave.
Lyn'Dejah Everett <dejah319@yahoo.com>
wilmington, De USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you very much for coming to our school on Thursday. I think we learned a lot. While we were reading the book in class, it made me think about my brother. Like if he ever became addicted to any drugs, I would be very upset. Also, it made me think about someone VERY close to me, because he does drugs. But, he doesn’t do heroin (I don’t think). But, it also made me appreciate my mom, and everything she does for me and my brother. I told both my mom and dad to read this book. But when I was telling the person that i know who does drugs, all of the things that Erin went through, he kept trying to change the subject. But anyways, I am sorry for your loss. And I really believe that Erin wanted to get better.
Thanks
8th grader at talley middle <kimbolimbo95@yahoo.com>
claymont, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
You are a very brave person to come Talley Middle School to talk about your child. I know it’s very hard for you to live without your first born child. When I lost my cousin in a home invasion it was very hard for me, she was the closest person to me and she was about to graduate from college. And when you did your presentation it really changed the way I see things in life. It makes me want to tell my family everything I learned from the presentation. Also when I saw the picture of Erin at the end it made me think I need to stay away from the bad and stick with the good. And by the way Erin was a beautiful girl. But thank you for coming to Talley Middle School. God Bless Your Soul and Merry Christmas.
Sincerely
Telishia Gass
Telishia Gass <Lil_miss_diva_shay@yahoo.com>
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
I appreciate it that you would take up some of your time to talk to us about Heroin. I think that the presentation and the book was really interesting for you to do. Heroin is very serious and I think that telling everyone about Heroin is a good thing. I am so sorry that you have lost your daughter to something so powerful and evil. Erin would have been so happy and healthy if she didn¡¦t overdose on this powerful drug. That is so sad for you to loose her even though she didn¡¦t mean to do that. I am so sorry for your losing of Erin. I hope that you will never leave her heart and Erin will always stay in your heart. Also, I hope you meet Erin in the afterlife or when the world ends. Your talk about Heroin is going to teach everyone to never try Heroin or any drug of any kind even if they think it is cool to do.(WHICH IT IS NOT COOL) Thank you for publishing your book, showing our school the presentation, and sharing Erin¡¦s story with us.
*LOVE*,
ļ DIANA MALLIS ļ
Diana Mallis <funnybunny19@verizon.net>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
I appreciate it that you would take up some of your time to talk to us about Heroin. I think that the presentation and the book was really interesting for you to do. Heroin is very serious and I think that telling everyone about Heroin is a good thing. I am so sorry that you have lost your daughter to something so powerful and evil. Erin would have been so happy and healthy if she didn¡¦t overdose on this powerful drug. That is so sad for you to loose her even though she didn¡¦t mean to do that. I am so sorry for your losing of Erin. I hope that you will never leave her heart and Erin will always stay in your heart. Also, I hope you meet Erin in the afterlife or when the world ends. Your talk about Heroin is going to teach everyone to never try Heroin or any drug of any kind even if they think it is cool to do.(WHICH IT IS NOT COOL) Thank you for publishing your book, showing our school the presentation, and sharing Erin¡¦s story with us.
*LOVE*,
ļ DIANA MALLIS ļ
Diana Mallis
USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
I appreciate it that you would take up some of your time to talk to us about Heroin. I think that the presentation and the book was really interesting for you to do. Heroin is very serious and I think that telling everyone about Heroin is a good thing. I am so sorry that you have lost your daughter to something so powerful and evil. Erin would have been so happy and healthy if she didn¡¦t overdose on this powerful drug. That is so sad for you to loose her even though she didn¡¦t mean to do that. I am so sorry for your losing of Erin. I hope that you will never leave her heart and Erin will always stay in your heart. Also, I hope you meet Erin in the afterlife or when the world ends. Your talk about Heroin is going to teach everyone to never try Heroin or any drug of any kind even if they think it is cool to do.(WHICH IT IS NOT COOL) Thank you for publishing your book, showing our school the presentation, and sharing Erin¡¦s story with us.
*LOVE*,
ļ DIANA MALLIS ļ
Diana Mallis <funnybunny19@verizon.net>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming in and doing your presentation for us. It really made me start to realize how big of a problem heroin is and I saw firsthand the dangers of this horrible drug. During the presentation, I started to think about what it would be like if I, or someone I was close to started using heroin. I am going to tell my friends and family to read Erin’s book so that they know what the dangers of the drug are and so people that I’m really close with don’t fall into heroin’s grasp. After seeing the presentation, I am scared about the power heroin has and I’m never going to use it. The presentation really made me appreciate everything I have and not to take anything for granted. The pictures at the end where you showed Erin growing up really moved me and I admire you for doing this program to educate people about how bad heroin is. The experience really got through to me and did what it was supposed to do.
An 8th grade Talley student <laurelsigman@comcast.net>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thanks for coming to Talley Middle School and sharing your story with us. It made me think about how fortunate I am to not worry about drugs, alcohol, etc. I never imagined how terrible drugs like heroin could be. I’ve learned about a few different drugs in school, but actually reading a true story and seeing what it has done to people really hit me. All the pictures of people that have overdosed and died because of drugs almost frightened me. I have never thought about doing drugs or anything like that, but if I was, reading your book and seeing your presentation would definitely cause me to stop and think. Your story has reinforced the phrase “don’t do drugs”. Actually, it has gone above and beyond that. You are doing a very good thing for young adults and once again, I thank you.
Rebecca <redsoxres@hotmail.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you so much for coming to our school and talking about drugs and your daughter. Everything was very interesting. When I saw those pictures I was like “oh my god I will never do heroin”. At first when I heard about heroin I was like oh it’s not that bad, but I after I learned about it I was like wow! What happened to your daughter, Erin was terrible. Nobody in my family would ever do that because it’s a really bad drug. But when every adult tells kids not to do drugs they do it because they’re like oh just one time is ok. But it’s not so that’s why the book is so good because it shows what’s real.
Sincerely,
Emilie Bradley
emilie bradley <emluvspugs97@yahoo.com>
USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen I know it must be hard for you to come and speak to us about
this subject. I thank you for coming in. I think it is very brave and bold
to speak on behalf of your daughter and it’s very commendable. I know
it took time to digest what your message brought out. It stuck to me in my mind.
Looking in those pictures told me hey this is real, and it could happen to
anyone. I guess it’s kind of crazy how these people want to sugar coat kids minds
and want to hide these things from us. The presentation had me thinking of all
the harmful effects. We as kids and adults need to realize that drug users and drug abuse has to stop. This is what is killing America. It saddens me to see young and old people using drugs, smoking, and drinking. I know without a doubt I will never smoke, do drugs or drink
A changed 8th grader Dajah.T
dajah <dajahlilpuff@comcast.net>
claymont, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
Thank you very much for taking your time to come into Talley . It must be hard for you to talk about Erin a lot . I know losing a family member is hard , but losing a family member to a drug like heroin or a disease like cancer is even harder . A while ago my grandfather past away from smoking and most of my family smokes so im even more scared . Teachers always tell us to stay away from drugs and it hurts our body but kids this age are like yea right whatever . Once I seen and heard of Erin¡¯s story it set my mind strait , this took me beyond my theory of drugs . Now when I get close to drugs and my friend is doing them I will tell her/him to stop and then make then read your book !
¢¾Sincerely 7th grader from Talley Middle School¢¾
¢¾~Francesca Donithan~¢¾
~francesca donithan ~ <bigbrown924u@hotmail.com>
USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
You came in to our school last Thursday. You really touched a lot of people with your story about Erin (including me). I don’t know anyone who uses heroin and I hope I hope I never do. Seeing the pictures of people dead from using heroin scared me I kept turning my head away, but I had to look. The pictures of Erin and the song made me want to cry and I tried not to, but I almost did. It really seemed like she tried to stop using heroin, but heroin took over her life. I will always say no to drugs and especially heroin. Thank you for coming in to our school and taking your time to teach us what heroin can to us. I really appreciate it and I’m sure everyone else did too. I know it must be hard for you.
Sincerely,
Talley Middle Student
Hannah Y. <bunny12hunny@yahoo.com>
DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
I would first like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for coming in and sharing your most personal experiences with my class and school. Your presentation really opened my eyes to how scary and dangerous heroin can be. It was a wake up call for me that these horrible things are real and can happen to anyone, including even my family. Those photos of that baby who was born heroin addicted and had to be tied so it wouldn’t scratch it’s self to death really put me over the edge. I could only imagine how a mother would feel if their smiling baby boy had to be bound and tied and had to go trough withdrawal at only a few months old, and even worse how my parents would feel. Your presentation moved me so much that I’m deathly afraid of just being in the same room as that awful stuff. But I feel that I am lucky that I was here when you came in.
I almost thought I couldn’t take it because it was just so much to take in. The other stories of such heart wrenching experiences made me feel sick to my stomach. But now that I have the knowledge of the horrors of heroin, I feel like I can now not only help myself, but I can help others too. I’ve already given the book that you autographed to my brother and parents to read. I did that because really do not know what I would do if heroin got into my family. I really hope that I can be as strong as you are and I give my sincere condolences.
From a Talley Middle School Student
A Talley Middle School Student <plaidshorty@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you so much for coming to are school and talking about your daughter Erin and about drugs. I’m really sorry about what has happen to your daughter. Ever since you came into our school I have never thought the same about drugs. I really appreciate you taking your time in coming in to talk to us about heroin. Before you came in all my friends thought that drugs weren’t a big deal but after I told them the story of your daughter and what she did they were really shocked. I told my other friends and I told my family, they were also shocked. When I heard about what drugs done to Erin and how it didn’t jus affect her life but that it also affect everybody around her life too. I would never think about how heroin could do so much stuff to a person and ruin their life in so many ways. And again thank you so much for coming.
Sincerely 7th grader at Talley Middle School
~Kimberly Barton~
Kimberly B. <kimberlybarton97@yahoo.com>
USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you so much for coming to are school and talking about your daughter Erin and about drugs. I’m really sorry about what has happen to your daughter. Ever since you came into our school I have never thought the same about drugs. I really appreciate you taking your time in coming in to talk to us about heroin. Before you came in all my friends thought that drugs weren’t a big deal but after I told them the story of your daughter and what she did they were really shocked. I told my other friends and I told my family, they were also shocked. When I heard about what drugs done to Erin and how it didn’t jus affect her life but that it also affect everybody around her life too. I would never think about how heroin could do so much stuff to a person and ruin their life in so many ways. And again thank you so much for coming.
Sincerely 7th grader at Talley Middle School
~Kimberly Barton~
Kimberly B. <kimberlybarton97@yahoo.com>
USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I Thank You For Coming In On Thursday December 10, 2009.
I Was Very Anxious To Meet You. I Didn’t Really Know What My
Exact Words Were Going Be When I First Saw You. From Reading
Your Book It Seem Like I Already had Met You. Reading This Book
Made Me Feel Like I Was There. I Know It Was Really hard For You
to Come In And Talk To Us About Your Deceased Daughter. I Thank You For
Being Brave And Doing That. The Presentation Was So Sad Especially
Seeing That Boy Blowing His Head Off. I Didn’t Know Drugs Had That Much
Control Over Some People. I Am Very Scared To Do Drugs From after What
I Saw. From All That I Learned I Thank You And Ms.Mils For Teaching Me It.
Love Always,
Cien M. Warren
CIEN WARREN <WARRENTAJ@YAHOO.COM>
CLAYMONT, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming into our school and sharing your story with us. It really opened my eyes about heroin and how dangerous it is. I’m never ever going to do heroin! I know someone who used to do that and I’m so glad that she stopped. I don’t ever know what I would do if one of my three little sisters got into that stuff. I told my 11 year old sister about that book and presentation and she’s going to read the book. My mom is reading the book too! Thank you for coming in, again, and have a happy holiday!
Sincerely,
Sarah Bouchat
Sarah Bouchat <heather.sarah303@yahoo.com>
Claymont , DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I really appreciate that you came to my school (Talley Middle) a few days ago. I learned so much about how heroin could ruin my life and affect everyone that is important to me. At first, to be honest I thought it was going to be another presentation that was going to tell us about how not to us heroin but by the end I was actually scared about if I ever tried heroin and the after effects. When I came home that night I told my mom about the presentation and how it affected me, I am definitely grateful for the relationship my mom and I have. I could never imagine the pain you had to endure while getting Erin to get clean and definitely the morning you found out she had died; I give my sincere condolences. Sincerely,
Lauren.
