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Marie, I am so saddened by this story... I would like to add a link to my blog if ok with you? I have a 19 year old daughter who is a heroin addict - and am raising the grandson she conceived while on heroin. I hate heroin, and what it does to addicts and those who love them. Hugs ~Athena Athena <jsoeur@gmail.com>
Mesquite, Tx USA - Tuesday, June 30, 2009Hey now! just checking up on "you All" You know I have Nine years under me now, I'm doing LIFE, with someone who really CARES about me, I'm CLEAN and I Found the TRUE Spirite in me, it was, ME, MYSELF and I, thats it, thats your KEY , the question is Who I'm I, do I know myself, If you can't Love yorfself First, who can Best help you? Get to KNOW yourselfs, and If you really KNOW, CARE, and truly Love yourself How can you not, Quit, for the sake of LIFE that's what I mean, Look deep into yourself for self assureance and Love, you'll make out of that MESS you got yourself into, deal with it and come over and ENJOY Life.. Love you SELF First, befor you can HELP others. Blessing...
koyoda
USA - Monday, June 29, 2009I drive through the gates of this place now your home. I worry about you being cold and alone. On the radio I hear your favorite song. I roll down the window and I sing along. I miss your touch and your smiling face. Your in heaven now and God has taken my place. Some day we will be together again but until that time I play your song, I roll down the window and I sing along. Love you baby. Mom
Marie Allen (Erin's mom)
DE USA - Tuesday, June 23, 2009I thank god everyday that I am still here for the last 3yrs I have been a herion addict it has destroyed my life and myn childrens lives I dont understand why we lose sight of everything else but this evil drug knowing it can kill use and or leaves us with nothing I have been clean for 84 days I would not be able to do it without the help of god and the NA program. I am so... sorry about your lose! Please just dont pick up the first one it will kill you and take your soul. I hope this website can help save someones life!
Melanie <mel.stemler@yahoo.com>
Pittsburgh, pa USA - Monday, June 22, 2009Dear Ms. Allen,
Thank you so much for your story about your daughter. I am so sorry for your loss!! My prayers are with you and your family always. My family and I just found out that my nephew is addicted to heroin. He finally admitted to his dad and mother that he needs help and that he cannot kick this demon by himself. I am glad that he is asking for help. He hasn't been on it for years only about 6 months. He has tried to detox by himself but has realized that he needs professional help. I want him to read the story you have written about your daughter and I hope and pray that by him reading it hopefully it will help him to stay on the right path of rehabilitation and remember the distruction that this drug can cause. Thank you so much!!! And may god bless you and your family!!!
Tammie Wright <tammiejernigan@yahoo.com>
Charlotte, NC USA - Saturday, June 20, 2009I want to thank you for sharing your story. I have a brother who is very heroin addicted. My brother who feels like my son. My dad wallked out on us when I was 8 and my mom became very numb parenting. She new how to do. She took care of us the best way she kne whoe. It the midst of it all I became a mom at the age of 8. My bnrother became a drinker at the age of 11 and his first drug experience was at the age of 13. He will be 38 tom orrow (God willing). He hjas been on heroin now for 2 years. When I look at him I barely reccognize him and it breaks my heart. I do not know what to do! I just want to shake him. I know that one day I will bury him. This scares me to death. Please pray for us! I wil pray for you.
Christina Brown <Christinamjb1@yahoo.com>
Englewood, Oh USA - Friday, June 19, 2009i found out yesterday my daughter is using herion. she was using oxycotin for awhile, now this. i found this story looking for information about this drug. my heart breaks for you. it also breaks for brittany. we all feel helpless not knowing what to do. she is facing jail time for some driving charges. we are hoping this will clean her up for a bit and we can get through to her. i hope time will heal your pain. thank you for leaving you story online.
