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You just came to my school today, and I would just like to tell you that I am so sorry. I read you and your daughters book, and I coulndt help but check out the website. That last picture of Erin, the one you saw on the computer screen, was pretty graphic, and to me it was very awkward that you werent allowed to say your goodbyes to Erin, but I would like to let you know that both you and Erin are in my prayers
e-mail me back please
Samantha Wilson <slingshotsa@aol.com>
claymont, de USA - Thursday, May 08, 2008hey mrs allen im really scared for my brother when he first told me he does drugs i started crying and now everyday i cry cause im scared that i might loose him. my friend used to ask me why i would always run out to the front door to give my brother a hug everyday he walks through the door its because i thank god that hes still he idk why he does it but it makes me worried and after his dad past away when he was lil hes different and i wish he didnt have anything to do with drugs and i want him to stop but idk what to do to make him stop.What should i do?..
alyssa
wilmington, de USA - Thursday, May 08, 2008Hi. I know this is a bad way to ask this but I couldnt find the contact info for the person who runs this page, but is this about Erin Allen? Its possible that I know her but I wanted to make sure. I used to attend Christian Life Assembly in Stroudsburg, PA and my friend Jesse and I used to hang out with Erin and her friend Lindsay. We used to go to Youth Conventions and Camps and stuff. If I wrong, Im sorry but I want to make sure. If the person who runs this site could email me, that would be great. Thank you.
Dave
Dave <davedzambo@yahoo.com>
Stroudsburg, PA USA - Wednesday, May 07, 2008I am sorry for your loss. my daughter is a junkie. She has three kids. I had to take the first two away from her. She was pregnant with the third when I got her back on methadone. She says she is clean so far, except for the methadone. So far, the baby (1 year old) appears to be doing well. I don't trust my daughter anymore, and I am not sure I love her anymore either. Heroin steals so much from families. Too bad they don't have lots and lots of programs out there for the families of junkies, who in reality, are the REAL victims of heroin.
Dawn McCoy <fractalmom1@yahoo.com>
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koyoda <koyoda2000@yahoo.com>
USA - Saturday, May 03, 2008I've been on this site before and used to practically live on it. How inspiring it is to have Erin's mom go from place to place to educate kids on this terrible, demon drug. Let me tell you where this drug has put my son. He is in prison now and has 3-6yrs to go. Yesterday I receive a call that one of our friends has overdosed from this satanic evil drug. Stay away from it and never even think of using it. It will destroy your life and the people who love you. I thank God that my son is alive and came to Jesus several months back before going to prison. Now I have to tell him that Tony died. I can't believe it. I just got the call for the memorial service. He was such a funny guy too. So Sad.
Tony, you are now in peace and with God and you're suffering is over. We love you. xoxo
Judy <ajudy89@yahoo.com>
waldorf, md USA - Wednesday, April 30, 2008OMG! i can't believe you can go around the world sharing your story! i would never be able to tell that story to anyone! My best friends name is Erin and when you started talking she was crying and when the picture of the grave with Erin on it she lost it! but thanks for telling us!
a White Girl<3
new castle , DE USA - Wednesday, April 30, 2008 a long time ago ( in 2002) a man wrote to you and while searching around to find him i found what he wrote and i just wanted to repost it and give you a follow up on how this story has gone..after all this is why i an looking for him. HE wrote... AFTER READING THE STORIES OF SO MANY PEOPLE, I WANTED TO TELL EVERYONE MY LIFE STORY. HERE IT GOES, I AM 24 YEARS OLD, AND SINCE THE DAY I CAN REMEMBER, MY FATHER HAS BEEN A HERION ADDICT. IT ALL STARTED WELL OVER 40 YEARS AGO, AND NOW HE'S 56. MY FATHER TAUGHT ME AT A VERY YOUNG AGE HOW TO ROB, CHEAT, AND STEAL, FROM PEOPLES HOUSES, STORES, YOU NAME IT, HE GOT HIS HANDS ON IT. NOW MY MOTHER IS THE TOTAL OPISITTE, CATHOLIC, STOPS AT ALL STOP SIGNS, DOESN'T SWEAR, KNOW WHAT I;M GETTING AT? NOTHING ALIKE! ANYWAY, MY FATHER HAS SPENT MANY YEARS IN PRISON FOR HIS HERION ADDICTION, NOT THAT PRISON HELPED, BECAUSE HE HAD NO PROBLEM GETTING IT IN THERE EITHER, OVERDOSED TWICE. WHEN HE GOT OUT IN 1991, IT TURNED INTO THE SAME THING, BIGGER ADDICTION, ABOUT 50 BAGS A DAY OR $500.00. USUALLY HE HAD SOMEONE THERE WHO WAS STUPID, NEEDING A COMPANION, THERE TO GIVE HIM MONEY, UNTIL IT WAS GONE. THEN HE WENT OUT STEALING AGAIN, THOUGH THIS TIME, THE LADY HE WAS ACCOMPANYING HIM GOT ARRESTED TOO, SHE SPENT 3 YEARS IN NIANTIC FEMALE PRISON, GOT OUT AND DIED 6 MONTHS LATER. HE HAD NO PROBLEM WITH STEALING. FROM THE TIME I CAN REMEMBER, I WAS ABOUT 5 YEARS OLD, AND ASKED MY DAD WHAT HE WAS PUTTING INTO HIS ARM, HE SAID IT WAS MEDICINE, AT FIVE I BELIEVED HIM. 2 WEEKS LATER, THERE WHERE POLICEMEN IN MY HOUSE ARRESTING HIM IN 1983. I CONTINUED TO SEE MY FATHER BEHIND BARS WITH MY MOM, UNTIL HE GOT OUT IN 1991, THEN BACK INTO THE SAME ROUTINE, GOT ARRESTED AGAIN. AT THAT TIME MY MOM FILED FOR DIVORCE, AFTER BEING MARRIED FOR 25 YEARS, HE ALSO SPENT 1973-1981 IN PRISON. WELL DURING THAT TIME MY SISTER DISOWNED HIM, WANTING NOTHING TO DO WITH THE SITUATION. SO HE LOST HIS WIFE AND KIDS, HE HAD NOONE, THIS IS WHAT THIS DRUG DOES, IT JUST TAKES YOU INTO ITS LITTLE WORLD, THAT YOU CANT GET OUT OF UNLESS YOUR STRONG ENOUGH, OR HAVE TRUST IN GOD. WELL ANYWAYS, HE GOT OUT OF PRISON IN MAY OF 2001, AND THE SAME DAY OR DAYS AFTER GOT HIS HANDS ON SOME HERION, BUT THIS STUFF WAS BAD, IT MADE HIM SO SICK, THAT HE ENDED UP IN THE HOSPITOL. ALL OF HIS INTERNAL ORGANS SHUT DOWN, HE HAD COLITIS IN HIS BLOODSTREAM, AND WAS IN A CHOMA FOR 2 WEEKS. WELL THE HOSPITOL MADE HIM BETTER, THANK GOD FOR UMASS MEMORIAL HOSPITAL IN WOOSTER, MASS, HE ENDED UP WALKING OUT ALIVE. YOU WOULD THINK AFTER ALMOST DYING FROM THE DRUG, YOU WOULD STOP USING AND THANK GOD THAT YOUR STILL ALIVE. GOD IS KICKING HIMSELF NOW, BECAUSE THE SAME OLD THING AGAIN. THE ONLY DIFFERENCE IS I DONT KNOW WHAT HES DOING TO GET THE MONEY FOR HIS HABIT, ALL I KNOW HE NOT IN JAIL. TO ME MY FATHER IS A GREAT ROLE MODEL FOR ME, BECAUSE IT TAUGHT ME WHAT I SHOULD DO VERSUS SHOULDNT. I ALSO OWE ALOT OF CREDIT TO MY MOTHER WHO GUIDED ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. FOR ME I STILL FEEL THAT THERE HOPE FOR HIM, ALTHOUGH NOONE ELSE DOES,IM PRAYING FOR HIM THAT LIFE IS GOOD TO HIM, AND THAT HE'S GOOD TO LIFE, FOR WHATS LEFT OF IT, THERE ARE ALOT OF MEDICAL PROBLEMS FOR HIM, THAT HES TRYING TO FIGHT. GOD BLESS YOU, I LOVE YOU!
MICHAEL SENO
BRIDGEPORT, CT USA - Wednesday, September 04, 2002 at 00:30:05 (EDT)
Well when his father almost died i was there. My mother was married to his father at the time and and was with him for a few years after the overdose. they shortly moved to cali where he continued living life like he always had. right befor my mother left him he got into some law troubles due to drugs and theft and fled with her to mexico where she left him. years have gone by but on the 16th (i believe) he was found dead in a hotel room. surrounded by drugs and needles.
I have such a hard time with this whole story because of all the chances he had to change and never did, and now its to late.
kathy <kitty813kat@yahoo.com>
Blair, NE USA - Friday, April 25, 2008I knew Erin when she was probably about 15 or so till her death, she was a good friend and a troubled soul, When she would call me saying she would want to kick, I'd go run off to try to save her, couple days here and a couple there, I was just cleaning up myself but I did what I could.. I had gotten clean when she passed and a little piece of me died when I heard, we had a different relationship, I didn't use her and she not me. I never had a sister but I think that what it would have felt like... My ride didnt end there I had ups and downs but my latest UP has lasted almost 9 years now and I still think of her often...
matthew <dont@want.to.say.org>
newark, de USA - Tuesday, April 22, 2008After reading your journel I was touched by your honesty and courage and I know someone who is doing Heroin and Me and a friend tried to get him off it and he didn't want to know. The difference is you are a hero and he is not. You will be sadly missed by your friends and family and our hearts go out to them.
David <David021166@yahoo.com>
Ashford, Kent United Kingdom - Friday, April 18, 2008I often come here. It keeps me focussed.
I lost 2 friends (one very close) to heoin back in 1998 (both within a month of each other). I can never forgive heroin. I despise dealers and emplore you, if you are messing with this stuff - go seek help (and read Maria's book). You are playing rusian roulette with your life, and also with your families love.
God bless Erin. Her story has helped so many.
Andy.