Lauren Hardy <cheerfreak2196@gmail.com>
Wilminton , de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you so much for coming to our school and teaching us about what heroin can do to people. I thought I learned so much by hearing your daughter’s experiences and other peoples. I have also found out that people that do heroin can make bad choices and can affect their family and it could be very heart breaking. I am sorry for your loss and hope that you can be ok. I think that by you spreading the word about Erin and her addiction could help many people because I don’t think anyone wants to get their life taken by something so horrible. As I said thank you again for coming to my school and teaching about heroin.
Sincerely,
8th grader, Kai D.
Kai D. <kai_deberry@yahoo.com>
newark, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009A letter to Mrs. Allen
Dear, Mrs. Allen
Mrs. Allen I really appreciated you coming to Talley and giving us that phenomenal and heart warming presentation. I feel like I could really connect to the book; and the presentation. It really made me realize how terrible drugs are and what they can really do to you and your life. It made me think long and hard about how you must have felt and dealt with the situation. It also made me think…”what if it was one of my friends or family members” I would be a nervous wreck. I know it must be really hard and challenging to cope with all of what has happened and being able to get up on that stage and do those presentations its very comforting and amazing what you do. I also wanted to let you know that I really appreciated and took your book; and presentation very seriously. You are in my prayers and in my heart.
Sincerely,
Savannah H. Friess
Savannah Friess <minime995@aol.com>
wilmington, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I do not cry easily. I can’t think of any time in the past year or so that I have really cried. When I heard your presentation was coming to our school, I absolutely did not expect to cry. But I was wrong… that was definitely one of, if not the, most powerful series of photos and information I have ever seen in my life. I was crying halfway through it, and did not stop till the end.
All of what you showed us was heartbreaking and undeniably wrong, but there were several parts that struck me the most. For example, I am a 14-year-old girl who has spent all my life growing up next to much younger neighbors, whom I have babysat in the past; I can’t imagine what would happen if I overdosed while watching them, like that girl you talked about. Also, the 4-year-old boy who was killed in the hit-and-run car accident was horrible along those same lines, and the heroin-addicting baby was just terrible.
But what struck me as the saddest was the slideshow of Erin. Those baby pictures reminded me of my own, and I shudder to think of how my mom would be affected if I was to die, being her only daughter. Similarly, I imagined how I would feel in your position; giving birth to a child, nurturing an loving that child, watching it grow and play and laugh and learn, then watching helplessly as that child became a heroin addict and died somewhere off alone. Both were horrible, horrible thoughts.
I want you to know that you, in my opinion, have perfected this presentation, and I think not only that it’s great and wonderful and brave that you’re doing it, but it’s necessary as well. This production gives the whole picture, the bleak, hard, sickening truth of dope, and I hope you continue this work for as long as possible to open other people’s eyes as you have opened mine. Thank you.
An 8th-grade Talley Middle School student <sarahgertler@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Mrs.Allen,
I just wanted to know if you ever go to schools in Pa. My daughter goes to West Perry middle school and I think it would be great if you were able to share your story with them.
bobbi Jo <bobbijo.stone@yahoo.com>
NewBloomfield, Pa USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Than you for coming to my school. When you came I really appreciated it. I learned a lot about heroin and how it can destroy your life and other people’s lives. When I saw most of the pictures you showed at the presentation it made me think about a lot. The book was very good and interesting. I think that a parent, especially a mother should never have to go through the pain and experience that you went through. I am glad that no one in my house and family has a problem with heroin. Heroin is a very bad drug and I feel very sorry for the people or person that uses it. It startled me when I saw some of the pictures of the little kids that had a hard life because of their parents or guardians had with heroin and how it affected the kid’s lives. I want to thank you for sharing Erin’s story to our school by writing the book and coming in to share the presentation.
Thank you, 7th Grader Salihah Guy!
Salihah Guy <tania.milionis@bsd.k12.de.us>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I knew heroin was bad for you and that I should stay away from it before reading your book and hearing your presentation. After reading dope help and hearing your presentation I learned that heroin is a serious matter. It was a shock to know that most heroin users are in the state I live in. It was also a shock to know what heroin can do to someone. All those side effects from the drug are life killing. Just one use could kill you and ruin your career. Thanks to your presentation and book I now know that heroin is very addictive and just one overdose can take your life away. I was also very upset to know that heroin is causing a large percentage of deaths in the United States. Also to know that there are more heroin cases than alcoholic causes is the most disappointing. This information tells me that we have a problem. You are one who helps explain this problem to students my age. You help us understand how dangerous this drug can be so we stay away from it. In result we all thank you. Thank you once again Mrs. Allen for writing your book, and coming to our school for your very informative information.
- Raveena, Talley middle school student.
Raveena <tania.milionis@bsd.k12.de.us>
Wilmington, De USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Your book was very interesting. Erin went threw many battles to stop using heroin and I can see why you would want to help everyone else. Just so family and friends wouldn’t have to go threw the same things you had to go threw. The presentation was even better, it was an eye opener to me. It explained to me that I should never do drugs. I realized if u make enough effort you can succeed at any goal. I did get emotional on the pictures. Only because I thought of losing my family if I made a stupid mistake in using drugs. To summarize this letter in two words thank you.
-Ta'Niyah TMS student
Ta'Niyah Price <tshantae13@aol.com>
Claymont , Delaware USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you so much for coming to Talley Middle School, it really touched all of our hearts. It was depressing for me because Erin had so many big dreams, but were overcome by her heroin addiction. Do you ever wonder if being bipolar ever took a part of Erin rejecting help for the first time? The disturbing photos that were on the screen really got to people, and made them think what heroin does to you. I have two questions that I want to ask. How did it make you feel when Erin told you to play the Pink Floyd tape at her funeral? How did Erin’s sister feel without her? I cannot even image seeing a child on a screen with just a number, not being able to touch her, and saying your last wishes on a computer screen. I know you said you went through therapy but still, how did you get the courage to come out and talk to us? However you did it I really appreciate it. Thank you.
A student at Talley
8th Grader at Talley <eaddy0@gmail.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I really appreciated you coming in to tell us about Erin’s story. All of the things I learned about heroin really amazed me. For example the shock that the U.S leads the nation in drug use! It’s sad to hear about all of the people that ruined not only their lives but others as well due to this horrific drug. Especially hearing about Erin because it is an example of a real life scenario therefore the message got through to not only me but to a lot of others. Learning about how heroin took over her life and she lived around heroin and forgot about the rest of the world. It broke me when we learned of how her sister badly when they used to be real close. It made me think of how my life would be if my brother ever did this because like Erin and Theresa were we are real close. If my life was like that I would never be the same. Learning about this made me feel the need to leave with my friend who also needed to.
This program changed my thinking of heroin. I have a more hatred for it after seeing this program. If I ever get those three death gifts it will NEVER be from heroin!
Thank you for coming, you changed my life and now I can change others!
THANK YOU!!
LOVE,
Marissa-
Talley middle school
marissa <funlovingmiss1@aol.com>
USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen, Your presentation at our school at our school a couple of days ago really touched me. I never thought that drugs could really do so much damage to a person’s life, not to mention affecting others around them as well. I’m so sorry about what happened to Erin and I hope you’re doing ok now. Erin’s story really taught me a lot about drugs especially heroin and how drugs can control your life to the point were you just give up. I hope you know that Erin’s message is being spread and is helping other people around the world, from what I’ve seen from the posts on your website. Thank you very much for delivering this message for Erin and I know you’ll be rewarded for all of your great work.
Sincerely, Ayanna Leigh Haynie
Ayanna Leigh Haynie <yanna_banna30@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
When we read the book ¡§Dope Help¡¨ it didn¡¦t really upset me much as I thought it would. But then I would remember, this is a true story; and it happened around where I grew up. It blew my mind. It even think about what her sister might have been going through with all that happening to Erin. Then you came in and said more about her sister then you did in the book and I couldn¡¦t help myself. I cried my eyes out just thinking about if my sister ever put me through this, what I would do. She is my best friend. I would like to think that my sister isn¡¦t the kind of person to do this. But Erin from what I read didn¡¦t really seem like that kind of person. I know my sister has done weed, and after this I am ungodly scared what could happen to her. I know someone in my family is a drinker. He went to rehab 2 times in one year. I hate talking about it. I don¡¦t know how to. I really appreciate that you can talk about your daughter. This changed my life in so many ways. One of them being; I don¡¦t think I every want to try drugs. I¡¦m the one girl out of my friends that hasn¡¦t ever done it; and I don¡¦t plan on ever doing it. Thanks a bunch! ƒº
Love,
Morgan a Talley Middle School kid
morgan <xobboo@yahoo.com>
D.E USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Sorrow. That’s what I felt reading your book. I couldn’t imagine half the pain it would give me, losing my daughter or sister to drugs. When you came in and talked to us about what heroin can do to you and how people do drugs more and more every day. “So you think you can tell heaven from hell?” That song spoke out to me and I couldn’t stop singing it afterwards. I appreciate that my mom didn’t do drugs at all so I don’t have to fight the addiction. It made me realize that drugs are more dangerous then a clean person would think. I guess once you start, it’s hard to stop. You made me think about how I would deal with a friend that would be addicted to drugs. Or a family member, I wouldn’t even be able to live with them anymore. I wish I could tell Erin what could happen if you do drugs. I wish I could show her pictures and tell her things that she might never even be able to do. Thank you for telling all the girls how dangerous heroin can be. It takes a lot of guts to talk about something like that in front of everybody. In the future, I want to tell younger kids how dangerous drugs can be. Yours truly, an inspired Talley Middle School 8th grader.
Talley Middle School 8th Grader
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I really appreciated what you have done for me, my school, and this world. Your book and your presentation will help prevent a lot of teens from using drugs. While I was reading your book, I could imagine how your daughter tried her best to fight the need for drug and how horrible it made her feel. Your daughter’s death probably has a huge affect on you and your family.
When I saw those pictures in the power point presentation, I just had to close my eye because it was so horrible. The picture that caught my eye was the picture of the tiny baby whose mom was a drug user. The baby just stayed in this world for only 3 weeks and then died. Heroin will never be something I would want to try or even use. My friend and I learn a lot about the drug after reading your book and after watching your presentation. We learned a lot of things that I didn’t know before about drugs. One of the things I learned is that, a heroin user usually lose all their relationships with their friends, family, and their love ones. Some people are fired from their work and would steal from people.
Anyway, my school and I really appreciated what you have done and the courage and work you put into this program. Your work has helped prevent a lot death from drug using. Thank you!
-- Amy from Talley Middle School
Amy Lin <amynil97@yahoo.com>
wilmington , de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
You came to my school on Thursday, and I couldn’t stop thinking about the presentation. When I saw some of the pictures, it really scared me. I had never seen pictures of actual dead bodies. It made me think about how I should be thankful for the things that I have. I always say to my parents “I want this” or “I want that”. My mom and I would always get into arguments about things I couldn’t get. I know now I can’t have everything “I want”. Some things I just can’t have. I look up to my dad as my role model. I want to work hard like he does every day. When I saw the picture of the 13-year-old that shot himself, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I would hate to find my dad like that. He encourages me to do my best every day and be a hard worker. It would devastate me to have him not be in my life. I wanted to know how can you tell Erin’s story in front of crowds and not get emotional talking about it. Thank you for coming to our school and teaching us the dangers about using heroin.
-Leslie M. Hiller
Leslie Hiller Talley M.S. <lesliemhiller12@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I want to thank you very much for coming in and speaking with us about Erin’s life. It was very inspirational and touching. You are a hero to many people because you talking about the effects of drug use and how it is very harmful and why they shouldn’t be messed with. Yours and the State Trooper’s presentation made me even more alert of the dangerous and fatal effects of using drugs and other destructive substances. I know personally what is like to have a person very close to you abuse drugs, my mother was an alcoholic for many years but I hope she has stopped (I don’t live with her anymore.) It must be difficult to talk about Erin but know for a fact that you have helped many people and I am grateful for it.
Alexis Ellison
7th Grade
Talley Middle School Student
Alexis Ellison <lsngrlz@hotmail.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
You presented “Heroin Alert” to my school. It was very eye-opening for me, seeing all the effects of Heroin. Even though the presentation scared me, I now know what happens when you use all kinds of drugs. I will make sure I will never use drugs because of your book I have learned that it will effect your family, friends, and your whole entire life. I have learned that drugs will destroy the path that was set for your life because of heroin use. I think people my age should really be role-models to all the little kids out there and in my opinion, I want to make sure that I set a good example. Personally, I thought the presentation would be really frightening to me but it didn’t make me cry or it didn’t frighten me but it did teach me a important lesson that I will follow for the rest of my life: If you want to live a long, happy life and to have children, a family, awesome friends and family you have to stay drug-free. Erin was right, the saying DON’T DO DRUGS just doesn’t work anymore and your book “Dope Help” does give kids a reason not to use them. I am really sorry about Erin and I hope she is in a better place now and I wish she were here with your family today so she could also help you with these presentations to show children and teens that drugs are a terrible thing to live off of. I know you have now touched my heart and I give my wishes to your family.