jenni <bgjeni@aol.com>
oh USA - Friday, June 19, 2009God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
a friend
USA - Thursday, June 18, 2009I am a heroin addict who just went through methadone withdrawls of 120mg during Chapter 13, 60mph Car Accident, and moving from a 4200 sqft house to a 1,400 sq ft apartment. I was a fiend in everyway, I shot crack, I didn't care about smoking it, I just did it when I couldn't shoot coke. I did heroin for 2 years straight until my runner was busted for murder, and giving a girl out of rehab in La Hacienda a fatal overdose. This crime is terrible, but the girl pulled the trigger on herself and registered knowing the heroin cliche of getting off your regular tolerance and shooting, pun intended, higher. I didn't know the girl but my heart goes out to her. And parents you can't blame yourselves, these drugs are more powerful then you'll ever understand. Like the idea of sharing a needle for a fix because you don't care you want to get high. My final shot of heroin was one that was near fatal. I had taken some benzo's along with an empty stomach and my breathing began to shut down, and I'm an addict at its worst, I shoot up in my hands. And if you mess up, I'm sure you understand the ramifications, you lose a finger or hand. I didn't care though, just had to get high, numb this pain I was unaware of in my self destruction. But websites like these need to educate, let people know that you can live without dope. I shouldn't be alive, I was supposed to die at 25 like the rest of you all experienced. My doctor's bet the house on my imminent death. Worse than cancer, since you can REALLY control it but you can't. Like a handicapped person, I let that number stick in my head, and decided I have too much in life to offer, like all addicts do. We sink ourselves into depression in the worst manners just to numb the pain. I don't like being a junkie, but i'm not a practicing one, and it took me meeting a person sicker than I am still alive for me to realize I could live. I'm 25 now, i'll be 26 in July, like all junkies, we tend to dissapoint. Stuart "Fizziend" Garner <independentlyinsane@gmail.com>
Austin, TX USA - Sunday, June 14, 2009Sorry for the loss of your daughter. Very touching I have 2 daughters. Can't imagine the
pain you are in. God Bless you and your family
Jon B.
Pa USA - Sunday, June 07, 2009Dear Marie,
I just wanted to say THANK YOU so much for what you do to help others who have an addiction. You recently visited my daughters school (Hanby Middle School) last week. She came home and told her mom-mom and myself about the assembly that you gave to the 8th grade class. This has really hit close to home since my sister is a recovering cocaine and herion addict. She has been clean for the past 81/2 months but it's not an easy battle. Our family pulled together to keep her clean and safe these past few months and we will continue to do it as long as she needs our support. I'm sorry that Erin couldn't overcome her demons with this horrible drug. Please continue to do what you have been doing by sharing Erin's story with others. If you hadn't come to Hanby to share your story I would have never been able to say Thank you for showing children and their parents that this demon is out there...
Tracey Dubbs <raynbodaze0516@yahoo.com>
Claymont, De USA - Thursday, June 04, 2009You visited our school. Your book touched me very much. My Aunt is a recovering Cocaine,Herion addict.She has been 6months. I actually agve here the book to read.It is a day by day struggle to pull your life back together.
Last Class of Hanby 2009 <Princess_702000@yahoo.com>
Claymont, De USA - Thursday, June 04, 2009Dear Mrs.Allen, you came and saw my school the other day. At the end I actually came up to you and told you thanks. As I had told you (which you probably don't remember, which is understandable) you're a very strong woman. I just wanted to maybe make a suggestion if you had a bit of extra time on your hands. There's a website you could possibly put Erin on. It's called findagrave.com I think you should check it out. Thanks again. Ashley <ashleylowell94@ymail.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Thursday, May 28, 2009Hi Marie I'll say a prayer for you and Erin. God bless you.
I just got out of the hospital-two weeks in a coma...I really dont remember what put me there..
best wishes to you.
Kitty Valera-Mulholland
Rehoboth Beach, DE USA - Thursday, May 28, 2009Marie, thank you so much for coming to my children's school. My daughter brought "Dope Help" home for me to read. I am so sorry for your loss, and admire how you transformed your pain to touch countless lives. May God bless you richly. My children's father is an addict. I left him six years ago, after many failed ultimatums. Thank you for reminding me that addicts are more than their addiction, because I still struggle with hatred towards him. I wish I had known 8 years ago that we were not alone and to not be so ashamed. I still struggle with shame for his problem. I don't know if better family programs would have changed a thing, and I am so grateful for the life I have now, but I would like to let go of the shame and hatred.