Andrew <amagicmouse@hotmail.com>
London, USA - Thursday, April 17, 2008(OMG!)THat inspired me i will never ever do drugs
thats sad i wouldnt want nothing like that to happen to me im glad u told that story some ppl out there prbly needed it some ppl jus dnt understand itz either herion or YOUR LIFE and they rather pick herion....
THANKYOU
Nay <puertoricoangl7@aol.com>
New Castle, De USA - Tuesday, April 15, 2008oh my godd .! youu are myy heroo :) youu aree so bravee ! i dontt know how youu can get up there andd talkk to peoplee about this , i can only imagine . ii seen you twicee , andd i criedd bothh timess ! ii lovee youu , writee bakk <3
saria biermann <xowhitegirl07xo@Aim.com>
new castle, DE USA - Tuesday, April 15, 2008Hi thanx for the story! It really helped me. I am a heroin addict of onlya year and a half but it seems like its been forever. Ive tried kickin it so many times and it just keeps comin back. it seems like no one knows how it is. I hate that i cant do this. Im so sorry about your daughter. I hope i dont end up that bad.
Felicia <ferlisha_22@msn.com>
Kinsman, Il USA - Sunday, April 13, 2008So..Ive been looking for answers and Ive found them. I am absolutely devestated with my findings...O.K. here's the story.. I met Chad in 2003 in New Jersey, I was engaged 2 a wonderful man and then I kept seeing Chad at the T.G.I.Fridays in Evesham,N.J. There was something about him I couldnt keep my eyes or my thoughts off of him. We talked and and talked more..The more we talked the more I thought he was the one. Inevitably I left my fiance for Chad. I couldnt have been happier! He came from a great family and I thought "this is it, Im in love!" and then things started happening I didnt know what 2 think of..We moved into our new apartment 2gether..everything bought and furnished by him! I was so excited that a beautiful man like he would give me everything! I noticed that he would be passed out when I got home from work, I thought this was because of a long day at work but I soon realized that was not the case. I found a baggie full of white pills in my sock drawer and I had asked him what they were. He said they were oxycontin and to take one and "chew it" so of course I did and after waking up in the morning I never did that again..Soon after that he was taking me to New Hope in New Jersey on his fathers motorcycle for a suprise..That suprise was me waking up two weeks later at Helene Fuld Trauma Center in Trenton, New Jersey. I didnt remember anything. I was taken 2 Moss Rehabilitation Center in Philly, P.A. for cognitive therepy because I had a brain injury because of the accident. I lived through it all..Having 2 get dental implants because of the front teeth in mouth had been knocked out because of the accident amoung others things I had to endure in my recovery..I always had stayed and NEVER blamed Chad and stayed by his side. After awhile he took a turn for the worse...The last time I had seen Chad was when I tried 2 put him in a 1/2way Recovery House in Trenton, N.J....I had gotten a call from him a few hours later and he asked me 2 come get him 2 pick him up because he got kicked out..I later found it was because he had owed a known drug dealer money..He was only there for 4 hrs.! At that point I never saw him again. I learned that I was enabling him. I didnt know what that had meant. The only thing that I was going through me was that I cant leave him with no one who cares. I moved away to get away from it all. I couldnt handle the fact that he loved doing drugs more than the last person who cared for him. I later found out from a friend that he had died. At the time I was pregnant. I was told with the extent from the enternal damage that I wouldnt be able 2 conceieve. They were wrong. I gave birth on July 6..the same day of the accident! Ive been to busy to come to terms with the accident. I ended up emailing a girl who like Chad, was a drug addict. I had asked what had happened and she told me...I found out that he had regret..He thought that he had ruined my life..He told her I was a beautiful person and he thought that he had ruined my life. He ended up dying from what Im told from a heroin overdose. He was shooting heroin because he thought he ruined my life. Oh my god! I never blamed him for it. Im now absolutely devestated that he died. I sit here and think that he was alone and its so painful that I sit here and grieve almost 5 yrs. later and I never blamed him. How am I suppose 2 deal with these feelings?
sasha myers <sashaluv27@hotmail.com>
myrtle beach, s.c. USA - Saturday, April 12, 2008God bless you Erin.
Andrew Marshall-Muff <amagicmouse@hotmail.com>
London, England - Monday, April 07, 2008So sorry to hear of Erin's battle with this addiction. I also am trying to defeat this "beautiful monster". I am 36 years old, and have been using for about 7 years. I am currently in treatment(again), and I'm hoping to get on a methadone maintenance program. I am also struggling to commit to anything or anyone but the devil. Erin's story touched me deeply. I wish we could have helped each other through this nightmare! Thanks for sharing...
Terrence Fair <Teedogg72@aol.com>
Rochester, NY USA - Friday, April 04, 2008HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIN. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. MOM
Mom
DE USA - Thursday, April 03, 2008Dear Marie, I just found your page when trying to find some help for my daughter.She is 22 and has been dealing with addiction about 3 yrs now. She has been in and out of treatments 3 times but she can not find the strength to make it stick. She's in jail right now for stealing a $65 check from one of her friend's step dad to pay for some drugs. We are happy she is in jail she can not use there and for a little while longer she is alive. I am sorry for your loss. May God bless.
Kathy <KYax08@hotmail.com>
USA - Sunday, March 30, 2008Dear Marie, you and your family are always in my prayers. I've posted here many times. My 23 year old son has been battling heroin addiction for 6 years. He has overdosed 4 times and died once, but thankfully they were able to bring him back. Last fall he spent 30 days in a very good rehab, and stayed clean for 5 months. This has become a pattern with him. He has stopped on his own 3 other times and is only able to stay clean for 4 or 5 months. He tries so hard, but always loses the battle. Last week he started using again. He is smart, good looking, has a great job and a wonderful girlfriend, but heroin is stronger than any of these things, and his addiction is a disease with no cure. So once again, we are right back in the nightmare of heroin hell. We know that one of these days we will get that phone call telling us he is dead from a heroin overdose. We live in constant fear of it, as I know that many other families here do too. Heroin destroys everything and has forever changed our lives. Several of my friends are in the same boat I am, and the heart wrenching truth is that there is nothing we can do to save them. Only they can save themselves. Heroin addiction has become an epidemic in the US that affects people in all walks of life. It is a sad world we are living in. I no longer have any hope for the future.
Mom of an addict
USA - Saturday, March 29, 2008so sorry about your dauhter. it seems like we all all in the same boat. i have two dauhters on drugs. i had a brother die a year ago from a overdose.i have 4 brothers and one sister strung out on drugs. i thank god every day that i do not use drugs. it is so hard on me to set back and watch my family kill them selfs. i have tryed every thing to help them but it does not work.i am from elkton md and things up there are getting awful. i moved away 33 years ago. but my family is still there. i just don't know what to do anymore they are killing me to. this is so sad for us and them to have to go through. drugs are the devil and we can't win with him. god bless everyone and you are all in my prayers.
barbara <bndean@frontiernet.net>
hillsboro, wv USA - Friday, March 28, 2008I just wanted to say happy bday to my big bro that we lost 4yrs ago Matthew j lester!! I just got his name tat'd on my hand RIP Matty Matt!! MJL we love u.. lori call me please so I can c my baby gurl Sam. Mary Lester
mary lester <marylester1@yahoo.com>
sagamore hills, oh USA - Thursday, March 27, 2008We love you forever Matthew Lester big brother You would be 29 today. We are so sorry we failed you. We will see you again. I cant wait for the day.
kathy lester <pastelvasco@yahoo.com.sg>
Bettendorf, Iowa USA - Wednesday, March 26, 2008Your daughter's story touches my heart and soul. My brother died from a heroin OD 9 years and 2 days ago. To this day I think of him daily. The effects of the drug and histry it had on him was not something I was aware of. You see apparently he had hid this from me for years, and was clean for years.. My parents also protected this from me..it was their secret, until I received the phone call ...He was in the hosital.... I that day found out everything...worst of all I had to call my parents to tell them he OD and is in a coma... to this day they deny ever knowing....but his friends told me, my parents put him through rehab, several years prior to this... all in all... the sadness, the loss, the inability for a future continues to cause me grief and lack of understanding....research, my nursing degree and my knowledge still to not answer my questions, and never will... I am terribly sorry for your loss, and the loss of everyones effected by drugs and alcohol..
alison <aliekeenan@msn.com>
wa USA - Monday, March 24, 2008Your daughter's story touches my heart and soul. My brother died from a heroin OD 9 years and 2 days ago. To this day I think of him daily. The effects of the drug and histry it had on him was not something I was aware of. You see apparently he had hid this from me for years, and was clean for years.. My parents also protected this from me..it was their secret, until I received the phone call ...He was in the hosital.... I that day found out everything...worst of all I had to call my parents to tell them he OD and is in a coma... to this day they deny ever knowing....but his friends told me, my parents put him through rehab, several years prior to this... all in all... the sadness, the loss, the inability for a future continues to cause me grief and lack of understanding....research, my nursing degree and my knowledge still to not answer my questions, and never will... I am terribly sorry for your loss, and the loss of everyones effected my drugs and alcohol..
alison <aliekeenan@msn.com>
wa USA - Monday, March 24, 2008Her story is truly touching and I hope it helps others out of there addiction.