Thank you so much for showing me everything, for now I know what happens when you do these things. R.I.P Erin Allen
Kayla Chen
Grade 7
A Talley Middle School Student
Kayla Chen <kaylachen@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
When you came into my school last week, and I watched your presentation I couldn’t stop thinking about it all day. When we first came into the auditorium I didn’t think it would be that bad, when you showed the pictures, I’ve never actually seen a dead body and those pictures were stuck in my head all day. The presentation really made me think about how I should be thankful for what I have and not always asking for more. The person I look up to is my brother he’s really smart and is in honors and gets all A’s and B’s, he’s 16 and it would kill me if he started using heroin or any drug. He’s like a 2nd father and he cares about me and always encourages me to do well in school and also tells me not to hang out with the “wrong crowd.” At the end of the presentation when you said “Is there any questions” I was too upset to raise my hand and ask but I wanted to know how you could have enough confidence and courage to stand up and tell you and Erin’s story in front of a group of middle school students and not cry at all. It’s hard for me to stand up in front of my classmates to present a project and I know all of them, I couldn’t imagine how hard it is to stand in front of a group of strangers. So I want to thank you for coming to our school to teach us the dangers of heroin and your presentation defiantly showed a visual about it and helped and touched everyone. God Bless you and your family.
Thank you.
Lana Allen
Grade 8
Talley Middle School
Lana Allen <lma10@comcast.net>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I can’t thank you enough for coming to our school. Her story was absolutely a heart break yet it was extremely amazing. When I read the book, it didn’t fully upset me, it was just a bit unsettling. After I heard you tell Erin’s story I realized how it was emotional rollercoaster for you to endure. I’m so sorry for your loss. When those disturbing pictures were shown, they truly upset me. I never even began to realize how deadly heroin was, until I heard its effects. When you told me about how her addiction also changed Theresa too, I began thinking about my very close friends, and boyfriend and how if they ever messed around with serious drugs, I personally know I would never be the same. All in all you’re a true inspiration to me. You’re such an amazingly strong woman for going through that everyday, thank you for sharing her story, it changed my life.
sincerly,
A Talley Middle School student
baylie <bqabercrombie@aol.com>
DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I can’t thank you enough for coming to our school. Her story was absolutely a heart break yet it was extremely amazing. When I read the book, it didn’t fully upset me, it was just a bit unsettling. After I heard you tell Erin’s story I realized how it was emotional rollercoaster for you to endure. I’m so sorry for your loss. When those disturbing pictures were shown, they truly upset me. I never even began to realize how deadly heroin was, until I heard its effects. When you told me about how her addiction also changed Theresa too, I began thinking about my very close friends, and boyfriend and how if they ever messed around with serious drugs, I personally know I would never be the same. All in all you’re a true inspiration to me. You’re such an amazingly strong woman for going through that everyday, thank you for sharing her story, it changed my life.
sincerly,
A Talley Middle School student
baylie <bqabercrombie@aol.com>
DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dear Mrs. Allen,
I really appreciate you taking then time to come to our school. I think the presentation was very helpful to me and everyone about never trying drugs or being a user of drugs. I am so sorry about your loss of Erin. She seemed to be a nice girl most of the time, except when she was high. But thank you very much for the presentation. Sincerely,
Gina Renulfi from Talley Middle School
Gina Renulfi <Ginarenulfi@yahoo.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I am an eighth grader at Talley Middle School in Wilmington, Delaware. Thank you so much for coming. I really appreciated it. I always knew that heroin was bad, but I didn’t know it was that horrible. I never knew that heroin could do all that stuff to your body. I was thinking about all the families that have been through the loss of a loved one due to a heroin overdose. The presentation made me want to help people who are using it. The pictures that the officer showed us made me realize that people have really done things like that and it isn’t just a fantasy or a reality it’s life. I am really sorry for the loss of your daughter Erin. She seemed like a really good person that always wanted to help people. I know how it feels to lose a loved one.
Sincerely,
Katie Kupchick
Katie Kupchick <mkup12@aol.com>
Claymont , DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I read your book “Dope Help” in my heath class. The book really touches my heart. Before I read your book and watched the presentation I thought a drug addict was a rock star or a poor, homeless person. I never thought it could be someone like me. I also didn’t think drugs were all that bad. It just seemed like something that you could not do, like you can’t drive a car till your 16 years old. I knew you could die from them but people also die in cars and we still drive them. The book really opened my eyes to what they really are and how bad they can be. I learned a lot from your presentation. Thank you so much for coming.
~A Talley Middle School Student
Sarah Galbraith <dolfin101@verizon.net>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Mrs. Allen,
First off I would like to thank you so much for coming out to Talley Middle School. Second thing is it was very nice how you had the strength to tell Erin’s story to all those people that was there at the presentation. One thing I liked about the presentation was when you said that every day you made sure Erin had something to eat or at least some clean clothes. I wish I could of talked to you a little bit longer so I could know more about Erin’s story. I think by me being at that presentation and sitting there watching it made me think that I don’t ever want to do heroin or any other drug, and if I knew some one that was doing heroin or any other drugs I would tell them to STOP because I wouldn’t want them to go through the pain you went through.
Sincerely
Kayla Mahler
Kayla Mahler <x.babekay.x@yahoo.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I know you receive many letters each day from many schools and offices. I just want you to know that I am positive every single person who wrote a letter has the same message in theirs. Mine including. Erin was a wonderful girl in my eyes and in many others. It wasn’t her fault that heroin took over her life, it wasn’t anybody’s fault…it was what had been done and who had done it. Erin was a slave and heroin was her master. Not only Erin, many, many, many other people too. My point is that I want you to know you are not alone in this situation. I pray for you and Erin every day. Even though Erin is gone now, I can’t help but to think and hope and pray that she is alright and having the time of her life far off in another world. Not only Erin. After the presentation you gave to our school, I hope and think and pray about the other people who do deadly drugs and hope they don’t end up in a bad place.
These are my feelings towards you and Erin, and towards many other people. I want you to also know that all of Talley Middle School is here for you. Please have a nice day and I thank you for taking the time to read my letter. Thanks again for EVERYTHING.
-a Talley Middle School student
a talley middle school student <amandalroy@comcast.net>
wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Dear Mrs. Allen,
I want to tell you how sorry I am that your daughter died from heroin. I liked the book it made me sad and made me think about how I don’t want to throw my life away by using drugs. When my class and I read this I wanted to cry, I got angry, sad, happy, and excited. I would like to assure you that I will never take drugs and if I know someone who does I will try to help them stop. Thank you for coming to our school and telling us about heroin. Erin’s story has made a huge difference in my life. I will pray for Erin, you, and your family.
A Talley Middle School Student
Kiersten <kiersten97@verizon.net>
Wilmington , Delaware USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for coming to my school last week. I am sure now that I will never do drugs. Your presentation made me open my eyes to the horrors of drugs. I now appreciate being healthy and full of life. The whole time you gave that presentation I was thinking that you must have gone through a hard time when Erin died. My dog died a few months ago and I was so sad but you lost a real human being. I feel so bad for you. You and Erin will always be on my mind.
Kindest Wishes,
A Talley Middle School Studen
Trina Harmon <drawinggirl101@comcast.net>
wilm, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming in and sharing your story about Erin. It must have taken a lot of nerves to get up in front of everyone and share the sadness of Erin’s story and the truth about heroin. I now understand how bad it is, and how much you can get addicted. Erin was a bright, normal girl going to a regular school. I don’t have anyone in my family on drugs, so I thought that not many people were drug addicts. But your book and your presentation made me realize that people I know could be drug addicts; even my friends. It sort of opened me up and said, “This is happening today, right now.” Some pictures, like the one with all the sores on the arm made me really queasy and made me feel like I did not want to eat anything. But that was good, because it really made me be SURE never to do heroin, or any other drug.
Love,
Hannah, a Talley Middle School Student
Hannah from Talley Middle School <Hannah.McIlvaine@verizon.net>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you so much for coming to our school. It really meant a lot to me, and I think it meant a lot to other people. I do not truly know how hard it was for you to come and talk to us. But, I really appreciate it, and I am glad you did come. I will never do drugs. Seeing your presentation helped a lot of other people and I understand the true danger of Heroin, and other types of drugs. Thank you again for coming.
A Talley Middle School Student
A Talley Middle School Student <sarahklocke@verizon.net>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dear Mrs. Allen,
Your book, “Dope Help” was really informative. I’m glad that you were willing to write a book about Erin, and about the life she led. Erin’s story was inspirational, and it made me happy that I am where I am in life. Thanks so much for coming to Talley to talk with us. Everything you said and showed was eye watering, but I am glad that someone had the nerves to show and tell us the true facts, and open my eyes to the world we live in. You touched my heart through “Dope Help”, and I felt like I knew Erin like a friend, neighbor, or sister by the second chapter.
Thanks again so much.
Love,
Mollie D. a Talley Middle School student
Mollie D. <cupcakes4u1096@gmail.com>
wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming in and sharing your story with us. I’m sure that if anyone thought about doing drugs, they won’t anymore. I know it must be hard for you to talk about it over and over again in front of people you don’t know. I’m pretty sure I will stay away from drugs and do my best at school. You impacted a lot of people in my class and some of them were crying. When you were talking about Erin, it made me feel sad. I realized I wouldn’t do drugs and I hope my friends wouldn’t do drugs. In the beginning, when the police officer was talking about real friends and they wouldn’t let you take the blame for something you didn’t do, it also made me realize something. I realized who my true friends are. I just wanted to say thank you for coming out to talk to us and to let you know that people were still talking about your presentation a day after it.
Sincerely,
A Talley Middle School Student
Casey <cls1230@comcast.net>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen thank you for coming in and showing us Erin’s life, it mean’s a lot to me. It reminds me about my mom from the time she was doing drugs. I wish you can come and tell us more things about Erin I was reading the book over the weekend every time I read the book it make’s me cry. My sister said the book was good too she wishes that she can meet you and tell you about her life. I’m sorry to hear about Erin. I wish she was tell here even know that I don’t know her. I will never do a drug it make’s me think about Erin every time a think about it its sad that she was doing drugs she was too cute and blessed in to this world . All I want to know is what made her do what she did p.s. Sorry to hear about Erin wish she was still here
Love always, Dana Rae
12-15-09
danarae shaw <danawright50@yahoo.com>
claymont, del USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dear Mrs. Allen
Thank you so much for coming in. We really appreciate you coming and talking to us about heroin and what it does to you and what the side affects are. Also the presentation has really helped me with how fast heroin can kill u and the different ways it is used to get into your body. Also I learned what some of the street names are used to get kids to use it. Also I learned what the consciences are if u get caught with the drug. Next I see that heroin is really addictive and that u don’t have to use the drug that long for it to kill you. Then it is really bad to start at a young age. Also the book helped me to stay away form any kind of drug and especially heroin and I feel bad that your daughter had died from it.
Sincerely,
Jamie Donithan
Jamie Donithan <biggreen924u@hotmail.com>
wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
Well I say thanks to come to our school at Talley middle school. Im sorry you lost your kid.You show me think we should never do in our life. I feel sad the some people using drug to kill their self. I would try drug I hid out I can kill my self but I want to lift. Thanks to show of drug I know now what can happen. You should keep showing people about the drug. When I read the book I saw the picture and make me sad saw what happen. The song I hear it was sad but I did like it too. If I could see her I would say hi to her. I did like the book it was cool!
maribel <baby.loveu@live.com>
claymont, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming in and telling us about your experience with Erin and other people who are addicted to heroin. I never could have come to Talley and talked so strongly about someone I was close to dying of a heroin over dose. I can tell that you really don’t want anyone else to have to go through what you went through. This was a great presentation to convince kids and adults to stay away from heroin, everything was real and defiantly nothing I want to have to experience. The things about the babies really made me upset, because little kids shouldn’t have to die or be addicted to heroin just because that’s what there parents do.
The thing about the kid blowing his head off because his famous idol did it made me upset to. But I think those pictures got the message across to stop people from using heroin, they were great real examples.
I defiantly won’t be doing heroin and I hope nobody else I know will either. Thank you so much for coming in and talking about heroin and your daughter. Keep doing what your doing I think it will make a big difference someday
Thank you so much,
Abby O’Tanyi. 7th grade TMS.