kelly brown <redonthehed@comcast.net>
Salisbury, Md USA - Friday, May 22, 2009Dear Marie, Just wanted to let you know I did everything I could for Heidi. But she got hooked upwith a crack head, and is now facing ten charges.......Oh she is iff the heroin and methadone, one thing to another..You take care....¢¾
susie fleck <susienmike@comcast.net>
hbg, pa USA - Thursday, May 21, 2009Mrs Allen, I am so sorry for your pain. I know you do not know me. I think it is wonderful what you are doing to help educate people about the dangers of herion and drugs in general. My dagughter's father is a herion addict I knew this when I met him I thought I could change him I guess in the end I could not.I thought with the birth of my daughter it would change him it did for a while but it went back to the same thing.I had to leave him.I let him see his daughter but never alone. I hope he gets help so that he wiil be able to see his daugther grow up but in my heart I know this might not be the case.I thank you again for your wonderful work ou do. Nancy
nancy frink <nancyfrink@yahoo.com>
PAWTUCKET, RI USA - Tuesday, May 19, 2009Hello Mrs.Allen, you were at my school today. i was the boy with glasses who came up to give you that card. i hope you remember me. may i say it was a honor for you to come to our school. and may i ask for you to e-mail me the last photo of erin. thank you mrs allen it really was an honor
Tyler Hastings tyler hastings <sk8er4lyfe326@aim.com>
Salisbury, MD USA - Tuesday, May 19, 2009well, i would like to say thanks for coming to my school. i have had the same problem with heroin. when was ten i my aunt died from an overdose. i was at her house and i didnt see her for about 2 hours and she said she was just going to take a quick shower. and so i unlocked her bathroom and found her leaning over the bath tub. i said aunt libby get up and got no response. then i look down on my feet and saw the needle. i had no idea what it meant. i am now 13 and still remember that day like it was yesterday. i grabbed the needle and called 911. i still have the needle to this day locked up in a clear case that i cant get open and whenever i go to my closet and see that there it reminds me of what heroin can do to you. i hate the feeling i had that day. and i hope i never have to feel it again. whenever i lay down to go to sleep i see my aunt libby hanging over the bath tub. she was my idle. i will never forget her. and i was so glad you came to my school to explain to the students what heroin can do to you. thank you so mucnh. and i realize what you went through was much worse. but we both lost someone we loved dearly. and they will always be with us. i love her. and will pray for you. :) thank you.
shelby <sissyc3@verizon.net>
salisbury, MD USA - Monday, May 18, 2009thanks for coming to are school and sharing your story it must have taken so much courage to get up there and talk about someone so close to you. I know someone who is very close to me who does drugs and i have seen him change, not as bad as Erin but i see difference.
a friend <sm95521@gmail.com>
USA - Monday, May 18, 2009Hi Marie
Just wanted to give you a update on things. My son's daddy is doing really good living in a half way house in Philly. This past weekend I took Lil Jimmy to see his daddy they spend the all day together, they had so much fun playing baseball, going to the carnival was really nice seeing them together. When it was time to take him back to the half way house Lil Jimmy was so upset crying. I think that got to his daddy for the first time seeing his son crying for him. They hugged each other good bye both crying was very difficult for all of us but he is clean going to meeting's and being a daddy.So for now he has been clean 3 months.Lil Jimmy asked his daddy Why are you always in the hospital? That really caught both of us off guard I let him reply and he said no more hospitals for daddy I am feeling better. He also said to me he wants to be there for Lil Jimmmy he's getting older and needs his daddy. I am so proud of him and hope and pray he stays clean our son needs his daddy to. I am so grateful for Erins website she has helped so many people and so have you. Thanks
Wendy <amadeus522002@aol.com>
Newark, De USA - Monday, May 18, 2009just wanted to say that im sorry for your lost, and few years back you came to my school and told us about your daughter and her addiction to drugs. and because of you, i always said no.I just lost my cousin few weeks ago to drugs. This iz so sad and i wish there could be an end to drugs. My heart goes out to you, And may God bless you and your soul. So how iz your other daughter doing? Well i hope you continue you work and pass the message along it works are there are people listening.. I did... Thanks for you strong support to spread the news about this. Your a wonderful person..
Amanda <seetizcute@yahho.com>
new castle, de USA - Friday, May 15, 2009Mrs Allen, thank you
a friend
MD USA - Thursday, May 14, 2009this may be Danielle's email address -
dkiser742@Yahoo.com
anon <anoxd987678655@dodgeit.com>
london, USA - Thursday, May 07, 2009I have been clean and sober for 21 months now after a 10 year battle with heroin. I am only 26 years old. I have 3 children. I just finished reading your book about Erin and I just wanted to say that I am extremely sorry for your loss. I hope Erin is dancing with the angels, and I know her demons are no longer haunting her. I have done all sorts of horrible things, including stealing from my family, lying to everyone and the worst of all is I gave birth to a drug-addicted child. My children are happy and healthy today, and that is all because I am happy and healthy. I thank God everyday for another chance and for AA. I hope you find peace in the fact that Erin can no longer be harmed.