Koren Knott <Doraexplorer426@aol.com>
Newark, De USA - Wednesday, March 19, 2008GOD BLESS YOU & YOUR FAMILY... THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR STORY. MY SISTER DIED A FEW WEEKS AGO AFTER YEARS OF DRUG ABUSE... SHE LEFT BEHIND 3 BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS. I ALSO LOST MY DAD WHEN I WAS 15, I TRYED TO COMMIT SUISIDE & RECIEVED IN PATIENT WHERE I LEARNED TO ASK FOR HELP & JUST SAY NO! AFTER GROWING UP WITHIN A FAMILY OF HERION ADDICTS, I FOUND MYSELF ADDICTED TO PAIN KILLERS AT 30 YRS OLD AFTER A INJURY DELIVERING MY SON. I'VE CHOSEN METHODONE AS A PAIN KILLER THAT HAS FREED ME FROM THE ADDICTION OF THE PILLS. I USE TO THINK METHADONE WAS A DRUG UNTILL I REALIZED IT ONLY SEEMS LIKE THAT WHEN PEOPLE ABUSE IT. THE METHODONE HAS HELPED KEEP ME CLEAN & SOBER & I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO REBUILD MY LIFE. I HAVE ALSO WORKED A SERIOUS RECOVERY PROGRAM OF SUPPORT GROUPS, MENTAL HEALTH TREATMENT AND GOT INVOLVED. MY SISTER GOT OF DOPE A COUPLE YEARS AGO BUT NEVER GAVE HER SELF A CHANCE AT RECOVERY. YOU CAN MAKE IT BACK FROM A CRAVING BUT YOU CANT ALWAYS MAKE IT BACK FROM A RELAPSE. BUILD A SUPPORT TEAM IF YOUR IN TROUBLE. IT TOOK ME 33 YR TO LEARN PEOPLE DO RECOVER... I PRAY YOUR DAUGHTERS WILL ENCOURAGE OTHERS TO STRIVE FOR RECOVERY. CHRISTINA FERRELL <NETSTEPSADVOCACY@LIVE.COM>
PHILADELPHIA, PA USA - Wednesday, March 19, 2008it broke my heart to read your story. it really hits home because my little sister has been going through a similar thing, only with drinking & coke. she's clean now, but i've seen her slip up too many times already, and it leaves us with our hearts in our throats. you lost a beautiful sister, daughter, friend...there are no words or actions that can ever make up for that. but take comfort in knowing that she is at peace now, she isn't struggling or hurting anymore. she flies with the angels because she has become one herself and the devil can never touch her again. my heartfelt love and prayers go out to everyone whose life she has touched. ~sam
sam toffy <hotkittens3@yahoo.com>
macungie, pa USA - Tuesday, March 18, 2008I 2 was a heroin user I was introduce by my friends........this drug at first I was scare 2 shoot up...... but my friends told me nothig was going 2 happen.....and that I was going 2 be so high and that I wouldent remeber a thing they said it was coool somthing beter than all the other drugs ........so I did it it blwe me away I was so high that I forgot about everything and every one after that I keppt using and using I smoke some and keept shoting up....... I was the only one that stop using heroin all my homez still use not one whants 2 stop and if they trye they fall and use agin its sad 2 see ur friend on heroin ......now I hate heroin everything adout that drug.......don't u start because ones u use et u cant stop u can't controlet it controls u ........ its beter 2 be ur self
israel <israelddi@t-mobile.com>
sun city, ca USA - Monday, March 17, 2008I commend what you are doing here and wish there were more people like you putting their selves out there to help the young people make the right decisions. Thank you! Fire Damage Guy <leoleo@gmail.com>
manhattan, ny USA - Saturday, March 15, 2008Mrs. Allen,
About a year ago you came to George Read middle school and did your presentation and I would like to say I'm sorry that you had to go through that. Today in my health class we finished reading "Dope Help". It was a great book even though it had a tragic ending, I would like to say thank you for writing that book and doing your presentation because it showed every kid in my school what heroin does to you. My friend died of an overdose a couple months ago and it sucks. Reading your book was very emotional but educational at the same time. Once again thank you and god bless you,
Gabrielle
Gabrielle <G StUNnAhx@aim.com>
New Castle, De USA - Wednesday, March 12, 2008My daughter is 21 and has been using for 5 years, she has come close too death, via overdose, car accidents...after the last accident she decided she was ready for treatment, no beds available. I was given Janet Ritchies and Doe ? numbers and they helped me get her into A.F. Whitsett. I almost lost her the morning of her intake. Yesterday was her first day off of detox and will be going to a halfway house.
My heartfelt condolances to you, for your strength to speak out and write the book. I now understand why my daughter reacts the way she does in the E.R, Thank You for sharing such personal parts of your life with the world.
Dawn
Dawn Hall <ditto21956@hotmail.com>
North East, Md. USA - Monday, March 10, 2008i read the book that you wrote about your daughter and its a really good leason to anyone out there "to never try heroin its not good for you. but i wanted to say from the pictures in the book your daughter was a really beautiful girl and god bless you and i am sorry about her death.
kelsey <scrapsdirl1216@aol.com>
wilm, del USA - Monday, March 10, 2008Two weeks after telling me he'd never try heroin, a good old friend of mine died from it, on the night of his birthday. Heroin is awful. I'm sorry about Erin.
Jeremy
USA - Sunday, March 09, 2008Marie, I wanted to thank you for your recent visit to The Independence School. Your presentation has stuck with me, and I'm sure it left a big impression on everyone who was there. (I hope you're still doing it when my 3rd grader gets to 8th grade). I regret that it was the loss of your beautiful daughter that led you into this field, but I appreciate your willingness to share -- so candidly -- such a wrenching experience. Your messages that: 1) it starts with alcohol; and 2) parents have the right/responsibility to monitor their kids, were particularly important messages for junior high kids to hear. Thank you very much.
Carolee Kunz <HunAcrWood@comcast.net>
USA - Friday, March 07, 2008Hello,
You came to Kirk Middle and had presented your lovely story bout your daughter. I am sorry to hear about your loving daughter Erin. But I'm concerned about my best friend because she is on herion. What should I do?
Ashley Davis <Godsbaby317@man.com >
Newark, DE. USA - Saturday, March 01, 2008I hate that my friend did herion i tryed to stop her but she died.
Jenny
USA - Saturday, March 01, 2008Herion is very bad i did it and I hated my life so i just want to say god bless you
Bob
USA - Saturday, March 01, 2008Herion is very bad and I am so sorry about your daughter. Best of luck
David <dsharkey14@verizon.net>
USA - Saturday, March 01, 2008Dear Mrs. Allen,
I am an 8th grader at hanby middle school and i had just finished reading " Dope Help" in my health class. You came to my school today and your presitation was outstanding and i bet it changed many students minds about drugs and most importantly HERION!!! I was almost crying while you were showing it. I have never been or seen anyone that did herion exept for today. Some of the photos in your slide show really showed me what will happen really quickly to our bodys which will make me not even get near herion. I hope that students that also watched this really understood what you were trying to get out of this. I am so very sorry about Erin. Let her rest in peace. And a very BIG thank you to you for showing everyone what bad things can happen. Amber
Amber Sharkey <soccer_girl_24@verizon.net>
Wilmingtion, del USA - Friday, February 29, 2008hi all what in the name of all that is good is going on in the world the modern named devil has a new name and that is heroin,we as a recovering family of addicts must do something ,it is up to everyone to help the relevant authorities to arrest these people as they are dealing in death we should band together one nation one land etc,lets take no more of this its time to fight back xxx
m
USA - Thursday, February 28, 2008hi all what in the name of all that is good is going on in the world the modern named devil has a new name and that is heroin,we as a recovering family of addicts must do something ,it is up to everyone to help the relevant authorities to arrest these people as they are dealing in death we should band together one nation one land etc,lets take no more of this its time to fight back xxx
m
USA - Thursday, February 28, 2008I have learned so much from this book, you came to my school today. im an 8th grader at hanby middle school, when i first went into that assembly i didnt think it would effect me as much as it did but it did i started to cry. that was so upseting and i have known people that have done heroin and i wish they never would have there live would probally be so much different know but its not. i know for a fact i would never do heroin in my life i could never get addicted that would just scare me to much and would hurt my family horribly. so i thank you so much erins mother for everything you have done. you never made me actually look at what heroin did to me till today.
Fallon Gilbert <gilbertxox@aim.com>
wilimington, de USA - Thursday, February 28, 2008I have learned so much from this book, you came to my school today. im an 8th grader at hanby middle school, when i first went into that assembly i didnt think it would effect me as much as it did but it did i started to cry. that was so upseting and i have known people that have done heroin and i wish they never would have there live would probally be so much different know but its not. i know for a fact i would never do heroin in my life i could never get addicted that would just scare me to much and would hurt my family horribly. so i thank you so much erins mother for everything you have done. you never made me actually look at what heroin did to me till today.
Fallon Gilbert <gilbertxox@aim.com>
wilimington, de USA - Thursday, February 28, 2008Mrs.Allen, im a 8th grader at Hanby Middle School and i had just finished your book, n it made me cry. i was really hoping for Erin to stay clean. i can understand what your going through. my mom had i did heroin and now finally she is clean. i am really so for your lose and me and my family send our condolence's. I cant wait to see you tomorrow and my mom will be there too.
Ronnie Tambourelli ronnie <cathrnmargrt@verizon.net>
wilmington , de USA - Wednesday, February 27, 2008We are so very sorry for your loss. Were sure Erin was a wonderful child! We also have a lovely daughter who is in jail now because of offences she commited to get money for heroin. She has a sweet baby(4mo. old) who was also an addict but now drug free! (Thank God!) We will pray for your family. We truly underatand some of your deep pain. May God Bless your family.
Dan & Angie <roundtownlady@yahoo.com>
circleville, Ohio USA - Wednesday, February 27, 2008Really don't know where to begin but iv been addicted to heroin for 2 years now.im now 20.Just stumbled on your site by accident.iv finally realised i need help after putting my mom through hell.i googled heroin and found your site and im so glad i did,reading some of the comments you really are an amazing women.I just hope i get the willpower from somewhere to beat this addiction 4eva x
lou lou <lou_newey@hotmail.com>
Uk - Wednesday, February 27, 2008Your story saves lives.
God Bless Erin.
A.