Abby O'Tanyi 7th grade
wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you so much for coming to my school and sharing your sad story with us. We really appreciate it. It made me feel sorry for people that died because of heroin addicts because a lot of innocent lives were lost. It also made me think about how lucky I am to know about most drugs and how I’m making good choices everyday. It made me realize how hard it is for you to talk about your daughter over and over again. What really make me appreciate is how my lifestyle is and how my friends don’t pressure me to do drugs or just things I don’t want to do. I wish I could’ve told you that you’re a brave mom because you share Erin’s story with everyone almost everyday.
Sincerely,
A Talley Middle School Student
8th grader from talley <nickjluvr4ever@yahoo.com>
wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dear Mrs.Allen
your prensentation really touched me. Never will I think to do heroin or any
drug. I dont know how you do this all of the time, because i would have never
built up the courage to speak in front of people about my dead daughter. I
read this book before we read it in health class and i cried for a while, and
i havent cried like that in a long time. During this presentation I thought about my
parents and my family, and how they would have felt if i was a heroin addict and
overdosed and died. they would've been really upset that I died from something that
stupid, and didnt have to die over.From this presentation, it made me appreciate that
I have family and friends that love me. It also made me appreciate that i am and not sick.
I really thank you for coming in and talking to us.
Sincerley
Kaitlyn Tongue. :)(:
Kaitlyn Tongue <kaityshortstuff@gmail.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dear Mrs.Allen
your prensentation really touched me. Never will I think to do heroin or any
drug. I dont know how you do this all of the time, because i would have never
built up the courage to speak in front of people about my dead daughter. I
read this book before we read it in health class and i cried for a while, and
i havent cried like that in a long time. During this presentation I thought about my
parents and my family, and how they would have felt if i was a heroin addict and
overdosed and died. they would've been really upset that I died from something that
stupid, and didnt have to die over.From this presentation, it made me appreciate that
I have family and friends that love me. It also made me appreciate that i am and not sick.
I really thank you for coming in and talking to us.
Sincerley
Kaitlyn Tongue. :)(:
Kaitlyn Tongue <kaityshortstuff@gmail.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dear Mrs. Allen,
I can’t thank you enough for coming into our middle school. I was always interested in learning about drugs. I now know the effects and consequences of drugs as you and the officer told us. I now have a firm “no”, in my mind to drugs. I feel so sorry for your loss and thank you so much for doing your program, at Talley Middle school. Your presentation has helped me decide that peer pressure will never get me to do drugs or harmful things to my body. After your presentation, I will encourage younger kids, like my brother and sister not to go anywhere near drugs. In your slideshow, I felt bad for some of the drug users that were caught in the drug cycle. The poor little toddler definitely, didn’t deserve that kind of life. I’m going to let my brother read “Dope Help”, and ask him about his feelings on drugs. Your presentation made me realize that anyone can become addicted, but I can prevent that from happening, to me and I’m going to tell my peers also.
Thank you,
A Talley Middle School student
Morga Shinwari <mshinwari7862gmail.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for coming in and thank you so much for writing Erin’s Story. Last year my mom started using heroin and it hurt me when I found out about it. She started in June and did not stop until October. When I found out she was using I was reading your book in school. So I brought my book home and told her to read it. Thank you I think sometimes if she didn’t read that book she might not be here with me today. Dope Help changed my life and my mom’s life she has been clean for 1 year and 2 months today. She got back on track she has a great job and a new husband. Oh did I mention he has been clean for 205 days after reading Dope Help. He too was a victim of heroin. Thank you again Mrs. Allen. Reading Dope Help changed my life around I have been clean and serene for 90 days. I have been going to NA and AA meetings to help me. I read your book last year too. But I didn’t really pay any attention until I realized. In the summer what I had become and I wanted to stop and I did. I will never touch another drug in my life again. Thank you again.
Thank you,
KayLea Jackson..
KayLea Jacksin <wiccan_princess95@yahoo.com>
wilminton, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dear Mrs.Allen
My name is Angelica Dejesus a 7th grade here at Talley Middle School.I saw your presentation and heard your speech about your daughter Erin. I will always cherish this book for the rest of my life.I know your daughter meant the world to you and it must have been very sad to know that your daughter died from heroin. When I read this book it gave me a really sad feeling ,when I got home and fell asleep I had a dream about the story that you gave about Erin and how it must have felt to lose someone you were close to. It made me relize that life is real short and to make life stretch and live life and be happy that your still alive. I know if it was me I wouldn't have the courage to go around talking to kids about my daughter if she had died. I hope others learn from Erin's story and don't let herion into their life. My friends and I feel so bad for your loss. You can e-mail me anytime if you need someone to talk to when your feeling down. If I could bring her back to you just to make you happy you know I would. Well, hope you and Theresa have good days and don't get anymore bad news from now until forever .Your best friend Angelica Dejesus at Talley Middle School.
Angelica Dejesus <angelicadejesus62@yahoo.com>
claymont, delaware USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs Allen,
Thanks for visiting my school, i really learned alot from your presentation about Erin. Ever since I've finnished reading your book and listening to your presentation, I've been telling people about this ( my family members). As i read your book, I felt like I could make people know what heroin and drugs can do to you and how it can affect your life. As I listened to your presentation, it made me realize how much drugs can ruin your life & also how it can ruin your body. I really appreciate you visiting my school and talking to us about something very painful to you just to teach us about something very important. This story and presentation affected me in a sad & shocking way because I never knew about drug addicts dying from overdosing themselves, in fact I never even knew about overdosing. I was also surprised to hear that Delaware is the #1 state in the U.S that leads teen drug abuse. Now I'm ready to help people make a change because hearing that the state you live in is the #1 state that leads teen drug use, is a very dangerous thing. I know that you will agree Mrs Allen. And I will always keep you, Erin, and Theresa in my prayers.
A student from talley middle <gypsy_mac123@yahoo.com>
claymont, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dear Mrs. Allen,
I am so sorry for your loss, your daughter must of meant alot to you. I've learned so much from you coming. Now I will think twice before doing any drugs. Well, the book was so sad I don't know if I could go through what you went through. It must of been so hard and so sad. It was sad to see how many people have died or got really sick from doing Heroin. You would think that they would know better or at least think twice before doing it. But I guess that's what heroin does it controls your mind and it wants you to take that drug. It made me realize that life is to short to do anything to harm or kill yourself over something so stupid. Thank you so much for coming to teach us the importance of not doing drugs, but I know it was hard for you and for that I am thankful. It has touched my heart so much and I know It will touch many other hearts as well.
Abigail Anders <Aanders1406@comcast.net>
WILMINGTON, D.E USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009I would like to thank you for coming in and doing the presentation for us I really liked it! I felt really sad because if I had a daughter or a sister that died from heroin I'd be scared for life. I really liked the book it taught me a lot of things about heroin and it also taught me to never ever do drugs because it’s just not the way to go. And again, I would like to thank you for coming in and doing the presentation and signing our books. Sincerely, Shelly
An 7th grader from talley middle school <frisbyshelly@yahoo.com>
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen, Thank you for coming to our school to tell us about Erin’s story and to teach us more about heroin and what can happen if we use it. I think that you made a lot of us think more about not using heroin because of the possibilities of what can happen to us. I think that both the book and the presentation were sad but also inspiring. You have a lot of strength to be telling Erin’s story over and over again, and I know it must be very hard for you to do but I’m glad you do it because you are saving a lot of other lives. Happy Holidays.
8th grader at Talley Middle
USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dear Mrs. Allen thank you so much, for opening my eyes to see how bad heroin really is. I am so grateful that you came in, so I can tell my family how awful heroin is. I really wish Erin could have been there to tell about her experiences, and I would have loved to meet her. Also thank you for taking your time out to come see us, I really enjoyed the program. I felt really bad when all you could see when Erin died was her face on a computer screen. You are very courageous to come in and be able to tell Erin’s story by yourself. I know that I never could have.
I hope you and your family have a safe and Happy Christmas this year. And Happy New Year.
eight grader at talley middle
USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs.Allem
Thank you so much for comming to our school. I know that the presentation was very hard for you. But it really made me understand what heroin does to you. In a couple of the pictures I was about to cry, but I stayed strong because you did. Knowing all of this made me want to just stay in school and behave. when I was reading the book it made me think about things that happend in my life. But nothing was as bad as Erin's story. I am so sorry about the death of your daughter and thank you so much for comming in.
Briona Ellison <brionaellison@yahoo.com>
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
It was really nice of you coming to our school and sharing Erin’s story and the presentation. The presentation was really sad and hearing Erin’s story made me feel sad. Thank you for sharing all of this now I know what's right and what's wrong. about drugs After the presentation and hearing Erin's story I now know what drugs can do to me or my family and I'm really glad that I never chose to make that decision and I never will. I love helping people and looking at someone that is really trying to help others makes me feel happy. Erin was really pretty. Thanks once again
for coming.
Love, Aliya
Aliya Ranjber <tania.milionis@bsd.k12.de.us>
claymont, DE... USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I really liked your book. I think that the book sends a good message out to kids (and adults) of all ages why it's not a good idea to start drugs or use heroin. The presentation was really cool I loved it. Mainly because I wanted to see what your daughter, Erin, looked like. The book did have pictures in it but I really wanted to see more.
Me and my friend, Kait, loved the Pink Floyd song once we heard it. Kait was the one who knew Kurt Cobain. I was the one who knew John Belushi. I only had to look away twice.1st when you showed the picture of the kid who shot his head off. 2nd was when you showed the guy who had to pick his scabs just to reach a vein. But, it was good anyway. The best part was when you showed pictures of Erin with "Wish you were here" playing.
Thank you for coming to my school. I really appreciated it. I couldn't wait until the day you where coming. I loved the presentation. I think you're a good role model to kids everywhere. Thank you 1,000,000 times Thank you.
I love the book and presentation that really meant a lot to me. Thank you so much! There aren’t any words to describe how thankful I am that you came and shared Erin’s story. Sorry about Erin Mrs. Allen. I was about to cry at the end of your book.
Angel <AngelD8197@comcast.net>
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear mrs.Allen,
I would like to thank you for coming to Talley and doing the presentation. It must of been really hard for you to hear your daughter had pasted away because of an doverdose. Was it hard for you when you started to do the whole travling to diffrent schools and telling Erin's story? When you had the picture of Erin when she died on the screen that had made me cry. That must of been very upsetting. When our class had read the book and seen how she died at a young age, I dont think I want to do any drugs. I would like to stay away from it. When the officer had shown us about the articles of how babies, and little kids how they died, all because their parents do the durgs and they have it in there blood. Also how the parents have left the drugs out and the kids get a hold of it and have a overdose. Anyways I would like to thank you and wish you the best.
sincerely,
Haley White
Haley White <summerwhite95@yahoo.com>
claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you for comming to our school. The presentation that was shown to us by the police officer and you was life changing for me. The pictures that we had seen showed lots of people who either killed there self overdosing or hurting others in the process of their addiction. This made me think of all the consequences that come with using heroin. It made me think of how much of a burden It would be on my family and others that I care about. It me realize that once you take one shot of the drug you could either be hooked forever or insantantly killed. I have decided that I don't want to throw away years of my life for only a few minutes of fun. It also made me think of who my friends are and who I look up to and if that person is a good role model. Also I would like to thank you again because I know its hard to get in front of crowds and talk about Erin. Im sorry for your loss and wish you well.
,An 8th grader from Talley Middle School
8th grader from Talley Middle School <lexielove96@gmail.com>
wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen
Thank you so very much for coming into our school you made me think twice about using drugs. The presentation was very sad, seeing a lot of people dead from the use drugs; mainly seeing Erin dead. She was very pretty, young, smart, but it’s a shame to see her dead from heroin, she had her whole a life a head of her. The presentation was very nice and special and I am so sad for your daughter’s story, Thank you for your website.
Merwah shinwari 7th grade <merwah.shinwari@gmail.com>
wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
I really learned a lot by reading your book and watching your presentation, I saw some things that really dug down deep and gave me an extremely good reason not to ever do drugs. Your story and presentation are real. Though I was sad and emotional, I wouldn’t have changed anything. Meaning that what I learned at your presentation last week was something that I will definately think about. I don’t think I will forget what I learned. Your story had a real impact on me and the rest of us, I’m sure. I most definitely thank you for visiting us at Talley and thank you for sharing yours, and Erin’s story.
Libby H 8th grader at TMS <libbcat@gmail.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
This presentation touched me and made me really realize the effects of Heroin. It made me see that it could happen to me even though I would never go anywhere near it and neither would my friends. Throughout the presentation tears came to my eyes and I felt so sad yet terrified. I am truly sorry for your loss and I wish the best for you and your family. I obviously don't know what it's like to lose a daughter, especially to Heroin, but I know it must really hurt. I don't know how you do it. Going from place to place, school to school talking about your daughter's lost battle with Heroin. You are truly an inspiration and very strong. I'm sure, no actually I know that your book (Erin's story) and your presentation have touched and changed so many lives. It changed my life. So I want to thank you and the officer from the bottom of my heart for everything you've done. Keep on doing it and helping others. It's what Erin would have wanted.