Liz <mccarthy52198@yahoo.com>
USA - Thursday, May 07, 2009her story touched my heart. my new boyfriend is on that drug and i dont know if i can make it work. i'm a very hard working person and i'm scared that this drug will destroy what we have. do you have any suggestions. should i just end it and save myself the heart ache.
taylor <princessasst@yahoo.com>
phila, pa USA - Sunday, May 03, 2009Danielle, I can't seem to get your email address to work. hope you read this message. thanks Marie
Marie Allen <mallen@nccde.org>
USA - Sunday, May 03, 2009My dear sweet baby girl began using heroin within the past two months. She is 19 now, and every day I am consumed with trying to figure out a way to get her help. She is still lying about it. It sucks, and I am SO, so sorry for your loss. God Bless, and thank you for sharing your story.
MARY MASON <cherrymaryuzbuz@yahoo.com>
Boulder City, NV USA - Saturday, May 02, 2009Mrs Allen, I contacted you once befor about erins journals and didnt have the heart to tell you that i couldnt find them so i avoided you. i have found one of the 2 that i had and if you will tell me what to do with it i will be happy to.
Danielle M <dkiser742Yahoo.com>
wilmington, de USA - Friday, May 01, 2009i am so sorry for your loss erin would b so proud of you warning others
c mills <simbatopcat@gmail.com>
wilmington, de USA - Friday, April 24, 2009I'm a recovering addit and have 4 young children, people think of herion addits as people who can't look after themselves never mind children. My children are a picture of health and love me very much as i do them, i'm not saying it had no affect on them cause it probley did. As an recovring addit i feel for people who can't get away from this evil drug. My thoughts are with the families who have lost the people close to them through this devostating drug.
Adele <adele_wlknsn@yahoo.com>
Hartlepool, England - Thursday, April 23, 2009Your story is heartbreaking, and one I am scared will soon be my own. It is my dad, not my daughter, but the pain is the same. May God be with you.
Malina <mlolonia@hotmail.com>
Albuquerque, NM USA - Monday, April 20, 2009I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my son 11-30-07 to a drug overdose too. Heroin, or whatever he could get. Fentanyl was what he overdosed on. I agree with Erin. Drugs are the Devil. Seduces you as an angel of light and steals your life little by little. A wise young woman. Evil stole my baby, and the evil was drugs. No one can imagine the horror of watching your child slowly die over time, knowing where it will end. Still you are never prepared when that phone call comes. I am so sorry that you, as her adoring parents, were treated with such cold disrespect. She was a human being created and loved by God. She was more than her addiction. She was and will always be precious in God's sight as well as yours. He sees the brokeness deep inside that she tried to numb, and His tears mingle with yours. May her soul rest peacefully in her Father's embrace. May your hearts as her parents be soothed with the knowledge that God's love covers over our every mistake. God bless you and in the years to come may you find joy once again. Love and Blessings to you....Scottsmom
Scott's mom
Slidell, LA USA - Tuesday, April 07, 2009This past weekend (March 27-28), a national dialogue took place in Rockville, MD. The
meeting included 65 members of families of youth impacted by the disease of addiction
from 34 states and tribes across the United States, along with representatives from
Georgetown University, and the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services
Administration (SAMHSA).
Family members identified several challenge areas in treatment and recovery for youth
with substance use disorders. The top two challenges are 1) a lack of education and
information support for family members and 2) a lack of access to substance abuse
treatment for youth and their families. Other challenges include 3) a lack of integrated
treatment for youth with both substance abuse and mental health disorders, 4) the stigma
and misunderstanding of the disease of substance abuse and addiction, and 5) the quality
of treatment for youth with the disease.
Work was begun at the conference to build a national clearinghouse to contain a
centralized repository of information for families and others who need this information.
Also, web accessible training will occur on topics such as financial strategies for
providing treatment, recovery services, and education on addiction issues.
Family representatives from the states and tribes developed a plan to immediately begin
working on the major issues in their state/tribe, to meet with state/tribe substance abuse
agency heads and other parent organizations, and to make affirmative changes in the
challenge areas not only in their state/tribe, but also in the nation. Attendees will
continue to work as a group, and will be joined by others to fight this disease. Sharon
Smith, one of the conference organizers, said, “We are building a national voice for
positive change in youth substance abuse treatment and recovery.”
Marie Allen
DE USA - Tuesday, April 07, 2009