P.S - Marie - if you ever need anything just shout - you know where to find me:)
Andy <amagicmouse@hotmail.com>
London, UK - Wednesday, February 27, 2008this girl two spaces below me is lying, THANKS FOR LYING !
jorsky
claymont, DE USA - Monday, February 25, 2008i had just read dope help. it helped me realize how much drugs can do to you. i went to a 18 or 19 year olds funeral because of a herion overdose. she was someone i did cheerleading with back when we were in catholic school. she looked completely different then when i last saw her. i send my deep condonlences to the family. children should have to bury their parents ; not the other way around. i again say i am very, truly, deeply sorry. and i also know more people who have done drugs. i know that when you are coming to our school (our teacher told us you were coming) it will teach all the kids that i know what drugs can really do to you and how they affect others.
jordan <ohbaby7407@aim.com>
wilmington, DE USA - Monday, February 25, 2008in health we are reading her book,this story really makes me think about how me doing ciggs and alcohol,and weed is really ruining my life and hurting the people i love... everytime i am high or drunk and i talk to my boyfriend i have to lie and try to soung like i am not because i know how much he wants me to stop. a time or two he has caught me and broke up with me but he says he wants to help me get over my addiction and so we hook back up. We have been going out for almost a year and i have been clean for almost 6 weeks. this story has really changed my mind and tried to help me get over my addiction... i can truly say that this story has made me change me view and changed my perspective of my entire life and my loved ones in it... thankyou very much mrs.allen and may your family be in my prayers and many condolences from my family and friends.
sky <fire.babe92807@yahoo.com>
wilmington, de USA - Monday, February 25, 2008I started using heroin at 24 yrs old and I am now 40. I have been clean and sober 2 years now. Heroin use will turn into abuse and it doesn't take long. I am now going to school to be a drug and alcohol counselor. Kicking heroin and staying off Heroin was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I nearly died from my addiction. The question is does he want to get sober or do you want it more than him? At first my parents wanted me to get sober, but 10 years later I finally wanted to after I had lost everything, went to jail, lost custody of my child and weighed 90 pounds. One thing that I do know is that being sober is worth it! I now have a 10 month old grand daughter who I would never of seen if I was still using, my own apartment and I am so grateful to be alive because I wanted to die before. I pray your son gets clean and sober! I am sorry that you have to go through this. 18 year olds need help now before they end up 40 like me before you know it.
Tracy <gary900876@yahoo.com>
hartford, CT USA - Saturday, February 23, 2008I know what lastwin is going through. My seventeen year old son ASKED ME FOR HELP with a drug problem (he didn't even know it was heroin!)and I am unable to find him help because he is under 18 and we have insurance, but not the right kind. I was also told the liability is too high for those under 18 years old. Drug abuse is in a different category than medical treatment and has different coverage. I was also told his addiction was not that bad yet and he could detox on his own. We have tried that more than once with no success. I AM SCARED. Where is the help for those of us who can't spend $$$ on months, years in rehab centers that have a questionable success rate? Yes, I have called countless hotlines, always ending up in the same place. Most parents don't know their kids have a problem until they've been using for a year or more. Somehow we need to inform everyone BEFORE the drug use starts, as you are doing. I wish you could talk to every middle school in America! Your website is priceless. The major problem in this area is Black Tar heroin which is smoked off of a square of aluminum foil -- very hard to detect. Any suggestions would be appreciated! Thank you.
Mary <t4.amd@cox.net>
Tempe, AZ USA - Saturday, February 23, 2008my heart goes out to you i have just found out my son has been using for 3 months and found erins story while trying to find some help if i dont get him help i fear the future for my son
jan johnson <jjohnson20@blueyonder.co.uk>
england - Friday, February 22, 2008why these things happen to such beautiful people ia appaling as erins mother you are fantastic where i come from drugs are taboo its just our ignorance but i would implore anyone that needs help to find it here lets help with your good work we can help someone on the slippery slope to death please to al drug users us on Erins page are here for you xxx
mj
USA - Wednesday, February 20, 2008Two young men have been arrested and charged in a drug distribution ring that put heroin, cocaine and other drugs into the hands of local teenagers, including a 16-year-old Lusher High School student who died from an overdose last month, U.S. Attorney Jim Letten announced Tuesday.
The arrests and subsequent court filings lay bare a local network of buyers and sellers dealing with some of the most potent narcotics officials said they've seen in the area in decades. And the ongoing investigation also prompted federal officials to take an unusual step: Agents will visit the parents of children identified as drug buyers, letting them know their children use drugs.
The men allegedly responsible for dealing the drugs, David C. Battenberg, 27, of Metairie, and Diego A. Perez, of New Orleans, are charged in a federal criminal complaint with conspiracy to distribute and possess heroin, cocaine and other controlled substances.
The charges stem from a fast-tracked federal investigation initiated by the overdose death of 16-year-old Madeleine Prevost, a junior at Lusher High School who died in January from a toxic mixture of heroin and cocaine.
"The arrest of these two individuals on heroin distribution charges, which we announce today, signals something more important than the apprehension of drug dealers," Letten said at a Tuesday morning news conference. "It signals the end of a drug distribution business which caused the loss of a child."
Letten, joined by Jefferson Parish Sheriff Newell Normand and other federal officials, said investigators gained key evidence -- including cell phone text messages arranging drug deals -- while executing a search warrant on the men's homes last week.
The dreaded cycle continues.
STEVE <kooteebrown@yahoo.com>
NEW ORLEANS, La. USA - Wednesday, February 20, 2008I would just like to say how sorry I am to you all.I know the pain that you are all feeling. I was happy with my partner living in Spain with my daughter from a previous relationship. I felt that I was given a second chance with love and was smitten with my man. My daughter and jonny got on so well, always getting up to mischief together. We decided to have a baby to make our family complete. I gave birth to Isabella in october 2006, Jonny was the proud father and we were now a complete unit. We lived life as the perfect family and all was great. we went back to the U.K in the christmas to show off our new baby. Everyone was so happy for us. The next time we returned to the U.K was july 4th 2007. Jonny caught up with his old friends and that is where everything went wrong. We had been to a family BBC and had a great night. Jonny had had too much to drink so when we go home I put him to bed. Little did I know that his past had caught up with him. I woke the next morning to find him dead. The baby and I had slept whilst he died in his sleep. My life will never be the same again.I had to tell my elder daughter which was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. We had to move back to the U.K. I dont know where I belong any more and heroin has not only taken Jonny's life but mine and his whole families. My baby will never know her daddy and my elder daughter has lost her best friend. I have lost my soulmate, lover, best friend and life all in one stupid night. I just want you to know that you are not alone as I have often felt. Much Love Joanne Ince.
Joanne <joanneince@btinternet.com>
United Kingdom - Tuesday, February 19, 2008 HAVE A HAPPY DAY GOD BLESS YOU DEBBIE <REDROSE40@AOL.COM>
POWHATAN, VA USA - Monday, February 11, 2008I LOVE THIS PAGE. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. MGBADA JOE <MGBADAJOE@ABA.COM>
ABA, AB BENIN - Wednesday, February 06, 2008Marie, I had the urge to come by again and say that I am thinking of you. I remember when I was so frantically searching online for something... someone...anything... after Dallas died, and coming across your page. And that you took time out of your life to just say, I'm sorry. And I know.
It has been a brutal road so far. I know it is still a long road ahead. I miss him more each day if that is possible. How much I lost... the effects of which will always hit me with sights, smells, thoughts, memories of his beautiful face.
Just wanted to thank you again, and let you know I have not forgotten.. Erin's Story.
Love and Peace..... Angela Gwynn <gwynn_a@msn.com>
Seattle, WA USA - Saturday, February 02, 2008I want to tell you how sorry i am for your loss. I
to had a drug addiction from 15 to 19 y/o but somehow got myself off of them after a DUI conviction. I believe that drugs just make people forget about things in their past that were bad things that happened or things they believe were really bad. My father was a very big alcoholic and was very abusive (mainly verbally). But i truly believe that verbal abuse is the worst. Everyone out there who is doing drugs, please quit feeling so sorry for yourselves, get up and
remember how much you're hurting the people who Love you! Yes, life can sometimes feel like hell, but it isn't. All i can say is please quit hurting others around you, it is so selfish. God Bless you Marie and your family.
Stephan Dill <stepwdill@hotmail.com>
terlton, ok USA - Thursday, January 31, 2008Hi all sorry to remain annyomous its six years since my beloved sister died and im no closer to finding peace what could i have done to help her i dont know i was ignorant to drugs as i never thought anyone in my family would ever get invloved im severly depressed i have a good job i support my family never miss work but i drown alchol every night to help me sleep i hate drug dealers and what they stand for i need answers because my heart will never heal but the fact is my sisters autopsy said she was a heroin abuser why didnt i see the problem so i could help her please help im lost and dont know how to get out of this mess i hve a wonderful family i work very hard for them but i know they know im drinking what can i do ?
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USA - Monday, January 28, 2008why are these horrible companies advertising on this page not one person commeting on this page will ever order or buy any
thing from you have a heart if you have one leave this space for people that need help you are nothing but mongerels cross breeds of soceity
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USA - Monday, January 28, 2008Please lastwin you are so young signed on as annoymous dont give in to this horriblr drug you lost friends to this you are only seventeen my god the world is such a beautiful place my son is 18 AND THE ONLY WORRIES HE HAS IS DOES HE HAVE THE RIGHT STYLE FOR FRI NIGHT please darling someone very special loves you,you are to young to deal with this yourself you need adult support reach out to someone you fel close to and tell them everything if you dont have this support well what can i say erins page is here amd i and everyone else contributing to this page will be here to help you please find the help to find the strenght to ask "please help me" love always m
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USA - Monday, January 28, 2008hi all especially liquidcel hope you are still doing well ive tried emailing you but they never seem to go through but my thoughts are always with you and your suffering i only know the pain this horrible drug brings as i have never done drugs im a bit of a green horn but to all of you poor people i will hold you always in my prayers god bless from ireland xxx
mary
USA - Monday, January 28, 2008Marie -- My 21 yr old son is addicted to heroin, we found out on Christmas Eve. We were overwhelmed, desperate, struggled to find information so we could do the right thing. As you know, the pain is indescribable. He's in an inpatient treatment center (just about 2 weeks into a 28 day program). We are so scared of what will happen when he gets out. Bless you for what you're doing now to provide help and information to those who's lives are touched by this. I'm sure you're saving lives.