Bakhita Mukundi 8th grader at talley middle school <KitKat720xoxo@yahoo.com>
newark, de USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
All I really want to say is thank you. Seeing your presentation and reading the book was an experience. I don’t know if it was a good experience or a bad one. But it taught me things that I have not known. When the New Castle County Police Officer spoke about becoming addicted to heroin after only one use it was sad. Those pictures of people who died right after injecting heroin was intense. I could never understand why people do such horrible things! Why? Because it makes them feel good? But what happens when that “high” feeling is gone?
Mrs. Allen your presentation has influenced me more about not doing drugs. Drugs- They’re expensive, they smell and totally are not for me!! Once Again I would really like to thank you for sharing your experiences & Erin with my school (Talley Middle) I waited all week for my chance to finally meet you. THANK YOU!!!!
Talley Middle Student,
Allisyn-Kate Brown [:
Allisyn Brown <Hotmammaz58@yahoo.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs Allen,
Thank you so very much for coming to my school. You made me think twice about doing drugs . The Presentation was very sad and it was hard seeing a lot of people dead from the use of drugs. The hardest part for me was seeing Erin dead . Erin was very pretty, smart and it's a shame that heroin took away the whole life that she had ahead of her .The Presentation was very nice and its amazing how you built up the courage to retell the story over and over to help young people. I wish I could have given you a hug before you left because you need a lot of support to get you through this . The Presentation made me realize using drugs is serious and it's a big killer and it will take over your life. I really like the the book and I love the song Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd its kind of sad but makes me feel a special way. Thanks for coming and Good luck.
Sincerly , Wilyonna Jaqueline
wilyonna jaqueline <wilyonnapollard@yahoo.com>
claymont , delaware USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
you came to my school talley middle school a while ago and i really appreciate that you came. i know that it was very hard to talk about your daughter and your personal feelings. When i read this story it was very shocking and suprised me a little bit.I did not know that you had to do all of those things to get heroin and drugs like selling them, stealing, and also doing harmful things to yourself and to other people. you inspire me for how you had the strength to come in and i was also happy that you came in because it taught me alot of things that i didn't know before about drugs.That presentation and the book makes me not want not want to think about or use drugs or smoke...ever. Thank you very much for some of your time and your help.!!
From a talley middle school student..7th Grade..
Alexsis Brown <lexyakapooh@msn.com>
wilmington , deleware USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Mrs. Allen,
I am so glad that you came to my school, Talley Middle School, last week. Your presentation really opened up my eyes to what drugs can truthfully do to you. Erin's story showed us the consequences of heroin since many people think drugs are harmless and cool. After seeing the pictures of the people, many only in their twenties and thirties, I was really surprised. This made me really upset that everyday people loose their lives to drug addiction. I would also like to thank you for the wonderful book you gave us. The book was great and showed me how you would have to live once you became very addicted to heroin. You are such a strong woman to go out everyday and share your daughter’s story. Thank you so much and have a great holiday,
Meghan Doogan
Meghan Doogan <meghanxod@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs.Allen
Thank you so much for coming in and expressing your feelings about Erin. I'm glad that I saw that presentation because it opened my eyes on how not to do drugs as I can see what it could do to you and its not pretty at all. I thank god for all things he keeps me in the right place at the right time. Even though Erin is not here we will always remember her and cherish her memory . The book Dope Help was a magnificent book. If I was a teacher then I would recommend my students to read the book . When I saw Erin's face on the screen I was so happy because if she wasn't on drugs she would have been a beautiful girl here on earth.
Best Wishes,
Jade Marsh
jade marsh <jademarsh@ymail.com>
wilmington, De USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Thank you so much for coming to Talley Middle School. Your book touched me and made me realize that I have a lot to be thankful for. No one that is related to me smokes, uses drugs, or drinks. Even though I already know using drugs is dangerous you made me understand the effects of using it. While I was listening and watching your presentation, I saw some pictures that were horrifying. Heroin I hope will never become a part of my life. Thank you again, for making me understand that heroin destroys your life.
Sincerely,
Eileen
Eileen <violineplayer123@gmail.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Mrs.Allen
The book made me feel sad to hear about your daughter that died. You were very brave to come into Talley and talk about your daughter that died. It made me feel very sad to see all of the people that died, especially the kids that died because their parents wanted to get high.During the presentation it made me realize that their are a lot of people doing drugs and heroine in Delaware an around the world.Thanks for coming to Talley Middle School to talk to us about the loss of Erin and the people that died.
Brittany
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear,Mrs Allen and police officer,
Thank you for coming to our school.Ypur story made me feel sad because i would be heartbroken to see my daughter do this.Your story of Erin made me feel that doing drugs is nothing but trouble to you and your family .It made me relize that drugs is not a good thing ,that it can lead you to prison or even DEATH.it made me appriciate that you had the courage to come to tell us the story.I wish that i could of told you that your brave and and a wonderful mother to you daughter. But you can see now that im not verry brave as you are if i was i would of told u what i wanted to say at the presentation.Lastly,your presentation affected me because i will never do drugs or even try beacause i know now that you can hooked on them at the age that i am.
GOD BLESS YOU MRS ALLEN WISH THE BEST FOR U !!!!!!!!
stephanie sarmiento <stephanie_sarmiento672869@yahoo.com>
CLAYMONT, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen,
Last week you came to my school to give your presentation. I had tried to prepare myself for it beforehand, but it was nothig like I expected. It made me feel really sad, but at the same time it made me appreciate that I have my whole life ahead of me without heroin. This presentation also made me feel really sorry for people who feel like they need heroin and other drugs to stay happy. I wish I could have told you in person, but I think it's amazing how you come out and do this everyday. I could never manage that. Thank you so much for coming to my school!
8th Grade Talley Middle School <mgmcg2448@verizon.net>
Wilmingtion, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Mrs Allen,
I am so glad you came to Talley Middle school to share your daughters story. I can't even imagine having to do what you do for a living. You are truly a strong woman to have to tell and relive what happened to your daughter, and by telling her story you save others. In movies today drugs and voilence are glamorized. These things are not any thing that can be taken lightley and I know that your presentation made more people realize that. Kids at my school talk about how they smoked this and I drank that and they really think they sound cool, but it's not. Some of those kids were attending your presentation and I know it made them think twice about what they are doing to themselves. I just want to thankyou again for coming to Talley Middle School I greatly appreciate what you do.
Alexandra J.
Alexandra Jordan <jordiexbabiix3@aol.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Mrs.Allen,
I'm sorry for your lost. You visted my school the other day. Talley Middle School. We read your book Dope Help. I tried not too cry. It was sad to see the last picture that you have of your daughter. I wonder if every kid who is doing herion and did not want help then you came into there school and they listened to your speak if they changed their mind and now they want to get too get help,I WOULD! Its a horrible sad thing for someone to die of something like over dosing on drugs. Thank you for takig time out of your day and coming into our school to talk to us. --Kayla T.--
Kayla T. <Kayykx95@aim.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009Mrs.Allen,
I'm sorry for your lost. You visted my school the other day. Talley Middle School. We read your book Dope Help. I tried not too cry. It was sad to see the last picture that you have of your daughter. I wonder if every kid who is doing herion and did not want help then you came into there school and they listen to your speak if they changed their mind and now they want to stop,I WOULD! Its a horrible sad thing for someone to die of something like over dosing. Thank you for takig time out of your day and coming into our school to talk to us. --Kayla T.--
Kayla T. <Kayykx95@aim.com>
Claymont, DE USA - Tuesday, December 15, 2009You visited my daughters school yesterday Talley Jr. High! Erins story has had a huge impact on our lives. I am a recovering addicted clean and serene for a year and a half. There step father is also a recovering addict he has been clean 130 days. Buy the grace of God we got clean. My daughter actually texted me while you were there, She said the pictures, story and our past abuse really opened her eyes,She said mommy that could have been you or daddy in those pictures. She said i will never use drugs,I promise. I just want to thank you. You are in my prayers. I am truely sorry for your loss. Thank you once again Tara and Jay
Tara Jackson <princess_702000@yahoo.com>
claymont , de USA - Friday, December 11, 2009You came to my school Talley Middle School today and I never knew that herion could do that to you. It taught me a lot and I think it went through to a lot of people that herion is not good. It may make you feel good but there is still a chance that you could die from it. Those pictures that you and the police officer showed us really taught me a lot. Thanks for coming to my school. I will never do drugs. I don't want to turn into some people and let my family and friends watch me suffer.
Katie <furbybluelover@aim.com>
claymont, DE USA - Thursday, December 10, 2009I am so sorry that you lost you're daughter to heroin. My dad he use to be an alcholic so i guess in some way it is simular. I read the book, Dope Help. I found it very helpful because
I never really knew all of those affects heroin and many other drugs have on you. I never really took much thought as to how many people actully use heroin. I wanted to let you know that this story has changed my life! You're family and many others are in my prayers.
rachel
DE USA - Thursday, December 10, 2009RIP
AMY <Sweetlips_4life28@yahoo.com>
WA USA - Thursday, December 03, 2009AFTER OVERLOOKING AT THIS WONDERFUL SITE YOU HAVE PUT OUT THERE FOR EVERYBODY TO SEE, I REALIZED I AM NO DIFFERENT THAN ERIN. I WILL TELL YOU I FOUND THIS SITE AS A SIGN FROM GOD!! I WAS ON THE INTERNET ACTUALLY LOOKING UP STUFF ABOUT THE JUGULAR VEIN BECAUSE I AM AN ADDICT 1 1/2 YRS. IN. I HAVE NO VEINS TO DO THIS ANYMORE SO STILL I PURSUE 4 1/2 HRS. A DAY SOME TIMES 4 TIMES A DAY IT TAKES TO TRY AND GET MYSELF BETTER. THIS DRUG IS NOT ONLY THE DEVILS MAKING IT IS SOMETHING I WOULD NEVER WISH UPON MY OWN WORST ENEMY!!! I STRUGGLE EVERYDAY BECAUSE I AM UN-ABLE TO FIND MY WAY TO SOBRIETY. THE ONLY PERSON I AM EVER ABLE TO TALK TO ABOUT MY ADDICTION IS MY MOM AND MY BOYFRIEND. MY MOM PRAYS FOR ME AS I PRAY FOR MYSELF. EVERYDAY I WORRY ABOUT THE CHANCE OF OVERDOSE. SO DOES MY MOM, READING ERINS STORY HAS MADE ME REALIZE HOW MUCH I HAVE EFFECTED MY FAMILY. NOT ONLY AM I AN ADDICT, I AM 16 YRS OF AGE, ALMOST 17. ADDICTED SINCE AGE 15. RIGHT THIS SECOND I HAVE NO INTENTIONS OF GETTING SOBER. I HAVE TRIED SABOXIN, AND IT DID NOT HELP, WHEN I WAS 14 I WAS COURT ORDERED TO REHAB FOR 30 DAYS BECAUSE OF A COCAINE ADDICTION AT THE TIME, WHEN I GOT OUT I WAS CLEAN FOR 1 MONTH. WAS NOW SMOKING METH, SOON LATER I NO LONGER HAD A LIKEING FOR METH I SWITCHED DIRECTLY TO OCYCONTIN 80MG 5xS A DAY. HEROIN SOON AFTER AND HERE I AM TODAY 1 1/2 YRS LATER ADDICTED AND HAVE LOST ALL SENSCE OF LIFE. MY BOYFRIEND DOES HEROIN AS WELL HE HAS BEEN ADMITTED TWICE FOR OVERDOSE BOTH TIMES HE GOT LUCKY AND SURVIVED. TODAY I WISH I COULD TAKE BACK MY EVER TOUCHING ONE SINGLE DRUG. MY ADDICTION ACTUALLY BEGAN AT THE AGE OF 13, WITH ALCOHOL AND MARAJUANA...SOON TO BE AT BARERFAIRS POPPING EXCSTASY, MESCALLIN, EATING MUSHROOMS, ANYTHING I COULD GET MY HANDS ON. I DIDN'T TALK TO MY MOM FOR A LONG TIME NOW I KNOW HOW MUCH HURT THAT CAUSED HER. I WAS A FOSTER CHILD FOR A 8YRS. NOW LIVING WITH MY BIOLOGICAL MOTHER I HAVE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF HER ILLNESS AND STOMPED ALL OVER HER EVERY TIME SHE TRIES TO HELP! I ACKE FOR HER AS I ACKE FOR ME. I HAD A LIFE ONCE A SOBER ONE, STRAIGHT A STUDENT. WHAT HAPPENED NOW I AM A DROP-OUT HEADING IN THE SAME DIRECTION AS ERIN. I ACKE FOR YOU. I ALSO WRITE IN A JOURNAL. I HOPE THAT WILL ONEDAY BE HEARD BY OTHERS, BUT FOR NOW I CARRY-OUT AS USUAL. THIS USED TO BE SOMETHING I LIKED. NOW IT IS SOMETHING I HATE WITH A PASSION, BUT I JUST CAN'T GET AWAY.....I SOON WILL BE RESTING IN PEACE WITH YOUR DAUGHTER. XOXO
Ami R. <Sweetlips_4life28@yahoo.com>
WA USA - Thursday, December 03, 2009awww why must people take drugs i mean all it does is it makes u sick or u die i cant stand it anymore wat has this world come too~my prayers go out to erin"s family~i know wat it is like to lose someone too a drug addition i had a aunt about 2 years ago she died from overdosing on a speedball if nobody knows wat a speedball is i"ll tell u it is a mixture of crack and heroin i know it sound"s really bad well it is well anyway~my prayer"s go out too erin"s family~jess Jessica Mone <jessa12b@aol.com>
Center Moriches, NY USA - Tuesday, November 17, 2009I'm soo sorry about your daughter, Erin Allen. I understand what drugs do to your life and body. I just can't believe Erin would do that to herself at a early age. I read the book you wrote and it touched my heart. I was just wondering... when are you coming to our school, P.S Dupont Middle School so I can know what you've been through and learn more about drugs? Again, I'm sooo sorry and i will pray for you and your family!!!I just hope people would understand the side effects that will happen to them if they do herion or any type of drug.