Debbi <debbiha@aol.com>
va USA - Sunday, January 27, 2008I came across this page while looking for some help and support for me and my boyfriend. He is addicted to heroin, and we now have a 3 month old beautiful baby boy. I have been to hell and back with him for the past year, trying to get him to get clean. I know that it is hard for him. I understand that it is a disease, and it is not all about willpower. He has stolen from me, from his family. He has lied to me and everyone else. I fear for the day when I receive a phone call that he is dead of overdose. Moreover, I will have to tell our son how his father died. It breaks my heart just thinking about it. I keep thinking, Why aren't we important enough for him to stop? But I know that it's more than that. I know that we ARE important enough, but he just doesn't have the help he needs. He has been clean only since Christmas. He is taking Suboxen, but only when we can find it from someone. He doesn't have insurance and we cannot afford to send him to treatment to pay out of pocket. I don't know what to do anymore. If he doesn't have any pills and he gets a craving, it's no use anymore. He's gone. He's stolen my car to cop and I wouldn't doubt that he'll do it again. I can't live like this. I'm afraid that I might lose my son because of him. I'm just so tired of crying and begging. He needs counseling, but he has no insurance. If anyone knows what I can do for him to get him the help that he needs, please e-mail me! We both have lost a lot of our friends due to this horrible disease/drug. My heart goes out to you and your family, as well as to those who have also lost someone because of this. Please-I am losing my mind-We live in Pennsylvania-Can someone please help us???
Jesse <eamighj@my.wccc.edu>
PA USA - Friday, January 25, 2008My heart goes out to you and your family. I just came back from Canada visiting my son (age 26) who is a heroin addict. He has been in the hospital since December 16 with "cellulitis infection), also heart valves disease and so on. The addiction has taken over my son to the point that in between medication, he was able to walk out of hospital and go get some heroin and shoot himself in the bathroom hospital. I am so lost right now to see the self-destruction. I called this DEMON called HEROIN. He was released from hospital this morning and back onto the streets.
It's so hard as a mother and unexplainable what we go through as a parent. One person told me the other day LET GO AND LET GOD.....
Louise <lbgoodno@msn.com>
NH USA - Tuesday, January 22, 2008i am arecovering herion addict who has been clean and sober for 9 years. I was an exotic dancer and upscale escort making 200,00. a year herion reduced me to selling my body for 10 on a ghetto corner now I am a certified substance abuse councilor specializing in herion addiction we do make it and making is better than all the dope in the world Each of us is differnt but herion has the same plan for us all ....DESTRUCTION..But we can and do overcome and we must grieve those lost to herion and learn from them so their deaths wont be for nothing..May God bless us all and give us who battle this strength.
tonya m wigner <tmwigner1@yahoo.com>
USA - Monday, January 21, 2008I just went on a site to read about Heroin. To see what it looks it and to read about the effects. My son 21 grew up in a small NH town. Very smart. Had so many good things in life. Now he is hooked on Heroin and anything else he can get. He is married and his wife is also an addict. They also have a little girl who is going to be 2 who has seizures and will probably be handicapped. I pray and worry about all three of them. They have lived in a campsite all summer as their home until the owners had to kick them out because it was getting to cold. I would go by every day with fire wood and help them with food or anything else they needed. I couldn't give them money because they would spend it on drugs. They ended up with my daughter-in-laws mother's house only because she felt bad for the baby. I though living in the campground would wake them up and have them see what they are doing.
They ended up breaking into a house for money for drugs, got arrested and now is undergoing court proceedings. They are court ordered to go to rehab for 30 days.. My son says he is not doing Heroin any more but says he needs to go to rehab to stay out of jail. I tried to explain to him that her needs this to happen that it was his habit that got him in this place. His wife also has to go now they are both afraid the state might take their baby away. I am searching for words and praying to GOD to have the right answers. He is now staying with me his (mom) until he gets into rehab. He is not home right now but I have found needles and Heroin in his bag. He needs to go to detox before he goes into rehab. Without insurance he is constantly hitting brick walls.
I am so sorry about your daughter. Many people don't understand. You have this beautiful child with so many possibilties. You love them so much.
I am living with my fiance and he doesn't understand. I just can't turn my back. He has no one. He dad was never there for him. I can't give up. I need HOPE. I pray so much.
Debbie <driso@exeter.edu>
canida, nh USA - Saturday, January 19, 2008Don't ever turn your back on the ones that you hold dear cause you ay wake up tomorrow and find they're just no here. And then what are you left with: just guilt and shame you never tried to understand or help with their life of pain. Take each day with them like it's going to be the last, forgive the things they may have done that hurt you in the past. This isn't forever we're all going to die but wouldn't it be nice to say that you tried!
A dear friend
USA - Thursday, January 17, 2008i just want to say that god is with you at all times and he will help you get through this and for everyone going through similiar situations keep your heads up and pray.
nafeesah peoples <nafeesahpeoples@yahoo.com>
jersey city, nj USA - Friday, January 11, 2008God bless you Erin!
a friend
MD USA - Wednesday, January 09, 2008i have just found this site and felt compelled to write. i felt immense sadness but also a relief that in dark times there are people out there that care
j belle <jbelle97@yahoo.com>
swansea, united kingdom - Saturday, January 05, 2008Dear Mrs Allen,
I want to give you my deepest condolence for Erin, and to tell you how I think you are a strong and wonderful mother and person for helping others. Erin's story has touched a lot of people. When you started "Heroin Hurts" my mom was so afraid to attend because she blamed herself for my heroin addiction. I have been clean now for going on 6 years and I had heard about Erin from rehabs and detoxs I attended in my area, but last year while attending college at Del tech I came across your book and it touched me in so many ways. One way was I have considered changing my major to drug counseling. I just want to commend you on your dedication to helping others and for letting Erin's voice be heard. THANK YOU BELIDONA
Belinda Donahue <belidona25@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Thursday, January 03, 2008I am very sorry for your loss. I was a cocaine,heroin and crack addict when i lived in Las Vegas. I used to do anything to get it and got myself into horrible situations. My mother came and got me and I stayed with her for 2wks. I stayed in bed for days trying detox. I stayed clean for almost 2 weeks. As soon as I got back to Las Vegas I was high in under an hour. I was living wherever I could. This went on for about 2 years. Fortunately my mom didn't give up on me and came for me again and made me stay with her. I haven't used in a little over a year. Thank God for moms like you. I thank God everyday for my mother. My thoughts and prayers are with you and you family. God bless you Erin.
MaryAnne <marya76@excite.com>
phoenix, az USA - Wednesday, January 02, 2008I am going through similar things with my brother right now, it's comforting to know that I'm not alone in my thoughts and feelings
Heather <hmacdonald6206@hotmail.com>
USA - Tuesday, January 01, 2008I LOVE THIS PAGE. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. MGBADA JOE <MGBADAJOE@ABA.COM>
ABA, AB BENIN - Thursday, December 27, 2007what can i say i know the pain of losing a loved one my beautiful sister,heroin is a scourge on society its dreadful having to watch my brokrn hearted parents keep your faith on earth they were living a dreadful existence now they are with god but remembering there life hurts so much as their deaths could have been avoided i know your pain 5 years on im still living with it knowimg you will never see your loved one again makes you feel so bitter and full of hatred for drug dealers,if any are reading this site you are the scum of the earth and one day you will get yours what you deal comes back three times three,my daughter gave birth to my beautiful granddaughter i have named her erin rose because erin is irish for ireland and rose after my other sister the only good thing from tillys death was it exaculted my love for my older sister ,i miss you Tilly so much xxx your brokrn hearted sister mary
mary mulvaney <mulvaneymary@gmail.com >
galway, ireland - Saturday, December 22, 2007this is a terrible story, and happens way too often. i used heroin for about a year and a half, on and off. i tried quitting four times before it worked, i've got six months clean right now and i seriously dont want to ever go back to the hell of active addiction. to all the people who are trying to beat it, my heart goes out to you. if ANYONE needs someone to talk to who has been where you've been and knows what you're going through, please feel free to email me!!
Danielle <liquidice110@yahoo.com>
binghamton, ny USA - Thursday, December 20, 2007I want to say Happy Holidays to everyone that has written on Erin's web page over the years. We all have to stay strong and never forget our loved ones. God Bless Marie (Erin's Mom) PS I love you Erin.xoxox
Marie Allen (Erin's mom)
wilmington, de USA - Wednesday, December 19, 2007I'am sorry for your daughters lost,she is in a good place smiling with god, god answered her prayer she is free from the devil and at god's sight the most wonderful place we can be. I'am too have a daughter doing herion.her bad life started when she was 14 yrs old she left school to meet her friend in downtown that day her friend called me saying that she was unable to meet my daughter their,crystal did'nt know how to take the bus back home this bad person told her that he will help her he did'nt he just drugged her and raped her and kept her for 3-4days.thats when she started using drugs.another time was held a gun point by 3 men raping her left in another city.crystal has been shot twice,once with her husband he did'nt make it she was pregnant her baby survived and crystal too thank god.she is still using drugs herion.i've tried so many ways to help her it doesn't work i tell her why do you do that and all she says to numb the pain.i have prayed for her so much that god can change her life and lead her on the right path.i look for her in the streets,houses,tunnels,dark places at night when i do find her i take her home with me and she leaves again,over and over again.i tried to put her in methodone that did'nt work...i tried to take her to a hospital me and my husband that did'nt work,she was locked up for 2 months that did'nt work...the system here in san antonio is no good everywhere i call its about paying money for a rehab.there is alot of people like my daugther that need help but part of it has to come from them they do try to change but the devil is always getting in thre way...can you all please pray for my daughter to safe her from this hell and for god to change her. i have cried so many tears and my heart is always in pain. we need to all pray for these people they are not bad people just confuse and lost...i do thank god my daughter is still alive but i'am so scare for her...please pray for crystal...thankyou...to all parents out their i will pray for your children also....the devil will not win our children....thankyou....i'am still looking for my daughter.....
Pauline Garcia <paulinegarcia10@yahoo.com>
san antonio, tx USA - Saturday, December 15, 2007My heart just aches for you....4 yrs ago my son started using heroin. He was living in NH at the time. I knew (mothers instinct) when I talked to him on the phone something was wrong.I kept telling his younger brother something is going on w/your brother.He said Mom he is fine he would tell me. It kept knawing at me. Long story short I went up there and he was shooting heroin.He said it happened so fast 1st they snorted it next thing you know he was shooting it. He is on medication now (Suboxone). He has been clean 4 yrs but he is depressed and I know he still thinks about it. It is a life long battle. He just moved to Florida to be closer to family. He has been here 3 weeks. I fear that one day I will be getting the same call you received. I will pray that you heal from this awful travisty and again my heart goes out to you. They are our children and this is not supposed to happen
karen <sailinshoes2@yahoo.com>
Sarasota, Fl USA - Saturday, December 08, 2007God bless you and the spirit of your beautiful daughter
sj
USA - Thursday, December 06, 2007After spending an hour or so searching for free help finding Methadone or Suboxone treatment I came across this page, This story sounds all too familiar except for it's ending. I am afraid that if I cannot find free help soon, I will understand this ending ALL too well. My biggest fear is having my son know that his father died a "Heroin addict", just as I found out my father died the same way. I am scared. If anyone in the Chicago area knows of availible help-PLEASE E-Mail me.
Very sincerely,
Jeremy S.
MyNamesJeremyS@aol.com
Jeremy <MyNamesJeremyS@Aol.Com>
Wheeling, IL USA - Wednesday, December 05, 2007wow someone on here is trying to find an amanda good? i did a search of here name on the net and found this sight. I know her family is in deleware. My heart breaks for this girl. I want to help her but have no idea how to do so. Im so close to her, i care so much for her and it kills me not to be able to do something. please e-mail me anyone for advice or anyone looking for her. Shes safe as she can be concidering whats shes hooked on, and know shes got someone trying to look out for her
Michael <mikezzz1973@yahoo.com>
PA USA - Wednesday, December 05, 2007dear marie, i saw u in grace cottage and then i saw u in stevenson detention center not long after. i just got home recently from being in south dakota for 4 months. it took me going out there to realize a lot of things. my drug of choice is not herion, but i was using opiot pills such as percaset. i was using anything i could get my hands on. i havent used since the end of june and i plan to keep it that way. u have inspired me and u really make an impact on ppls lives. thank u and god bless ur family.
Kandice <crazykbebe@yahoo.com>
seaford, de USA - Monday, December 03, 2007It makes me very sad to read your experience with Erin, but I'm glad you've turned it into something positive and are using it to help others. I've had a lot of experience with heroin and addicts- I've been shooting H for two years now and have lost 4 close friends to it. I'm seventeen so I cant get help yet, but in five months I'll be 18 and I'm hoping to get clean and put this behind me. I wish the laws were different, I'm not sure I can make it. I'll be keeping my family and whats left of my friends in mind-- if I can't do it for myself I can for them. Thank you very much for sharing your story! I was having trouble with my needle and searching google for how to fix it and ended up here. I had a good cry and threw both the needle and its contents away.
Good luck to anyone who is suffering out there
anonymous <lastwin@live.com>
NC USA - Friday, November 30, 2007mrs. Allen you came to my school yesterday at springer middle and i just want to say that your story touched me so much and i tried my best not to cry at the assembly but it was just so sad. your story really touched me. i know that loosing Erin was very hard for you and your family and i wish you all the best. after reading the book i feltso sad b/c it was like i knew her. and after the assembly i felt even worse to see the last picture of Erins dead face. im so sorry for your lost and thankyou for coming to my school i hope that you changed a lot of peoples minds about drugs!
Janay H <babyjanay@aol.com>
wilmington, de USA - Thursday, November 22, 2007Mrs. Allen today you came to Springer Middle School and i would like to post again and thank you i really didnt get to say much b.c the fact i was in class when i was on here the first time. Your story has touched many of us at Springer today, and i would like to say thank you for that. Your a great women for what you do and what you have been through. You should be a saint! Saint Mrs. Allen! Happy Thanksgiving and i pray for you and your family and everyone else in the world. I do know people who do and have done drugs, it is true the saying "i can stop when i want" but im not going to lie, its mostly not true, i was with a close friend and they are addicted to the High from Weed, i watch out for him, and tell him to stay away from it, ill spred the story if your daughter to him. Thank you again for everything! Ben A. -Springer Middle-
Ben Alford <lilalford94@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007Mrs. Allen today you came to my school [SMS] and told us your terrible story. I think that it took you a lot of courage and you were very brave to get up in front of so many people and tell your heartbreaking story. I still can not get those pictures out of my head. I always knew that heroin was not good for you but i never really knew the affects of this deadly drug, and how desperate people can get for the money just to buy more and more of it. This assembly really woke me up and many others alerting others how dangerous heroin is. I saw many students crying and i know this touched everyone. I am very sorry for your loss. Thank you
Missy Peet <mzp1994@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, De USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007Mrs. Allen. wow... Today you came to my school (springer middle) and you presented your heartbreaking story. All of us eigth graders had previously read your book and we had an idea of what you had to go through during Erin's addiction from your descriptions - but nothing could compare to seeing the strength and determination coming off of you to spread the hardcore truth of the impact heroin has. You deeply touched A LOT of hearts - most of whom i completely didn't expect at all. I fully stand behind the "dont do drugs" and such themes - but in our society all we do is humph and roll our eyeballs. It's not enough anymore and most of the time, with the highschoolers and even kids in our school, it just goes in one ear and out the other. But you and the Corporal were the wake up call that we all needed - we all had to be exposed to. We're not stupid kids who want to ruin our lives - most of us are just ignorant, and some are ignorant and curious to see what would happen if they tried drugs or heroin or alcohol. They don't know about the hardcore addictions - they say they can stop whenever they want to - and it rips my heart out hearing that they tried to stop just like your daughter did, but couldn't. So many stories... but we don't know about them. And now we don't have that excuse anymore thanks to you - now our ignorance is not to blame if we get into trouble. Because now we know how hard it is on our families and friends and oursleves. The choices are all ours now, and i think today you impacted not only our hearts, but our minds. That is a gift that is not always hard to give - especially if it is at your own grief, but i think you already know how significant your impact is on us. Thank you so much. ~Danae
Danae P. <azul16.94@comcast.net>
wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007HI mrs.allen,
you went to my school today. it was hard looking the mortifying pictures thae police ofacer showed like the kid killing self casue his idol did so i mean i didnt think that stuff could happen but i guess it can. when you talk about erins story i started crying casue i have friends that lost parrents and looking at them did make it much easier. but i greatly thank u for taking your time to show us what can happen i will keep spreading your work and all that you said for years to come. thanks for enlightingand me
harrion
harrison felt <jesus pona 69@aim.com>
wilmington, de USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007HI mrs.allen,
you went to my school today. it was hard looking the mortifying pictures thae police ofacer showed like the kid killing self casue his idol did so i mean i didnt think that stuff could happen but i guess it can. when you talk about erins story i started crying casue i have friends that lost parrents and looking at them did make it much easier. but i greatly thank u for taking your time to show us what can happen i will keep spreading your work and all that you said for years to come. thanks for enlightingand me
harrion
harrison felt <jesus pona 69@aim.com>
wilmington, de USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007today you came to springer middle school and talked to the 8th grade about your daughter. alot of people who try to stop people from using drugs just say "hugs not drugs", or some other slogan. i thought you really made an impact on all the kids in my grade, when you shared your story and showed real life pictures and events that happened. i think it will really make people think twice before they do something like that.
sarah
wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007Today when you visited my school(SMS) i did start to cry once you left b.c my mom passed away from an overdose. it wasnt from heroin. i was only 9 years old though. so when you were talking about overdose it got to me how even if you try stuff you could get addicted fast. i reallly hope you go and talk to alot more school because i knmow you made an impact in my school. and helped some of us out by just telling your daughters/your story. it pointed out to me that i should not do any sort of drug or anything expecually since it could affect me, my friends or my family. Im so glad i got to heard you talk about your daughter. it helped me & my friends in so many ways.
~kassy
kassy <kassywalklett814@yahoo.com>
wilmington, de USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007Dear Mrs. Allen,
Today you came to my school, Springer Middle School, and talked about Erin's story. I want to thank you for having the courage to go up and talk about her life. I know that it must be tough for you and I'm sure it would be tough for any parent to talk about the death of their child, but I want to let you know that it woke a lot of the kids up. I saw one kid going back to class in tears and he is usually a tough guy that never cries. The images we saw and what you told us today really showed a lot of people what drugs can do to you. That old don't do drugs lecture doesn't really work anymore. Thank you once again and please keep spreading the word about heroin. It takes a lot of guts to do that. I pray for you and your family, God bless you.
Jessica Williams <ilovesports518@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007Dear Mrs Allen,
you came to my school today, and it was sooo hard listening to your story, and watching the clips of Erin. My dad died 6 month's ago from a drug overdos, he also did Heroine. I couldn't make it through the rest of the day without remembering the song " wish you were here " cause i played that song over& over again when my dad died. i know exactly what your going through, and it's tough. so many people were crying at the assembly. Your sooo strong for doing this. I don't know how you can talk about your daughter & her addiction over and over again without crying. I couldn't do that. A couple of my friend's have parent's/family members dealing with drug's, and some have died, and the only thing i can do for them is be there like they were for me. It would be so great if you came back to Springer Middle, so we could just talk about everything. I'm so sorry for your loss, Stay strong!
Kim Gottshalk <whtsupxkimface@aim.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007Mrs. Allen today you came to my school.(Springer Middle) I've never seen anything make such a big impact on our school then you did today. Everyone was touched so deeply. There were so many people crying and upset from either relating to your story or just hearing and seeing what heroin can really do to you. I always knew that heroin was bad but i never really understood fully until today. Your story really made me think about how i want to live my life. It made me think about what path i want to choose and how everything i do effects not just me, but others around me. I learned so much at that assembely. I think that when you spoke today, it hit many people so hard. It woke them up and made them realize what drugs can do to you and the people around you. You really are such a strong women to take everthing in about Erin and still continue to tell your story. Your so brave and i truley look up to you. Im so glad you came to my school today and told your story. It opend up alot of peoples eyes to reality. Thank you so much for reaching out to so many people. It really does mean alot. You touched so many hearts today. Im so sorry you had to go through what you did. Just know that what you have told many people, is a life changing experience.
Again thankyou so,so much. I really do look up to how strong you are.