Zipporah <luvlittleporah@comcast.net>
Wilmington, DE USA - Friday, October 30, 2009this is in memory of yet another good man who feell to herion paul reat in peace he lfet 4 kids and a wife he was 47 his odest son is also a adict we wont lose him and to james herrell rest in pice my friend your safe now
kevin b parrotte <knobleeagle2003@yahoo.com>
frederick, md USA - Thursday, October 29, 2009Mrs. Allen, this is Felicia Jones. I was a close friend of Erin's in grade school. Erin, Liz, and I were the best of friends. I just wanted to say how much courage you have for all the heartache you have been through. I am so glad to see how Erin's tragic story is being touched by all. I will never forget Erin. She was so special and I sometimes wish I could have helped her when she attended Padua with me. I just didn't realize how much trouble she was really in. I just came across some photos and Erin was in some of them. I couldn't stop crying..couldn't stop. She had so much life ahead of her. I miss her..I miss her laugh, I miss her sense of humor, I miss her hair. Man, she loved her hair. Anyway, I wanted to let you know I think about her a lot and I will share this story to my daughter when the time is right. I have a three year old daughter, Noelle. Now that I am a mother, I can not bear the thought of losing her. My heart goes out to you and your family. Love...Felicia
Felicia Jones <phishlvr03@yahoo.com>
Newark, DE USA - Wednesday, October 28, 2009S. Kiley I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Try to be strong and know that your daughter will be safe now - watching over your two teenage sons.
I cannot begin to imagine what you are going through:(
So sorry.
A.
Andy
England - Saturday, October 24, 2009God bless you Erin - your story has inspired so many, and thanks to your hadworking mom - will continue to do so.
Andy (UK).
Andy
England - Saturday, October 24, 2009Thank you for sharing your story. Our daughter Shannon died on July 13, 2009 of heart failure. However, we just received the Coroner's report which indicates that she used heroin the day she died. She has struggled with this addition and alcohol addiction for a long time but we thought she was recovering. We were so wrong and now we are so sad. Her two teenage sons live with us.
S. Kiley <Suekiley1946@yahoo.com>
Lakewood, OH USA - Monday, October 19, 2009My son is also using heroin. He has been for four years. He's in jail right now and I worried because I don't know if he will be going to prison. My heart goes out to you. I know the pain of a losing a child. My daughter died at the age of 14 4-22-04. My daughter died from sudden cardiac arrest. She had a heart condition that was never detected until it was too late. So my heart is broken, my life is forever changed. With my son is jail, I feel as though I have lost both of my babies...very, very hard. I send you peace and blessings.
Corinne,
Olivia and Manuel's mom
Corinne Ruiz <cvr@bak.rr.com>
Bakersfield, CA USA - Sunday, October 18, 2009I am so sorry. I have just found out that nmy 18 year old daughter uses heroin. My heart aches.
anna <b1anna8@aol.com>
Albuquerque, NM USA - Monday, October 12, 2009I am so sorry. I have just found out that nmy 18 year old daughter uses heroin. My heart aches.
anna
Albuquerque, USA - Monday, October 12, 2009May God hold her in his arms and keep her safe. She is not in pain anymore and loved you more than you know and never meant to do anything to hurt you and you know that more than I do. She'll be an angel in heaven waiting for you to arrive some day and I am sure she watches over you everyday and is right by your side. It's always that one last time that winds up taking them away. They go back to using the same amount they did before getting clean and their bodies cannot handle it. It is a tragedy but a strong message and an emotional one for everyone to see.
God bless you and keep you safe until you meet your baby again.
ka <>
USA - Friday, October 09, 2009I really like this story because it remind me of someone =[
Ana Hernandez <hernandez.jennifer41@yahoo.com>
wilmington, de USA - Tuesday, October 06, 2009I purchased Erin's book. Wow I am going to pass this to everyone I know. Erin tried long and hard to get clean. This drug is the devil. Erin knew that and it was so much stronger than she was. God bless you Erin RIP
a friend
Pa USA - Friday, September 25, 2009I just wanted to thank you for sharing your story to many people out there struggling with addiction or that have families struggling with addiction and I am very interested in ordering your book.
Me and Erin have a similiar story.Some people don't realise that heroin and pain killers/opiate addiction mirrors itself. I was addicted to opiates for 6 years due to a car accident. I never thought in a million years I would be an opiate addict but here I am. After 7 surgeries(my last was Aug.7,2009)I finally made myself check into rehab(Aug. 10, 2009),just days after surgery. I was so scarred of the withdrawl that I almost did not go, but my mother told me about a phychatrist that treats herion and opiate addictions. This doctor told me about a new drug that you put under your tongue that is time-released and it is called Suboxin. He told me I would be in rehab for a total of 3-4 days with very little or no withdrawls when taking this medicine. At first I did not believe him but then I decided to trust what he was telling me. Well long story short I did my 4 days in rehab(released on Aug.13,2009)with absolutely no withdrawls. When he discharged me from rehab I was given a 30 day supply of the Suboxin. It is now Sept. 16,2009 and I did not even finish the bottle of meds because I feel great and now I am clean from the opiates and I will never look back!
I just wished that this new breakthough in medicine for herion/opiate withdrawls would have came sooner for people like Erin because that is why so many people stay on herion is because of the withdrawls.Please if you know anyone that needs help let them know about the new medicine because it could save you or your loved one's life.
Nissa Evans <nissaevans@hotmail.com>
Dallas, TX USA - Wednesday, September 16, 2009this story is so where i am today . i just lost my uncle on got back on heron for 2 weeks after being clean for 9 months . and using all his life . he had a fresh start at life and let it slip away. i miss him so much and want my story out there . He told me so many storys and how the drug made him feel. and how he loved it as much as he hated it . but he could'nt live life without that little bag . I justed everyday for months to keep him away . i hurt every day . and I pray for you and your family . I really would like to write a book on his life story and get the word out there . this drug is the end . thank you nikki . god bless ....
Nikki Konewal <angeleyes97904@gmail.com>
Phila , pa USA - Sunday, September 13, 2009this story is so where i am today . i just lost my uncle on got back on heron for 2 weeks after being clean for 9 months . and using all his life . he had a fresh start at life and let it slip away. i miss him so much and want my story out there . He told me so many storys and how the drug made him feel. and how he loved it as much as he hated it . but he could'nt live life without that little bag . I justed everyday for months to keep him away . i hurt every day . and I pray for you and your family . I really would like to write a book on his life story and get the word out there . this drug is the end . thank you nikki . god bless ....
Nikki Konewal <angeleyes97904@gmail.com>
Phila , pa USA - Sunday, September 13, 2009My heart goes out to you and your family. Two of
my sons are addicts. One is in rehab and the other is on the streets. I hope and pray something will happen to change my older sons life before it's to late.
Kim Pannell <pannell.mike!yahoo.com>
Coeur d' Alene, ID USA - Wednesday, September 09, 2009mrs. Allen, I just wanted to thank you for sharing Erin's story. I am a 35 year old addict. I have been clean for a little over 4 years now-the longest I have ever been clean since 12 years old. My drug of choice was methamphetamine however my mom and dads was heroin. They have both passed on now as a direct result of their addictions. My mom was on methadone for 18 years-yes I said years. She loved her "juice" more so than heroin. I had no idea my dad was an addict until right before he died. They passed away 8 months from each other but had not been together for 32 years.I am still so angry at the stints in prison she did and the foster homes my sister and I had to go through. I am angry about everything that heroin did to our family. This is the most evil substance that is out there. My mom decided to take up smoking crack because the methadone was legal. She always had a thing for being bad and sneaky. This ruined her lungs and she died from suffocating on the water in her lungs. I had to put her in a nursing home when she turned 50. I had to start living my life. I feel guilty about this everyday. She left alot for me to deal with. I had raised my sister since her birth and raised my mother for many years after she got out of prison. I decided one day after a week of being awake on meth that I had to get out. I woke my husband,who by the way was drug free,and asked if we could move. He said of course he was waiting patiently for me to hit my bottom,I finally had. We packed up our kids up,left our great jobs,and moved from California to North Carolina. I never looked back. I wish so much I could have brought my mom and sister with me but I knew it was time for me to live my life. My sister was in jail at the time for her drug use and my mom was bouncing around hospitals.This actually was a perfect out for me. I have a pretty decent life now. I wish everyone out there had an out like I did. The only thing is that I can never go back to Cali and feel safe. To much has happened there. I did'nt go back to bury my folks I let others deal with that. I knew I would use. My 2 sisters and one of my brother and I are now clean. To bad it took our folks dying to open our eyes. I still have 3 brothers using and in major need of help but I have tried to no avail they will have to do this on there own. I really felt compelled to share a bit of my story with you since you opened up yours to us. Thank you Thank you Thank you.
Amy Chavez <bachavez99@embarqmail.com>
Benson, nc USA - Sunday, August 30, 2009Dear Mrs. Allen, I just finished reading Erin's story and I still have tears streaming down my face. I am going to school to be a drug and alcohol counselor and I was doing some research for a paper I am writing about heroin addicts and I came across your heart wrenching experience. I know that I will never be able to help everyone who I come into contact with but if I can help just one family not to go through the pain you did it will be all worth it.