Sincerely,
Samantha Horne. (springer middle school)
Samantha Horne <ohheyyxsamantha@aim.com>
de USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007Dear Mrs. Allen,
I am really sorry about your loss of Erin. I saw your presentation of Herion. I thought it was great that you could share your story about Erin. And I hope kids who see and hear your story you could really make a difference on kids who want to do drugs and stop alot of kids who want to do drugs. And I want to thank you for the presention I thought it was a great way to get kids to quit doing drugs. thank you so much!!!!!!!1
Sarah <sball1208@aol.com>
wilimington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007Dear Mrs. Allen,
You came to Springer Middle School today and talked to the eigth graders. I and many other students were VERY much moved by your presentation. After I left the auditorium I did not talk for about an hour because I was so deep in thought about the whole thing. I really appreciate you having the courage to get up in front of all these people and talk to them about the hardest times of your life. I know that a few of my friends left crying and I think that shows how moving and touching her story is. I as you said it should be, have 2 of the photos stuck in my head. The picture of Erin in the morgue, and of the boy with the shotgun. If you see the corporal please thank her on my behalf.Thank you again.
Carter M. <csicarter@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007Today at Springer Middle School you came in to talk to us about Erin. Alot of people were touched including myself, I saw many people cring and also people passed out.I would like to thank you again for coming in.
Ben
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007we are at a epademic level in this area just weeks ago i said good by to another russel paul swartsbeck 48 i spent 15 years with a heroin adict she servived by no fault of her own many of her friends did not i have three daughters and a son i cant begin to amagin what it would be like to lose one god bless the child
kevin b parrotte sr <kevinparrottesr1@aol.com>
frederick, md USA - Tuesday, November 20, 2007Marie,
today in health class at hanby middle school, i received the book you wrote. and let me tell you, it has changed my total outlook of drugs and alcohol. i finished it in just a few short hours. i cannot wait for you to come to our school and speak to us. god bless you
-maggie, 13, never to use drugs.
Maggie
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, November 13, 2007Dear Marie,
Quite a few years ago you came and gave a speech at Pittston Area High School in Northeastern Pennsylvania. I never forgot what you had to say and the message you gave about your daughter. I chanced upon your website by such a coincidence that I feel that it was anything BUT a coincidence. I am so very sorry for what happened to your family and your much loved daughter. I know those words probably mean very little in reality but I truly believe that God has embraced her and taken away all of her pain. My friends and I have never forgotten your message - you are making a difference.
God bless you,
Kara
Kara
Pittston, PA USA - Monday, November 05, 2007I am truly sorry that any parent must go through what you are going through. However, I must object to many things said here because heroin is an inaimate substance. It is American Drug Laws that are killing people, not a powder that is simply morphine with a greater lipid solubility (heroin is simply acetylated morphine and upon ingestion it is immediately converted back to morphine).
rachamim ben ami <rizzasrach@yahoo.com>
san francisco, Mindanao Philippines - Tuesday, October 30, 2007I noticed a few posts that refer to Suboxone and how expensive it is. I found a link from the company that makes this medication and it will sponser 2 patients per MD's office and provide the medication free if you qualify. It is worth checking out if this medication works for you.
http://www.needymeds.com/drug_list.taf?_function=name&name=Suboxone
Valerie Jones <vjj7@yahoo.com>
Perkasie, PA United States - Sunday, October 28, 2007Im very sorry but i know that your tired of hearing that if it aint "IM SORRY",it's "I KNOW HOW U FEEL"..But thats not what I want to say i want to say know that I read your book about your daughters hard life I, can finally see why people do that kind of stuff to ease their pain or just because their friends say they wont which is known as "PEER PRESSURE"......
LATIKA WRIGHT <NITENITE92@YAHOO.COM>
WILM, DEL USA - Thursday, October 25, 2007A couple years ago you came to Shue Medille Middle School and I remember you talking about your daughter. I felt so sad inside I hope that your feeling better. I know that you will always hurt inside but just take it one day at a time. Please e-mail me at SilkkTheShock62@Hotmail.com God Bless You.
Virgil <SilkkTheShock62@Hotmail.com>
Newcastle, De USA - Monday, October 22, 2007Dear Marie, I am so very sorry for the loss of your daughter. I just lost my 55 year old brother to a herion overdose a month ago. We miss him so much - all the hopes and dreams for his recovery are dead too. My mom is a wreck. She is 88 years old, and has been trying to help him quit using since he was about 14. If she could use a computer, she would send her heart felt sympathy to you - she knows your pain. We ae all hurting so badly, for we all waited for that phone call for so many years, and finally got it. Maybe methadone (for the umteenth time) may have helped him once again - we will never know. Atleast we know of two angels in heaven who are no longer suffering - your Erin, and our Bruce. God Bless, and we are so sorry for your loss
Laurie H <nosittap2000@Yahoo.com>
Bloomington, MN USA - Sunday, October 21, 2007Hi Marie,
I have posted on here many times. You are always in my prayers. You have touched so many lives by speaking to the public about Erin and so many of us are so very thankful for this website. It breaks my heart to read the storys here. My 22 year old son is a recovering addict, but lapsed again for the 3rd time the begining of October. The suboxone did not work for him this time. He entered into rehab yesterday and will stay there for at least 2 weeks, but I live in constant fear
that I will lose him to the nightmare of heroin. He stayed clean for almost 4 months, but then the heroin demon sank it's teeth into him again. Tomorrow it will be a year since he nearly died from an overdose and ended up in the ER. Please keep us in your prayers and I will do the same.
Mom of an addict
PA USA - Friday, October 19, 2007Hey I just wanted to tell you thanks for stopping by Kirk Middle today.Erin's story and what you had to say today Really made me think.I'm sorry for your loss also.
Morgan.
Morgan Homewood <Morgana2005@aim.com>
Newark, DE USA - Friday, October 19, 2007Hey Mrs. A, Long time since I posted here. I think of you and your daughters often.Always and forever a mom to two lovely girls. You have done such awesome work and have helped so many people just by allowing people to share in your life. The lives of your family. Maybe it's because us addicts see so much of ourselves in your Erin. Maybe we're a sibling or a daughter of a heroin addict. Most heart wrenching of all maybe we are a mom of a heroin addict. It breaks my heart to even type that. Oh if I could find my old posts here I'd probably amaze myself. I just read some current posts and man can I so identify. The one thing though that just eats me alive is these kids. These young people. Like Erin they are in the prime of their lives. The world is handing out some rotten stuff to these kids today. God forbid for any of the people that post about the addict who boo whoos and whines. This, this drug can happen to anyone at anytime. One thing we learn in that addiction out there is to "never say never" cause woe be the person who casts judgement. Some sympathy and human kindness go a long way. People make mistakes. This mistake as we have learned though costs lives. Mrs. A you going out and talking to the kids it so grips them. They listen. Your a wonderful woman with a big heart and Erin is surely fueling your quest to help people. JUst wanted to say thank you, and hope you are well. Also, to Michael who posted a few down. I so hope you made your year. If ya didn't then let it be a "lapse" and not a "relapse". If I can put in over three years clean then any old person can do this. It's absolutely tough, and the first year even is really difficult. But know it can be done. I'm a weakling. If I beat it so can you. Just hang on and keep going. Thanks again Mrs. A for the chance for everyone to express themselves. Everybody out there please don't give up hope. Think of Erin. Say a little prayer up to her and ya got an angel right beside you. Also thinking of the kids from our city like Karen Berry and her mom who does great work as well. Also, there's never a night goes by I don't throw a prayer up for little Ashley Burg. Hoping she's up there with the girls helping out those that are struggling. Bless you girls. Love to my El too. I miss ya, sister. Thanks for looking out for me.
YOU CAN RECOVER
PHILLY, PA USA - Thursday, October 18, 2007emma12a@yahoo.com Emma I am sending you all the wishes in the world for you to overcome this and you know what you are ALWAYS STRONGER THAN YOU THINK YOU ARE!!!!! You can do it. I feel such sadness to see ones like you that want to stop. I wished that I could do it for you. I know what it is like to be on the other side of the drug addiction and believe you me it is so hard on the ones that love you and care for you.. If there is anyway I can personal help you please please let me know. I just wanted you to know that you have people out here that are rooting for your success and want to see you beat this. I wished there were some magic word that could take it all away unfortunately there isn't but prayer works. I will send up a prayer everyday for you and think about you on and send good vibes your way, if you feel you need a little extra email me and I will work double time on those prayers that day.. You are strong and you are going to beat this.. Please take care of yourself you are worth it...
Kristi
kristi <thatkindagirl28@hotmail.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Sunday, October 14, 2007Sorry to bother but I am in need of some advice for my sisters recovery, she was a herion addict and now her drug of choice has been crack but
this has been the best week of my life.. I went to my sisters court date and they are keeping her until Nov 13. She stated to me that she wants to leave Birmingham alabama and come here to Florida with me.. I have been talking to her and she knows what I expect from her in order for her to stay with me.. She really seems like she wants to do this and I do understand that her views on this may change from day to day and that she can only promise me what she can do for today and we can hope for the best tomorrow.. She seems in really high sprits now and wants to be a part of my life. I feel like a kid before christmas. I am just trying to keep this all in perspective and realize that it may not work. And she may get out and go back to that way of life. But as for now it is looking good. Wanted to know if any of you could give me any steps to take before she comes here or things that I may be able to dohere for it to be easier for her. I have gotten rid of al lthe alcohol in the house. So that she will not be temped to do that.. I am planning on going to some NA meetngs this coming week in hopes of building some backbone andmake my self aware of what I need to be in store for so that it doesn't become a let down for me.. I have prayed for this day and now I feel like she may actually have a chance in all this.. I will keep you all informed. But I would appreciate any and all help with how I should proceed and what to expect from here on out in this.. Thanks to you all!!!
Kristi
Kristi <thatkindagirl28@hotmail.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Sunday, October 14, 2007I am very sorry for you loss. I too, lost my son to drugs one week ago. I thought he was still a recovering addict, but unfortunately, I was wrong. I will write to you again once the pain is not so strong. Let's keep our children in our prayers.