Cynthia Gracie <Ravyn74@aol.com>
Alameda, CA USA - Saturday, August 29, 2009Mrs. Allen, I received the book thank you so much. I sent out the money order so please let me know that you received it. I lost your e-mail address so I had to contact you through this register thing. I had a question for you. What Pink Floyd song was the one that you played when you were showing erins pictures. The song that she said she wanted to be played at her funeral. What was it called?? if you can e-mail me the answer that would be great.
thanks
steph
stephanie mormile <mormile0712@gmail.com>
morton, pa USA - Saturday, August 29, 2009MRS ALLEN,
I WANTED TO WRITE ON HERE AND SAY THAT YOUR SUCH A STRONG AND WONDERFUL PERSON. I HAD THE PLEASURE OF HEARING YOUR PRESENTATION LAST MONTH AT BOWLING GREEN TREATMENT CENTER. I WANTED TO SAY THAT I WAS IN PROBABLY 10 TREATMENT CENTERS MY WHOLE ADDICTION WHICH HAS ONY BEEN THE PAST 4 YEARS MIND YOU. BUT THESE PAST COUPLE MONTHS HAVE BEEN HARD FOR SOME REASON, BETWEEN JUNE AND WHEN I SEEN YOU IN JULY I WAS IN 4 TREATMENT CENTERS, FOR SOME REASON I JUST COULDNT GET A DAY CLEAN ON THE STREET AND TO BE HONEST IN ONE OF THE TREATMENT CENTERS I WAS IN I COULDNT EVEN GET A DAY THERE, THE PLACE WAS INFESTED WITH DRUGS AND I FELL INTO THE SITUATION! WHAT I WANTED TO SAY WAS WHEN I SEEN YOUR PRESENTATION AND SEEN HOW MUCH PAIN YOU WERE IN FROM YOUR DAUGHTERS ADDICTION IT MADE ME REALIZE I AFFECT OTHER PEOPLE WHEN I GET HIGH. MY DAD IS MY ROCK WITHOUT HIM ID BE DEAD OR STILL SITTING IN JAIL WAITING TO GET OUT SOMEDAY AND I NEVER REALIZED THAT I AFFECTED HIM I ALWAYS THOUGHT HE WAS JUST BEING A PAIN IN MY ASS WHEN HE WOULD CALL ME ALL THE TIME, ASK WHERE I WAS AT AND ALL THAT STUFF BUT NHOW I REALIZE IT WAS BECAUSE HE WAS SO SCARED TO GET THAT PHONE CALL THAT I WASNT HERE ANYMORE. I WANTED TO SAY THAT YOU MADE ME REALIZE A LOT OF THINGS AND I REALLY ENJOYED YOUR PRESENTATION. YOU HAVE PROBABLY SAVED SO MANY LIVES AND THE DAY I SEEN IT YOU SAVED MINE JUST FOR THAT MOMENT YOU OPENED MY EYES AND I NO LONGER WANT TO LIVE THAT LIFE ANYMORE. I WANT TO SAY IVE BEEN CLEAN SINCE AND I HOPEFULLY WILL STAY THAT WAY. I DO WANNA KNOW HOW I CAN GET A COPY OF YOUR BOOK THOUGH BY ANY CHANCE IF YOU COLD E-MAIL ME THAT WOULD BE GREAT. MORMILE0712@GMAIL.COM THANKS AGAIN YOUR AN INSPIRATION..STEPHANIE MORMILE! STEPHANIE MORMILE <MORMILE0712@GMAIL.COM>
MORTON, PA USA - Saturday, August 22, 2009I have been in a methadone maintence program for 18 months. this is the longest I have been clean In 25 years.I have lost everybody I know to drug addiction. I was in st. joes hospital for 30 days because of heroin addiction. I died twice while I was there.I am sorry to read about your loss.I do not why I am writing this.I have felt guilty about the use of methadone.I never agreed with the use of it.but it was the only way Icould start getting clean. I am one of the only ones left. I guess Iam writing this for my partner that I lost 19 years ago to an o.d. too many o.d."s'I have two things I can be grateful for I married my girl friend of 18 years.also Ihave gotten baptized 2 weeks ago.and 2 greatgrandkids.god is the only way.if there is any thing I can do to help with anything just send me an e-mail.I wish i could get ahold of the familys of some of the longtime friends I have lost over the years. thank you for reading this I hope it makes somekind of sence.
david oakes <mcgheederdra@yahoo.com>
ypsilanti, mi usa - Wednesday, August 19, 2009It's so horrible and heart breaking to read Erin's story. My sister in law is going down the same road and we have no idea what to do. We have protective custody of her two little boys (8 mos. & 3 years) I hope she see the light and I plan to tell her Erin's story. Just remember, Erin is an angel now, She may had made some bad choices but she is at peace now.
Brandi R <emschick260@aol.com>
Baltimore, MD USA - Tuesday, August 18, 2009Hello Marie, i wrote on your site, back in March. My son Seth died of a heroin overdose on 3-6-09. he had turned 22 on 3-4-09. He left a sister behind also and the longer time passes, the harder it seems to get. I found him and called 911, but it was too late. Not being able to help your child, is so very hard. This addiction is very hard to understand. I tried my best to get him help, to no avail. My daughter started a Vm site and it is nice to leave messages on this site. I hope one day to also go into local schools and speak of drug addiction, so my son did not die in vain. If one person could be saved. I go to a woman's halfway house every couple of month's and tell Seth's story. thank you for listening and God bless you and your family.
Deb Warhurst <tugger7daw@live.com>
Slatington, Pa USA - Monday, August 10, 2009I just got out of a rehabilitation center on thursday after a 30 day stay, during my stay a boy was transfered there from white deer run and brought your book with him. he said you spoke and said it was the most touching and inspiring speech. he let me read the book. i couldnt believe how much i identified with it. thank you so much for sharing. i have 33 days clean and sober today and i am struggling, i am having a hard time adjusting to the real world from rehab. it does get a little eaiser everyday. and i just wanted to thank you so much for the book because i don't want to die, i want to live. I am so sorry for your loss.
Tara <tssublimere@hotmail.com>
pa USA - Sunday, August 09, 2009TO ALL ADDICTS AND FAMILIES OF ADDICTS: I am a recovering addict who has had a few years of clean time. I am leaving my email address for those who need someone to talk to, whether you are an addict or a loved one of an addict. I know that you are struggling; i know your heart is breaking; I know how lonely you feel. For years, I thought I was a lost cause. Thought i'd never get clean; thought i would die a junkie...but finally I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. The first year was incredibly tough, but BELIEVE ME, IT GETS EASIER...I promise. Please do not give up! Please e-mail me at lindsaysaxon@gmail.com if you would like to talk...about anything. I would love to share how i got clean...and stayed clean...and maybe help in the process.
Lindsay <lindsaysaxon@gmail.com>
Florence, KY USA - Friday, August 07, 2009Marie, I went to vist my daughter yesterday. It was visiting day at the rehab center. She told me about your visit and the impact Erin's life story had on her. She gave me a copy of "Dope Help". Inside was a handwritten message from you to me, encouraging me to stay strong and not give up hope.I read the book from cover to cover last night, it was like rading my daughter's autobiography! You and Erin have reached out and touched our lives. We are strong and we will never give up hope! Thank You! Kelly and Kristin
Kelly <Stantok68@yahoo.com>
Levittown, Pa. USA - Monday, August 03, 2009Let's spread the word...ADDICTION is not a crime, it is a HEALTH ISSUE! There needs to be separate laws for addicts who are arrested for possesion of drugs, they arrest more addicts than drug dealers and they need to handle the addicts differently from the drug dealers, because the dealers are the real offenders!
Dee
Brockton, MA USA - Saturday, August 01, 2009Hi Mrs. Allen,
I'm sure you probably remember me, I was Theresa's friend throughout middle and high school. I remember Erin so well and it feels like just yesterday we were all vacationing in NC. I remember her taking Theresa and I to Great Adventure and having so much fun with her wherever we would go.. It's amazing to me that you turned such a horrible tragedy into such a positive learning experience for so many other children and young adults. Please tell Theresa I said hello, I would love to hear from her! I can only imagine how hard it is for you to relive this day after day. You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. XOXO.
Melissa Snover (Stepchuck) <Melissaann0710@comcast.net>
Newark, DE USA - Wednesday, July 29, 2009Hi Marie
Well my heart is broken again and my son's little heart is crushed. For now we have no idea where his daddy is all's I know is I got a phone call saying he robbed someone's house? Do I think it's true YES I am so disappointed and heart broken for my child, I am washing my hand's for now and hope and pray he get's himself STRAIGHT. For now my son has no idea his daddy is doing the stuff he does but as he gets older he's going to realize somethings not right WHERE'S MY DADDY? I know this is not the man I once fell in love IT'S HERION.I cannot stand this drug has caused so much heart ache for myself and child. Also my son is having his tonsils removed next Friday and daddy was suppose to be there for our son,once again me by myself as always,my son will always have his mommy I believe herion has taken his daddy away and cannot get him back?
Once again broken heart mommy
Wendy <amadeus522002@aol.com>
Newark, De USA - Thursday, July 23, 2009What can I do, as a concerned citizen of this state, of this country? I have never believed our government understood how bad the war was on drugs. Now what do we do?
Faith Gustafson <faithmaria222@verizon.net>
Holden, MA USA - Monday, July 13, 2009My daughter is returning home tomorrow from LA where her boyfriend of one year overdosed on heroin. We saw a young, incredible musician, with everything to live for, destroyed by this drug. My daughter is devastated and his mother lost her only child. It's a frightening drug and my heart goes out to all affected by it.
Susan Blair <stompakov@bellsouth.net>
Hypoluxo , Fl. USA - Thursday, July 09, 2009Marie, I am so saddened by this story... I would like to add a link to my blog if ok with you? I have a 19 year old daughter who is a heroin addict - and am raising the grandson she conceived while on heroin. I hate heroin, and what it does to addicts and those who love them. Hugs ~Athena Athena <jsoeur@gmail.com>
Mesquite, Tx USA - Tuesday, June 30, 2009Hey now! just checking up on "you All" You know I have Nine years under me now, I'm doing LIFE, with someone who really CARES about me, I'm CLEAN and I Found the TRUE Spirite in me, it was, ME, MYSELF and I, thats it, thats your KEY , the question is Who I'm I, do I know myself, If you can't Love yorfself First, who can Best help you? Get to KNOW yourselfs, and If you really KNOW, CARE, and truly Love yourself How can you not, Quit, for the sake of LIFE that's what I mean, Look deep into yourself for self assureance and Love, you'll make out of that MESS you got yourself into, deal with it and come over and ENJOY Life.. Love you SELF First, befor you can HELP others. Blessing...
koyoda
USA - Monday, June 29, 2009I drive through the gates of this place now your home. I worry about you being cold and alone. On the radio I hear your favorite song. I roll down the window and I sing along. I miss your touch and your smiling face. Your in heaven now and God has taken my place. Some day we will be together again but until that time I play your song, I roll down the window and I sing along. Love you baby. Mom
Marie Allen (Erin's mom)
DE USA - Tuesday, June 23, 2009I thank god everyday that I am still here for the last 3yrs I have been a herion addict it has destroyed my life and myn childrens lives I dont understand why we lose sight of everything else but this evil drug knowing it can kill use and or leaves us with nothing I have been clean for 84 days I would not be able to do it without the help of god and the NA program. I am so... sorry about your lose! Please just dont pick up the first one it will kill you and take your soul. I hope this website can help save someones life!
Melanie <mel.stemler@yahoo.com>
Pittsburgh, pa USA - Monday, June 22, 2009Dear Ms. Allen,
Thank you so much for your story about your daughter. I am so sorry for your loss!! My prayers are with you and your family always. My family and I just found out that my nephew is addicted to heroin. He finally admitted to his dad and mother that he needs help and that he cannot kick this demon by himself. I am glad that he is asking for help. He hasn't been on it for years only about 6 months. He has tried to detox by himself but has realized that he needs professional help. I want him to read the story you have written about your daughter and I hope and pray that by him reading it hopefully it will help him to stay on the right path of rehabilitation and remember the distruction that this drug can cause. Thank you so much!!! And may god bless you and your family!!!
Tammie Wright <tammiejernigan@yahoo.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Saturday, June 20, 2009I want to thank you for sharing your story. I have a brother who is very heroin addicted. My brother who feels like my son. My dad wallked out on us when I was 8 and my mom became very numb parenting. She new how to do. She took care of us the best way she kne whoe. It the midst of it all I became a mom at the age of 8. My bnrother became a drinker at the age of 11 and his first drug experience was at the age of 13. He will be 38 tom orrow (God willing). He hjas been on heroin now for 2 years. When I look at him I barely reccognize him and it breaks my heart. I do not know what to do! I just want to shake him. I know that one day I will bury him. This scares me to death. Please pray for us! I wil pray for you.
Christina Brown <Christinamjb1@yahoo.com>
Englewood, Oh USA - Friday, June 19, 2009i found out yesterday my daughter is using herion. she was using oxycotin for awhile, now this. i found this story looking for information about this drug. my heart breaks for you. it also breaks for brittany. we all feel helpless not knowing what to do. she is facing jail time for some driving charges. we are hoping this will clean her up for a bit and we can get through to her. i hope time will heal your pain. thank you for leaving you story online.
jenni <bgjeni@aol.com>
oh USA - Friday, June 19, 2009God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
a friend
USA - Thursday, June 18, 2009I am a heroin addict who just went through methadone withdrawls of 120mg during Chapter 13, 60mph Car Accident, and moving from a 4200 sqft house to a 1,400 sq ft apartment. I was a fiend in everyway, I shot crack, I didn't care about smoking it, I just did it when I couldn't shoot coke. I did heroin for 2 years straight until my runner was busted for murder, and giving a girl out of rehab in La Hacienda a fatal overdose. This crime is terrible, but the girl pulled the trigger on herself and registered knowing the heroin cliche of getting off your regular tolerance and shooting, pun intended, higher. I didn't know the girl but my heart goes out to her. And parents you can't blame yourselves, these drugs are more powerful then you'll ever understand. Like the idea of sharing a needle for a fix because you don't care you want to get high. My final shot of heroin was one that was near fatal. I had taken some benzo's along with an empty stomach and my breathing began to shut down, and I'm an addict at its worst, I shoot up in my hands. And if you mess up, I'm sure you understand the ramifications, you lose a finger or hand. I didn't care though, just had to get high, numb this pain I was unaware of in my self destruction. But websites like these need to educate, let people know that you can live without dope. I shouldn't be alive, I was supposed to die at 25 like the rest of you all experienced. My doctor's bet the house on my imminent death. Worse than cancer, since you can REALLY control it but you can't. Like a handicapped person, I let that number stick in my head, and decided I have too much in life to offer, like all addicts do. We sink ourselves into depression in the worst manners just to numb the pain. I don't like being a junkie, but i'm not a practicing one, and it took me meeting a person sicker than I am still alive for me to realize I could live. I'm 25 now, i'll be 26 in July, like all junkies, we tend to dissapoint. Stuart "Fizziend" Garner <independentlyinsane@gmail.com>
Austin, TX USA - Sunday, June 14, 2009Sorry for the loss of your daughter. Very touching I have 2 daughters. Can't imagine the
pain you are in. God Bless you and your family
Jon B.