Brenda Veneskey <bveneskey207@aim.com>
Carrolltown, PA USA - Sunday, October 14, 2007I am addict,I want to stop, what can I do. Email me please emma12a@yahoo.com
Emma Owerri <emma12a@yahoo.com>
los, ca USA - Saturday, October 13, 2007Dear Marie, my deepest sympathy to you and your family. Marie i am currently an ex user. I am on a maintainence program which has been successfull for me for the last 3 years. I just want you to know that i understand all you have been through and all that Erin went through. I hope Erin is at peace now and so are you. Heroin addiction is a long winding road downhill and we don't set out to become a 'Junkie' on purpose. The things we do during our addiction aren't meant to hurt intentionally and at the end of the day, despite what we may have done, we love our parents and family and are aware that we are dissapointing everyone, including ourselves. And even though the drugs change our personalities we are still the little girls you love. Pip
pip gamble <pippyjoy@hotmail.com.au>
Kyogle, NSW Australia - Wednesday, October 10, 2007Hi Marie. I attended your program at Skyline Methodist Church a few weeks ago. What a heartbreaking story you told. You are very brave for sharing your tragedy with us. I am so sorry that you lost Erin. It sounded like you were telling my parent's story, except we don't have an ending yet. I applaude you for getting out there and informing people about what this drug can really do to yourself and your family. My brother has been addicted to heroin for 11 years(that he admits to). So we have been living this nighmare for some time. After seeing your program I heard a radio ad. for a website called "turntohelp.com". It is promoting the medication suboxin( I think that is what is called). Well, I don't think I would have paid attention to the ad if I had not heard your presentation. I shared this with my brother and he actually made some calls. He ended getting meds for 1 week. That is all he could afford because he has no insuarance and doesn't qualify for medicaid. But we had one more week. He feels like this med. helps. Do you know why it is not more accessible? Any advise on how to help and support a 36 year old addict?
Thank you for listening.
Stacey Papa
Stacey Papa <lexi.gabi@comcast.net>
USA - Thursday, October 04, 2007Erin's book hits so close to home. she seemed to be very aware of what this drug had done to her. she was not happy where it took her. she was a very bright young lady and I cannot imagine the pain her family feels everyday without her. God bless you all!
Mary
wilmington, de USA - Monday, October 01, 2007Marie,
You shared Erin's story for a group of EAP rep's at Black Lake in Michigan in May 07. I was there and bought a couple of copies of her book! I want you to know I've used it alot to help others who are still struggling. I particularly read to them page 15 which so perfectly describes our pain. I've been recovering 25 years and I still cry reading that page, for all those still suffering. I recently used it to share with a new recovery group at our church, and at an addictions class at Indiana Weselyan University. Thanks for doing what you do! Chuck
Chuck McCoskey <charles.a.mccoskey@delphi.com>
Kokomo , In. USA - Wednesday, September 19, 2007This is truly a heart breaking story. It kills me to hear these true life stories because my 26 year old brother is a herion addict and has been for quite sometime. He is out on the streets now, my parents kicked him out and I am afraid to get that call that he was found dead. I pray for him everyday and hope that God can lead him in the right direction.
Lauren Melnicki <lemelnicki@yahoo.com>
Fitchburg, Ma USA - Saturday, September 15, 2007hi..sorry to here about your daughter. i am also an addict-a recovering addict- and i stumbled on your site by accident.
im struggling abit and for some reason i did a google search on heroin. im thinking of using or WAS thinking. after reading erins story i feel stronger and can fight this.
on the 24th i will have a year clean. i just wanted u to know you helped atleast this addict stay clean JUST FOR TODAY!
my name is michael an i am an addict.
michael <mmarch212@aol.com>
philly, pa USA - Wednesday, September 12, 2007My heart goes out to you. My little brother was killed on his birthday (8/30/2007) and we have since found out about his heroin addiction. Apparently, he has been severely addicted for 10 years and we did not know. My heart breaks today because I will not have him in my life anymore. This drug is scary and the people who deal it to our loved ones should all roast for eternity!!!
Courtney <Lilmerm615@aol.com>
NC USA - Tuesday, September 11, 2007Hi Marie...it has been a while since i have been on erin's web site. Mainly because shortly after I celebrated 7 months clean, i decided that i wanted to get high again. and once again, it took me into the deepest darkest parts of a human soul. I am 3 weeks clean and I am waiting on a bed at rehab. I am back at home with mom and dad. On wednesday, my BEST friend overdosed and died on his bed. if that doesn't wake me up than I don't know what will. If I hadn't checked myself into detox again than I would have been laying there right next to him. I hope that you are still sharing erin's story in the schools. We need to stop this. it's not fun and games anymore. We are losing too many people!!!
Kristen <kristenkay78@hotmail.com>
Dover, DE USA - Tuesday, September 11, 2007Just wanted to stop by again. I was thinking about Erin today. I've been thinking about all of our kids. How strange to think my boy has only been gone 8 and 1/2 weeks. It seems like forever. It seems like this morning. I'm not doing well. Neither are Dallas' brothers. The youngest one is grieving deeply and finds himself unable to let anyone touch anything his brother gave to him.
I don't know how the heart can still beat when it hurts this much. Somedays are just black and cold. Other days grey and numb. He took the sun and moon with him when he left.
If only, if only the tremendous love I had for Dallas could have saved him. If only I could have taken his place...all his dreams would have come true. If only I could slay this demon for these beautiful kids. I know we all would. My thoughts are with you today and with all these beautiful human beings who fight their demon.
Love and Peace from Seattle. Angela Gwynn <gwynn_a@msn.com>
Seattle, WA USA - Sunday, September 09, 2007I appreciate you posting your story about your daughter it helps people like myself who is constantly battling the strife of heroin addiction. I try to console myself with reading about another person's point of view because it tends to be very difficult to decipher even my own actions at times. Having been through all the rehabs and overdoses myself as it cliche as this may sound I do try to take it oneday at a time. I often find myself saying if I can make it all day without getting high I can wait until tommorrow and see if I still feel the same.
Izabela Pietrusinska <brighteyes821@yahoo.com>
chester, va USA - Sunday, September 09, 2007Yes ive been an addict for 3 yrs now and im happy to be where i am. it truly is the devil!
What saved my life is subutex or buprenorphine. A miracle drug that you actually get to take home a Rx for up to 60 days!!! Its pricy and all doctors have a 30 patient limit but i think it is well worth it. Good luck
josh
snark <snarkelite@cableone.net>
Chino Valley , AZ USA - Friday, September 07, 2007I was give this website on a message board for families of addicts and I am at my wits end and I am trying so desperatley to help my sister which is in a situation that I know little about and seems to be some of what Erin was into. If there would be any way for you to contact me so that I may get some help in this matter I would greatly appreciate it.. I am at the end of my rope and have no idea what to do to help her.. I am sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine how this all must have effected you... I am sorry if this comes across selfish but I am in hopes that I never have to experience this.. My love and thoughts are with you....
Kristi Boggs <THATKINDAGIRL28@HOTMAIL.COM>
USA - Monday, September 03, 2007I have come to this site many times and each time it just breaks my heart. My son and his wife were addicted to heroin and have been clean since Feb 07. When I read what your sweet child went through it makes me see that the war with heroin is never over. I think Erin said it right when she referred to it as the devil.
Valerie <vjj7@yahoo.com>
Perkasie, PA United States - Sunday, September 02, 2007...so sad,so sad another young life gone.
and i know,how it feels to be hooked on heroin,because iam a heroin addict too and just waiting so i can get my next fix when the morning come...what a pain....on heroin for the last 14years now...
stop the drogwar and save lifes,follow Canada,Hollands,Spains drugpolicies,it is a medical problen not a criminal.
jovan <jovanfrajer@hotmail.com>
sweden - Saturday, September 01, 2007Hey NOW! all this winey winnine ways of CRYing, about how ruff and tuff herion is, distroying your Lives, Family, frends etc..Who is fooling WHO? You want OFF, than "COLD TURKEY" IF you make it "GOOD LUCK" and when you do make it, get back on track and get on with LIVEING, it's a good LIFE when you understand that Doing LIFE, free of drugs is where it's at, Blessing...
koyoda
USA - Thursday, August 30, 2007I read your daughter's story and I am so sorry that so many people have to die needlessly because of drugs. At the risk of sounding like a hypocrite, I am actually against the war on drugs, because I think it's doing more harm than good (e.g. putting people in jail instead of getting them help, forcing people to get drugs from violent criminals who might lace the substances, etc.) and, also, studies show that things become less desirable when they're legalized (has to do with the satisfaction of breaking the rules -- e.g. in Saudi Arabia, pornography is illegal, but 70% of people have porn on their cell phones -- that number isn't even close to that in places where it's legal). But, don't get me wrong, I am against harmful drugs themselves. I really hope that someday people won't use bad drugs so much and maybe the world could be better for it. My deepest sympathy, Erin's parents. And God bless you for fighting heroin use.
Brandon Route <bmroute@comcast.net>
PA USA - Friday, August 24, 2007I AS TOUCHED BY YOUR STORY AND I UNDERSTAND MY SISTER IS 27 AND SHE IS ADDICTED TO HERION
WE RECENTLY HAD A BROTHER A MONTH AGO THAT WAS
KILLED IN A MOTORCYCLE ACCIDENT WE HAVE DONE SO MUCH FOR HER TO TRY AND HELP HER SHE IS IN JAIL NOW UNTIL 10142007 AT THIS POINT I AM THANKFUL SHE IS THERE MY FAMILY HAS BEEN THRU SO MUCH WITH THE DEATH ON OUR FATHER AND OUR BROTHER I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO FOR MY SISTER SHE HAS STOLEN FROM ALL OF US DO YOU KNOW OF ANYTHING WE CAN DO TO HELP HER. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY
NANCY GILREATH <NANCYG_SFMC@HIGHLAND.NET>
PINEKNOT, KY USA - Wednesday, August 22, 2007It is frightening to read all the comments left on these pages. What has this world come too? Our children are dying and the drug problem seems to be getting worse instead of better. How many more youngsters have to die because of drugs? God bless everyone dealing with addiction in their families. One day we will this war.
A Mom
DE USA - Wednesday, August 22, 2007I helped Marie start this website in 1999, and each time I return to the pages I am amazed how the postings keep coming. There seems to be an endless sea of human misery in heroin addiction.
Mike
USA - Monday, August 20, 2007