Pa USA - Sunday, June 07, 2009Dear Marie,
I just wanted to say THANK YOU so much for what you do to help others who have an addiction. You recently visited my daughters school (Hanby Middle School) last week. She came home and told her mom-mom and myself about the assembly that you gave to the 8th grade class. This has really hit close to home since my sister is a recovering cocaine and herion addict. She has been clean for the past 81/2 months but it's not an easy battle. Our family pulled together to keep her clean and safe these past few months and we will continue to do it as long as she needs our support. I'm sorry that Erin couldn't overcome her demons with this horrible drug. Please continue to do what you have been doing by sharing Erin's story with others. If you hadn't come to Hanby to share your story I would have never been able to say Thank you for showing children and their parents that this demon is out there...
Tracey Dubbs <raynbodaze0516@yahoo.com>
Claymont, De USA - Thursday, June 04, 2009You visited our school. Your book touched me very much. My Aunt is a recovering Cocaine,Herion addict.She has been 6months. I actually agve here the book to read.It is a day by day struggle to pull your life back together.
Last Class of Hanby 2009 <Princess_702000@yahoo.com>
Claymont, De USA - Thursday, June 04, 2009Dear Mrs.Allen, you came and saw my school the other day. At the end I actually came up to you and told you thanks. As I had told you (which you probably don't remember, which is understandable) you're a very strong woman. I just wanted to maybe make a suggestion if you had a bit of extra time on your hands. There's a website you could possibly put Erin on. It's called findagrave.com I think you should check it out. Thanks again. Ashley <ashleylowell94@ymail.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Thursday, May 28, 2009Hi Marie I'll say a prayer for you and Erin. God bless you.
I just got out of the hospital-two weeks in a coma...I really dont remember what put me there..
best wishes to you.
Kitty Valera-Mulholland
Rehoboth Beach, DE USA - Thursday, May 28, 2009Marie, thank you so much for coming to my children's school. My daughter brought "Dope Help" home for me to read. I am so sorry for your loss, and admire how you transformed your pain to touch countless lives. May God bless you richly. My children's father is an addict. I left him six years ago, after many failed ultimatums. Thank you for reminding me that addicts are more than their addiction, because I still struggle with hatred towards him. I wish I had known 8 years ago that we were not alone and to not be so ashamed. I still struggle with shame for his problem. I don't know if better family programs would have changed a thing, and I am so grateful for the life I have now, but I would like to let go of the shame and hatred.
kelly brown <redonthehed@comcast.net>
Salisbury, Md USA - Friday, May 22, 2009Dear Marie, Just wanted to let you know I did everything I could for Heidi. But she got hooked upwith a crack head, and is now facing ten charges.......Oh she is iff the heroin and methadone, one thing to another..You take care....¢¾
susie fleck <susienmike@comcast.net>
hbg, pa USA - Thursday, May 21, 2009Mrs Allen, I am so sorry for your pain. I know you do not know me. I think it is wonderful what you are doing to help educate people about the dangers of herion and drugs in general. My dagughter's father is a herion addict I knew this when I met him I thought I could change him I guess in the end I could not.I thought with the birth of my daughter it would change him it did for a while but it went back to the same thing.I had to leave him.I let him see his daughter but never alone. I hope he gets help so that he wiil be able to see his daugther grow up but in my heart I know this might not be the case.I thank you again for your wonderful work ou do. Nancy
nancy frink <nancyfrink@yahoo.com>
PAWTUCKET, RI USA - Tuesday, May 19, 2009Hello Mrs.Allen, you were at my school today. i was the boy with glasses who came up to give you that card. i hope you remember me. may i say it was a honor for you to come to our school. and may i ask for you to e-mail me the last photo of erin. thank you mrs allen it really was an honor
Tyler Hastings tyler hastings <sk8er4lyfe326@aim.com>
Salisbury, MD USA - Tuesday, May 19, 2009well, i would like to say thanks for coming to my school. i have had the same problem with heroin. when was ten i my aunt died from an overdose. i was at her house and i didnt see her for about 2 hours and she said she was just going to take a quick shower. and so i unlocked her bathroom and found her leaning over the bath tub. i said aunt libby get up and got no response. then i look down on my feet and saw the needle. i had no idea what it meant. i am now 13 and still remember that day like it was yesterday. i grabbed the needle and called 911. i still have the needle to this day locked up in a clear case that i cant get open and whenever i go to my closet and see that there it reminds me of what heroin can do to you. i hate the feeling i had that day. and i hope i never have to feel it again. whenever i lay down to go to sleep i see my aunt libby hanging over the bath tub. she was my idle. i will never forget her. and i was so glad you came to my school to explain to the students what heroin can do to you. thank you so mucnh. and i realize what you went through was much worse. but we both lost someone we loved dearly. and they will always be with us. i love her. and will pray for you. :) thank you.
shelby <sissyc3@verizon.net>
salisbury, MD USA - Monday, May 18, 2009thanks for coming to are school and sharing your story it must have taken so much courage to get up there and talk about someone so close to you. I know someone who is very close to me who does drugs and i have seen him change, not as bad as Erin but i see difference.
a friend <sm95521@gmail.com>
USA - Monday, May 18, 2009Hi Marie
Just wanted to give you a update on things. My son's daddy is doing really good living in a half way house in Philly. This past weekend I took Lil Jimmy to see his daddy they spend the all day together, they had so much fun playing baseball, going to the carnival was really nice seeing them together. When it was time to take him back to the half way house Lil Jimmy was so upset crying. I think that got to his daddy for the first time seeing his son crying for him. They hugged each other good bye both crying was very difficult for all of us but he is clean going to meeting's and being a daddy.So for now he has been clean 3 months.Lil Jimmy asked his daddy Why are you always in the hospital? That really caught both of us off guard I let him reply and he said no more hospitals for daddy I am feeling better. He also said to me he wants to be there for Lil Jimmmy he's getting older and needs his daddy. I am so proud of him and hope and pray he stays clean our son needs his daddy to. I am so grateful for Erins website she has helped so many people and so have you. Thanks
Wendy <amadeus522002@aol.com>
Newark, De USA - Monday, May 18, 2009just wanted to say that im sorry for your lost, and few years back you came to my school and told us about your daughter and her addiction to drugs. and because of you, i always said no.I just lost my cousin few weeks ago to drugs. This iz so sad and i wish there could be an end to drugs. My heart goes out to you, And may God bless you and your soul. So how iz your other daughter doing? Well i hope you continue you work and pass the message along it works are there are people listening.. I did... Thanks for you strong support to spread the news about this. Your a wonderful person..
Amanda <seetizcute@yahho.com>
new castle, de USA - Friday, May 15, 2009Mrs Allen, thank you
a friend
MD USA - Thursday, May 14, 2009this may be Danielle's email address -
dkiser742@Yahoo.com
anon <anoxd987678655@dodgeit.com>
london, USA - Thursday, May 07, 2009I have been clean and sober for 21 months now after a 10 year battle with heroin. I am only 26 years old. I have 3 children. I just finished reading your book about Erin and I just wanted to say that I am extremely sorry for your loss. I hope Erin is dancing with the angels, and I know her demons are no longer haunting her. I have done all sorts of horrible things, including stealing from my family, lying to everyone and the worst of all is I gave birth to a drug-addicted child. My children are happy and healthy today, and that is all because I am happy and healthy. I thank God everyday for another chance and for AA. I hope you find peace in the fact that Erin can no longer be harmed.
Liz <mccarthy52198@yahoo.com>
USA - Thursday, May 07, 2009her story touched my heart. my new boyfriend is on that drug and i dont know if i can make it work. i'm a very hard working person and i'm scared that this drug will destroy what we have. do you have any suggestions. should i just end it and save myself the heart ache.
taylor <princessasst@yahoo.com>
phila, pa USA - Sunday, May 03, 2009Danielle, I can't seem to get your email address to work. hope you read this message. thanks Marie
Marie Allen <mallen@nccde.org>
USA - Sunday, May 03, 2009My dear sweet baby girl began using heroin within the past two months. She is 19 now, and every day I am consumed with trying to figure out a way to get her help. She is still lying about it. It sucks, and I am SO, so sorry for your loss. God Bless, and thank you for sharing your story.
MARY MASON <cherrymaryuzbuz@yahoo.com>
Boulder City, NV USA - Saturday, May 02, 2009Mrs Allen, I contacted you once befor about erins journals and didnt have the heart to tell you that i couldnt find them so i avoided you. i have found one of the 2 that i had and if you will tell me what to do with it i will be happy to.
Danielle M <dkiser742Yahoo.com>
wilmington, de USA - Friday, May 01, 2009i am so sorry for your loss erin would b so proud of you warning others
c mills <simbatopcat@gmail.com>
wilmington, de USA - Friday, April 24, 2009I'm a recovering addit and have 4 young children, people think of herion addits as people who can't look after themselves never mind children. My children are a picture of health and love me very much as i do them, i'm not saying it had no affect on them cause it probley did. As an recovring addit i feel for people who can't get away from this evil drug. My thoughts are with the families who have lost the people close to them through this devostating drug.
Adele <adele_wlknsn@yahoo.com>
Hartlepool, England - Thursday, April 23, 2009Your story is heartbreaking, and one I am scared will soon be my own. It is my dad, not my daughter, but the pain is the same. May God be with you.
Malina <mlolonia@hotmail.com>
Albuquerque, NM USA - Monday, April 20, 2009I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my son 11-30-07 to a drug overdose too. Heroin, or whatever he could get. Fentanyl was what he overdosed on. I agree with Erin. Drugs are the Devil. Seduces you as an angel of light and steals your life little by little. A wise young woman. Evil stole my baby, and the evil was drugs. No one can imagine the horror of watching your child slowly die over time, knowing where it will end. Still you are never prepared when that phone call comes. I am so sorry that you, as her adoring parents, were treated with such cold disrespect. She was a human being created and loved by God. She was more than her addiction. She was and will always be precious in God's sight as well as yours. He sees the brokeness deep inside that she tried to numb, and His tears mingle with yours. May her soul rest peacefully in her Father's embrace. May your hearts as her parents be soothed with the knowledge that God's love covers over our every mistake. God bless you and in the years to come may you find joy once again. Love and Blessings to you....Scottsmom
Scott's mom
Slidell, LA USA - Tuesday, April 07, 2009This past weekend (March 27-28), a national dialogue took place in Rockville, MD. The
meeting included 65 members of families of youth impacted by the disease of addiction
from 34 states and tribes across the United States, along with representatives from
Georgetown University, and the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services
Administration (SAMHSA).
Family members identified several challenge areas in treatment and recovery for youth
with substance use disorders. The top two challenges are 1) a lack of education and
information support for family members and 2) a lack of access to substance abuse
treatment for youth and their families. Other challenges include 3) a lack of integrated
treatment for youth with both substance abuse and mental health disorders, 4) the stigma
and misunderstanding of the disease of substance abuse and addiction, and 5) the quality
of treatment for youth with the disease.
Work was begun at the conference to build a national clearinghouse to contain a
centralized repository of information for families and others who need this information.
Also, web accessible training will occur on topics such as financial strategies for
providing treatment, recovery services, and education on addiction issues.
Family representatives from the states and tribes developed a plan to immediately begin
working on the major issues in their state/tribe, to meet with state/tribe substance abuse
agency heads and other parent organizations, and to make affirmative changes in the
challenge areas not only in their state/tribe, but also in the nation. Attendees will
continue to work as a group, and will be joined by others to fight this disease. Sharon
Smith, one of the conference organizers, said, “We are building a national voice for
positive change in youth substance abuse treatment and recovery.”
Marie Allen
DE USA - Tuesday, April 07, 2009
